cubey's perpetual spiral (trying to heal)
@z4kum14ngst1010.bsky.social
You know who I am, that's why you're here. • shtwt/bsky stay away from me I'm trying to heal • Mainly Mascotverse angst related art and vents • READ PINNED FOR THE TRIGGER WARNINGS • Normal art: @itsthecubekid.bsky.social - Alt: @cubeautismm.bsky.social
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Hey guys um, so this is the account where I'll post more disturbing shit and vent..
⚠️MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING FOR⚠️:
Self Harm (in drawings, not irl)
Suicide topics
Venting
Angst
Gore (in drawings)
And more stuff
YOU'RE TOTALLY FREE TO LEAVE IF YOU CAN'T STOMACH THESE STUFF!!
You have been warned
⚠️MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING FOR⚠️:
Self Harm (in drawings, not irl)
Suicide topics
Venting
Angst
Gore (in drawings)
And more stuff
YOU'RE TOTALLY FREE TO LEAVE IF YOU CAN'T STOMACH THESE STUFF!!
You have been warned
Reposted by cubey's perpetual spiral (trying to heal)
Sometimes I actually do feel guilty when I draw fucked up angst of Zakumi, knowing how happy and joyous he canonically is
I mean look at him that's my boy 🥹🥹💝💝
I mean look at him that's my boy 🥹🥹💝💝
December 16, 2025 at 1:38 AM
Sometimes I actually do feel guilty when I draw fucked up angst of Zakumi, knowing how happy and joyous he canonically is
I mean look at him that's my boy 🥹🥹💝💝
I mean look at him that's my boy 🥹🥹💝💝
I HATE MYSELF
February 5, 2026 at 5:22 AM
I HATE MYSELF
I deserve everyone to abandon me and tell me how much I suck and leave me rot
February 5, 2026 at 5:21 AM
I deserve everyone to abandon me and tell me how much I suck and leave me rot
I don't want to be around anyone anymore I deserve to be alone and I deserve to kill myself and die alone I don't deserve friends I don't deserve anyone good in my life
February 5, 2026 at 5:20 AM
I don't want to be around anyone anymore I deserve to be alone and I deserve to kill myself and die alone I don't deserve friends I don't deserve anyone good in my life
I deserve to be alone
February 5, 2026 at 5:19 AM
I deserve to be alone
I can't even get comforted by anyone while I'm having a severe breakdown without me telling them to stop trying and leave me alone
February 5, 2026 at 5:16 AM
I can't even get comforted by anyone while I'm having a severe breakdown without me telling them to stop trying and leave me alone
Having a suicidal crisis and a mental breakdown at the same time always shows the worst of me and I hate it so much
February 5, 2026 at 5:15 AM
Having a suicidal crisis and a mental breakdown at the same time always shows the worst of me and I hate it so much
Isn't it awesome how you say "oh I would never lash out at anyone!" and yet you just lashed out at someone while having a suicidal crisis and major mental breakdown begging them to leave you alone?
February 5, 2026 at 5:13 AM
Isn't it awesome how you say "oh I would never lash out at anyone!" and yet you just lashed out at someone while having a suicidal crisis and major mental breakdown begging them to leave you alone?
If ur shtwt uhhh go away please and thank you
February 4, 2026 at 3:40 AM
If ur shtwt uhhh go away please and thank you
//ugly vent art made on phone
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Giving my son my struggles because I love him and I want him to feel my pain 😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿
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Giving my son my struggles because I love him and I want him to feel my pain 😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿
January 31, 2026 at 5:18 AM
//ugly vent art made on phone
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Giving my son my struggles because I love him and I want him to feel my pain 😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿
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Giving my son my struggles because I love him and I want him to feel my pain 😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿😿
Fuck.
January 31, 2026 at 4:55 AM
Fuck.
Head feels so numb I can't even sleep and I can't stop crying
January 31, 2026 at 4:55 AM
Head feels so numb I can't even sleep and I can't stop crying
I want life to feel good again
January 31, 2026 at 4:09 AM
I want life to feel good again
I've been crying for probably +14 hours nonstop at this point and I still want to cry
January 31, 2026 at 4:04 AM
I've been crying for probably +14 hours nonstop at this point and I still want to cry
Haha
January 30, 2026 at 8:21 PM
Haha
Why do I hate myself so much?? why do I have this urge to self inflict as much pain as I could as a punishment????? why do I keep thinkign I deserve this?
January 24, 2026 at 4:49 AM
Why do I hate myself so much?? why do I have this urge to self inflict as much pain as I could as a punishment????? why do I keep thinkign I deserve this?
Why do I keep self convincing myself that I don't deserve good things, when will my mind stop sabotaging me and driving me into self harm or even suicide at some point
January 24, 2026 at 3:54 AM
Why do I keep self convincing myself that I don't deserve good things, when will my mind stop sabotaging me and driving me into self harm or even suicide at some point
//vent art, self harm, intrusive thoughts, self-projection
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It was either give my struggles to my comfort character, or keep cutting myself even more...
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It was either give my struggles to my comfort character, or keep cutting myself even more...
January 24, 2026 at 1:30 AM
//vent art, self harm, intrusive thoughts, self-projection
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It was either give my struggles to my comfort character, or keep cutting myself even more...
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It was either give my struggles to my comfort character, or keep cutting myself even more...
Oh my god
January 24, 2026 at 12:25 AM
Oh my god
Why did I survived my first suicide attempt
January 23, 2026 at 11:15 PM
Why did I survived my first suicide attempt
"Why do you self loathe so much to the point of physically harm you?"
I don't even know anymore
I don't even know anymore
January 23, 2026 at 11:11 PM
"Why do you self loathe so much to the point of physically harm you?"
I don't even know anymore
I don't even know anymore
Having art block due to depression sucks-
January 23, 2026 at 10:00 PM
Having art block due to depression sucks-
I was just a 11 year old who felt lonely and needed friends.
January 23, 2026 at 12:40 AM
I was just a 11 year old who felt lonely and needed friends.
I won't even bother to mention them, as I don't want to keep beating a dead horse at this point, and typing their name makes me anxious, and it's not even necessary either, you'll probably know already
But this one in particular hurt more, even if it's not the WORST, it hurt so much
But this one in particular hurt more, even if it's not the WORST, it hurt so much
I got traumatized both online and irl by fake friends, and after the whole thing with yk who, I don't even want to accept discord friend requests anymore regardless if I know the person in question or not
January 22, 2026 at 3:25 AM
I won't even bother to mention them, as I don't want to keep beating a dead horse at this point, and typing their name makes me anxious, and it's not even necessary either, you'll probably know already
But this one in particular hurt more, even if it's not the WORST, it hurt so much
But this one in particular hurt more, even if it's not the WORST, it hurt so much
The fact that I used to be a trusting person, someone who trusts anybody who's minimally nice to me and immediately want to be friends, and now I can't even trust my own friends because I'm traumatized is actually fucked up
January 22, 2026 at 3:20 AM
The fact that I used to be a trusting person, someone who trusts anybody who's minimally nice to me and immediately want to be friends, and now I can't even trust my own friends because I'm traumatized is actually fucked up