Shouldn't have decided to buy new processor, MB, RAM and case after last week, mentally exhausted and made dumb mistakes like messy paste application and buying a cooler bracket i didn't need, then I did a full reinstall losing my windows key and proceeded to delete the boot partition because (1/2)

Need to buy some new outfits for a con I'm going to and maybe I'm looking at the wrong shops but holy shit the uk sucks for clothes, I find something I like and i'd have to pay a bunch of import fees

Can people, bots, whatever stop going into random low number streams and trying to sell art by pretending to be friendly, I find it incredibly rude when my stream already has a bunch of emotes and I have a vtube avatar that I made myself, politely fuck off.

I haven't had my hair cut since February because my hairdresser decided to have a break. I need to find a new one, I feel like such a mess.

So tired this week, wanted to stream today but had a nap instead oops, dont know if streaming tomorrow either, having a day in york by myself Saturday so not sure if I can do a big Saturday stream either :(

Despair. People sometimes wonder why I'm cold, because I have to dissociate and sever my emotions and every time I think I lose a little bit of myself

Honestly don't know how to have a social life sometimes, full time job plus streaming plus relaxing time for myself plus time for specific friends doesn't leave much time for anything else, I'm just so tired man let me sleep and turn off. On a related note, streams should be back soon.

Was planning for a while to buy an nvidia 5090 or a 5080 but saw the garbage value and limited availability so took the money and bought a new phone from a company that can actually launch products instead, it's not out of stock and still cheaper than a 5080. GPU market is such a joke.

I'd love to live in a city, every time I go to manchester I'm in awe the amount of places to go and people to see, I feel like I'm just rotting away in my town.

Was going to post a face reveal picture but there's no privacy settings on bluesky so uh at that point i might as well just post it on my twitter but no thanks c:

I recently went way out of my comfort zone and kinda enjoyed it but now I have existential dread about what I've been doing with my life avoiding things I could have been enjoying all this time because of anxieties.

I know this is howling into the abyss but my god, I went onto my facebook to deactivate it since there's a future job interviewer on my friends list and it makes me uncomfortable, I get sidetracked looking at all these people I used to know living fun fulfilling lives and then there's me right here.

This. Is. My. First. Post.
I wonder when this site will be bought by a madman intent on destroying it.