becky - a tortured poet
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amateur writer | wannabe stand up comedian | 30 | DV survivor | literally always online (she/her) | Lupus | POTS | all views are mine
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this is your warning, written in plain language:
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.
when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.
when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.
the carpathia and the heat of mercy
they want us to feel like we can’t fight this. but the thing about humanity is that we always have.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/two-days-o...
they want us to feel like we can’t fight this. but the thing about humanity is that we always have.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/two-days-o...
January 24, 2026 at 3:20 PM
the carpathia and the heat of mercy
they want us to feel like we can’t fight this. but the thing about humanity is that we always have.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/two-days-o...
they want us to feel like we can’t fight this. but the thing about humanity is that we always have.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/two-days-o...
maybe i’ve already lived all my best days
and maybe that’s actually ok.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/i-already-...
and maybe that’s actually ok.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/i-already-...
January 23, 2026 at 8:49 PM
maybe i’ve already lived all my best days
and maybe that’s actually ok.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/i-already-...
and maybe that’s actually ok.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/i-already-...
something i haven’t talked about many places really is that my mom works in a job that makes her a direct target for ICE.
early last year trump accused organizations like the one she is at of aiding domestic terrorists.
we had some hard conversations this weekend. about what activism means.
early last year trump accused organizations like the one she is at of aiding domestic terrorists.
we had some hard conversations this weekend. about what activism means.
January 12, 2026 at 12:32 AM
something i haven’t talked about many places really is that my mom works in a job that makes her a direct target for ICE.
early last year trump accused organizations like the one she is at of aiding domestic terrorists.
we had some hard conversations this weekend. about what activism means.
early last year trump accused organizations like the one she is at of aiding domestic terrorists.
we had some hard conversations this weekend. about what activism means.
if you are waiting for a moment when everyone agrees something has gone too far —
you will wait until there is nothing left to save.
if you are waiting for permission to resist —
you will never receive it.
power does not grant consent to be challenged.
you will wait until there is nothing left to save.
if you are waiting for permission to resist —
you will never receive it.
power does not grant consent to be challenged.
January 9, 2026 at 10:58 AM
if you are waiting for a moment when everyone agrees something has gone too far —
you will wait until there is nothing left to save.
if you are waiting for permission to resist —
you will never receive it.
power does not grant consent to be challenged.
you will wait until there is nothing left to save.
if you are waiting for permission to resist —
you will never receive it.
power does not grant consent to be challenged.
this is your warning, written in plain language:
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.
when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.
when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.
January 8, 2026 at 8:53 AM
this is your warning, written in plain language:
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.
when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.
when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.
for those of us who maybe need permission to let today look a lot like yesterday. and to make tomorrow more of the same.
f*ck the fresh start
on choosing familiarity in a month obsessed with reinvention
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January 1, 2026 at 10:48 PM
for those of us who maybe need permission to let today look a lot like yesterday. and to make tomorrow more of the same.
in July, i decided to give tiktok a real shot. at first it was bc i wanted to try finding new places to share things i write, but quickly became a fun and new creative outlet for me.
i have posted at least once every day since July 8th. I have gotten nearly 4k new followers and almost 10M views !!
i have posted at least once every day since July 8th. I have gotten nearly 4k new followers and almost 10M views !!
December 31, 2025 at 11:50 AM
in July, i decided to give tiktok a real shot. at first it was bc i wanted to try finding new places to share things i write, but quickly became a fun and new creative outlet for me.
i have posted at least once every day since July 8th. I have gotten nearly 4k new followers and almost 10M views !!
i have posted at least once every day since July 8th. I have gotten nearly 4k new followers and almost 10M views !!
tomorrow is the anniversary that marks 13 years since the sandy hook shooting. the event that should have been the turning point in this gun control conversation.
the fact that it wasn’t. and that if those babies had lived they would be in college now. and
the fact that it wasn’t. and that if those babies had lived they would be in college now. and
December 13, 2025 at 11:02 PM
tomorrow is the anniversary that marks 13 years since the sandy hook shooting. the event that should have been the turning point in this gun control conversation.
the fact that it wasn’t. and that if those babies had lived they would be in college now. and
the fact that it wasn’t. and that if those babies had lived they would be in college now. and
the big beautiful bill now has a work requirement attached to it in order to receive food stamps.
if you can’t find work, you can volunteer. i’ve been job hunting for a job with accommodations for almost 3 years. no luck.
found a place that’ll take my labor for free, though.
if you can’t find work, you can volunteer. i’ve been job hunting for a job with accommodations for almost 3 years. no luck.
found a place that’ll take my labor for free, though.
