ive been walking a lot, going into town a lot, spending a lot of time just physically being in my community, touching grass a lot. and really this should be improving my mental health. it's doing the complete opposite. i feel like garbage. i dont feel like myself. i feel lost.

i miss drawing, as much as i hate drawing and hate how hard it is, i miss it. and i cannot draw during the day. i just cant. i need the darkness of the night, the silence of the night, and the atmosphere of the night, to be able to draw without wanting to die.

YIPPEE same!

oh my god this means I could see you draw star catcher one day