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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 6h

Not that I expect anything from it but it would be nice if something came out of it. That one shipper that's been giving you sporadic yet consistent content over the last 8 years is from JA and she'd really appreciate your well-wishes 💓

Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 6h

I've always kinda imbued a little bit of tropical aes into all of my art but Vacation is literally supposed to be a "they're on the north coast" piece

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 6h

Putting a supportjm link on my Keith/Allura art whenever I publish it... eventually

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

I think I'm just gonna need to take a breather for the rest of the week emotionally. Idk what I'm gonna do but... my emotions feel odd and I'm just sitting here.

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

I have been emotionally on 100 for at least a week. I had a shutdown the night before the hurricane and right now I'm just sluggish through it. The heat isn't helping

Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

My week was something else too like I went from meeting up with my friend after weeks, running through a thunderstorm to rescue a 2-day-old kitten that was abandoned, to having to plan for a tropical depression, no — tropical storm, no — a hurricane — wait it reach Cat 5 already wtf

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

It's kinda funny that I turned 30 and then 3 weeks later I had to experience this like YUP okay!

Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

I'll be fine, I'm going through whatever motion this is actually.

Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

For what it's worth, I am trying to be happier, but sometimes when you try it feels like... an attempt that's not a completely sincere one. Like I can't tell you I feel happy... I haven't felt happy in over a week at this point. I've been going through grades of contentment and pride but happiness?

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

Also I haven't been sleeping well particularly because of the heat. So that too.

I'm sure I'll be fine later this week, maybe I do need to fully disconnect for a few hours. But mmm I'm tired. That's all I can say is that I'm tired.

Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

Truthfully though.... I think my mental state is just a reflection of... a lot of my mental and physical exhaustion from prep, all of the stress of the anticipation/forecasts, the discomfort of the heat, the weight of online media and the grief I'm feeling overall about what happened in the West.

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

Rn I'm looking at the last few pics I took of the Vacation wip and I'm really happy with a lot of the stuff I did ☺️ I'm not sure when I'll publish it, but it's coming along

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

Okay enough of my anger and disdain!!!!!!!!@!!!!!!!

Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

I know they were there with the other Caribbean students sharing jokes and vibes about Iverson

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

When I'm more in the drawing mood today or tonight, gonna probably try sketching out Hunk and friends cooking oxtail or playing dominoes or sumn

Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

Subverting all these fandomites seeing Hunk be half-Black, half-Samoan and overwhelmingly focusing on his Samoan side, by making personal content of Hunk indulging in his mom's (and his) Jcan culture 🙂‍↕️

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

All I can manifest thinking about rn is Hunk and Allura, which makes sense considering they're the two characters I align so strongly with the Jcan experience (Allura more Caribbean in general) and Lance as well... yea. That's all I got

Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

You know what would be nice... I would love to be able to turn my brain onto thinking about my muses and their friends again so that I can be happier.... anyways I'm not caring about fandom discourse anymore. The last thing I need rn is to feel frustrated at fandom butchering characters again

Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

Stuff like this is exactly why Lance and Hunk being friends make sense.

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

You know what would be nice... I would love to be able to turn my brain onto thinking about my muses and their friends again so that I can be happier.... anyways I'm not caring about fandom discourse anymore. The last thing I need rn is to feel frustrated at fandom butchering characters again

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Link is still not free. @davidmordecai.com · 2d

The Jamaican Government has set up a portal for people wanting to provide support supportjamaica.gov.jm

This is the situation at one of the private hospitals in Kingston, a location far less affected than other parts of the island. Many people and places are facing much more damage. #Melissa

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The Associated Press @apnews.com · 2d

BREAKING: Twenty-five people died in southern Haiti after a river flooded by Hurricane Melissa burst its banks, the mayor of a coastal town told AP.

Live updates: Hurricane Melissa hits Cuba after pummeling Jamaica with record wind speeds

Hurricane Melissa made landfall in eastern Cuba near the city of Chivirico early Wednesday as a Category 3 storm after pummeling Jamaica as one of the strongest Atlantic hurricanes on record, the U.S. National Hurricane Center said.

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

Retire the name Melissa as soon as she dies in the upper Atlantic. That name will forever be a curse.

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

I'm really sitting on my roof with tears in my eyes like cut the cameras.

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

Like people hurricane-proofed their houses so much in the West and she came and ripped off the hurricane-proofing. Girl what the fuck.

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Dee 🌺 @syntiannitrate.bsky.social · 2d

Either way I'm kinda holding a ton of grief and it's showing so clear on my face bc my neighbour told me I don't look okay at all 🫠😓