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(dr.) asha

@biochemandowls.bsky.social

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 6h

ok actually only some of the lights are on sorry for partially false advertising

(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 6h

like. this is objectively not that pretty but it feels sooooo boston

an afternoon city streetscape in the rain

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 6h

I needed to change buses on huntington right as a BSO concert let out and it's cool and lightly raining and the street lights are on and everyone has umbrellas and I am romanticizing it probably too much but it feels so Boston

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 8h

I too would like strangers to call me pretty or to even think I'm pretty but sadly asking for it on bluesky doesn't seem to be a good way to make that happen

(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 8h

I mean I was actually not trying to be self deprecating I was trying to highlight that you know me and I know at least for me things like this feel somehow more impactful from strangers idk why

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 8h

oh also it turns out that the person serving us lived in the same area of bangalore that many of my dad's side relatives live in so like that was REALLY an accidental win

(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 8h

I tend to use different descriptors than "hot" but it's true (I'm not sure if I fit the description though)

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 8h

(I am half kannadiga but my dad can speak tamil so I never learned to speak kannada and i can only understand it, which is something that makes him frustrated with me, but like whose fault is that)

(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 8h

had to meet my uncle who is visiting from bangalore for lunch (it went ok actually) so I suggested an Ethiopian place and when we got there he overheard the waiters speaking kannada to each other and was completely overjoyed to be able to speak kannada with them so. accidental win I guess

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 14h

that's very relatable too unfortunately. I'm not sure I have been able to get there yet. but I do try

(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 14h

I unfortunately kind of need external validation because um. I didn't receive much for most of my life other than achievements and accomplishments. so feeling like you can do things for years and have effectively nothing to show for it was hard for me

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 14h

yeah no obviously I'm not saying I regret doing it, but it FOR SURE made it much harder to do like, anything else

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naturepoker @binomicalabs.org · 14h

Experiment designs.

Ms T 🐘💙🎵📚 @elephantlass.bsky.social · 20h

Sunday

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 14h

how to get a science PhD:
go to lab
always do one fewer experiment than you need to make a major impact
cry

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 14h

(also figuring out transition in the MIDDLE of the PhD was probably also not the easiest)

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 14h

I think it's also that I don't work well in a massively unstructured environment and that caused a lot of stress and guilt and mental strain that would have been avoided in a working environment with a bit more external structure, but that is just how grad school is

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 14h

I'm back here again sorry but I had not been picked up and spun around since I was too young to remember probably and it was so sweet and silly and loving and everything good 💜🫂

(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 14h

that sounds like a really lovely time
for me it wasn't so good, but there were a lot of good things about it that I will probably miss, and the bad things might be to some degree science PhD related so there is that

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 14h

unfortunately I fear the grad school experience is never *not* embarrassing, even in dreams 😭

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 23h

ok. sorry, I got inside my head with the anxiety and let it take over a little bit. I'll try to focus instead on the wonderful time we had together and how much I want to do it again

(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 23h

but I guess this is not how you think of it actually?

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 23h

my hair will be in absolute ruins by the end of this, whatever will I do

(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 23h

thank you

I think the specific anxiety is something like: you both obviously had a really wonderful time without me after I had to head back to NY, so expressing that I wanted to stay longer might have removed some of that time and therefore been bad/disrespectful to suggest, if that makes sense

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 23h

not AGAIN

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(dr.) asha @biochemandowls.bsky.social · 23h

(but if I was please tell me so I can fix it)