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elfenzo.bsky.social
we don't get anywhere near the Kingdom leaving people behind/throwing anyone under any buses.

you just don't do that with a clean conscience
elfenzo.bsky.social
I use my phone/screens to sooth myself, when I get stressed by the environment, so maybe I'm not a good judge
elfenzo.bsky.social
Why, and I'm genuinely not being obtuse I want to understand, are parents so encouraged to stop kids having screens?
elfenzo.bsky.social
I'm logically opposed to capitalism, so that's a good way of turning my thinking around! I don't have to be productive to be valid
elfenzo.bsky.social
I think you're right, on a logical level. But I think I still struggle with internalised ableism. I don't feel useful; it's also a capitalism thing, I think - I sort of think I have to be productive to be useful?
elfenzo.bsky.social
Physically, I *used* to be fit and able to help people - and mentally, I could do... Stuff.

I just need to think about how I can be helpful
elfenzo.bsky.social
I've been thinking about community.

I've withdrawn from my local Quaker meeting - basically, I don't feel I have anything, physical or mental, to offer a community.

I don't know what to do with that
elfenzo.bsky.social
I can't do MHAD and stuff; it feels disingenuous when mentally ill people are basically treated like someone who should be locked in an attic/distress is minimised
samwhyte.bsky.social
Apparently, it's Mental Health Awareness Day, but I can't help but feel 15 solid years of scrounger rhetoric has made a mockery of it.

If you don't accept that mental illness is real and often profoundly disabling, then you're stoking continued ignorance. No accommodation can be made with that.
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elementalamber.bsky.social
Can’t wash this damned spot off your hands, any of you.
elfenzo.bsky.social
It's amazing. I appreciate every 'full' meal
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caioalmendra.bsky.social
Fun fact: Maria Colina Machado SUPPORTS Donald Trump sinking fishing boats off their coast.
logicallyjc.bsky.social
I like how they gave the Nobel Prize to someone fighting for democracy in Venezuela, instead of someone sinking fishing boats off their coast.
elfenzo.bsky.social
Stac Pollaidh 😌
Photo of the mountain stac Pollaidh, with a tree in the foreground
elfenzo.bsky.social
The Flow Lands from Cnoc Craggie
Photo of a distant mountain in Scotland
elfenzo.bsky.social
Just had to tell a ghillie I don't eat fish; feel like I just failed some kind of test
elfenzo.bsky.social
😁🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿
A rainbow in a Scottish glen
elfenzo.bsky.social
I'm on holiday 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿
Sketchbook page showing an abstracted Scottish landscape
elfenzo.bsky.social
I managed to forget the moon exists last night, so that was good.

Looking at the sky, thinking 'wow I wonder what's making light up there at this time'
elfenzo.bsky.social
I'm enjoying it! Elizabeth Taylor keeps occasionally popping into my head
elfenzo.bsky.social
There can be a tendency to minimise oppression, to ask the oppressed to be bigger - no. Nope. No.

We *all* need to do that work.

I don't know where I'm going with this one, I've got no insight, but yeah
elfenzo.bsky.social
'Love your neighbour' is the theme for Quaker week.

I get the sentiment, where it comes from, and where it wants to go; but we have to think really carefully about asking oppressed people to love someone who is oppressing them
elfenzo.bsky.social
Can you tell, I'm Watching Telly? I don't watch proper programmes and adverts and stuff often, and apparently, I can't cope with it
elfenzo.bsky.social
'Did you know that if you shave, 1/3 of what you remove is skin?'

Thanks, Dove, I didn't, because no one should know that
elfenzo.bsky.social
'Did you know that if you shave, 1/3 of what you remove is skin?'

Thanks, Dove, I didn't, because no one should know that
elfenzo.bsky.social
Yeah, I abandoned that, it was horrendous