December 7, 2025 at 11:52 PM
the big beautiful bill now has a work requirement attached to it in order to receive food stamps.
if you can’t find work, you can volunteer. i’ve been job hunting for a job with accommodations for almost 3 years. no luck.
found a place that’ll take my labor for free, though.
if you can’t find work, you can volunteer. i’ve been job hunting for a job with accommodations for almost 3 years. no luck.
found a place that’ll take my labor for free, though.
there’s a 35 min doc on netflix called “all the empty rooms”. cataloguing the empty (but preserved) bedrooms of kids who have died in school shootings
if you can watch this & still believe we don’t have a gun problem in this country i do not believe you deserve to walk the earth
if you can watch this & still believe we don’t have a gun problem in this country i do not believe you deserve to walk the earth
December 6, 2025 at 2:14 AM
there’s a 35 min doc on netflix called “all the empty rooms”. cataloguing the empty (but preserved) bedrooms of kids who have died in school shootings
if you can watch this & still believe we don’t have a gun problem in this country i do not believe you deserve to walk the earth
if you can watch this & still believe we don’t have a gun problem in this country i do not believe you deserve to walk the earth
i survived the stress test! barely but it did happen 😅 heart rate hit 184 in under 6 minutes.
didn’t get any of the scary symptoms! i’m so exhausted now. this is where i’ll be for the next few days recovering
didn’t get any of the scary symptoms! i’m so exhausted now. this is where i’ll be for the next few days recovering
December 4, 2025 at 4:09 PM
i survived the stress test! barely but it did happen 😅 heart rate hit 184 in under 6 minutes.
didn’t get any of the scary symptoms! i’m so exhausted now. this is where i’ll be for the next few days recovering
didn’t get any of the scary symptoms! i’m so exhausted now. this is where i’ll be for the next few days recovering
i have a stress test tomorrow. i’m actually terrified of it because i can’t be on any of my meds and the last time i was that active without them i got chest pain and short of breath and vomiting and a migraine and pain radiating down my arm and up to my jaw.
December 4, 2025 at 12:14 AM
i have a stress test tomorrow. i’m actually terrified of it because i can’t be on any of my meds and the last time i was that active without them i got chest pain and short of breath and vomiting and a migraine and pain radiating down my arm and up to my jaw.
a food photographer i am not, but i made eggs benedict with homemade hollandaise sauce and it turned out delicious 🤤
December 3, 2025 at 11:28 PM
a food photographer i am not, but i made eggs benedict with homemade hollandaise sauce and it turned out delicious 🤤
i’m having stress dreams about a stress test i’m scheduled for this week.
December 2, 2025 at 8:34 PM
i’m having stress dreams about a stress test i’m scheduled for this week.
i love my parents with all my heart. they are the best people i know & i am so grateful for them
but i stg everything people do as they get older is just louder !!!
want to watch a movie? good luck. we’ve got one 60 year old toddler drinking glasses of milk and then clearing his throat all night.
but i stg everything people do as they get older is just louder !!!
want to watch a movie? good luck. we’ve got one 60 year old toddler drinking glasses of milk and then clearing his throat all night.
December 2, 2025 at 2:47 AM
i love my parents with all my heart. they are the best people i know & i am so grateful for them
but i stg everything people do as they get older is just louder !!!
want to watch a movie? good luck. we’ve got one 60 year old toddler drinking glasses of milk and then clearing his throat all night.
but i stg everything people do as they get older is just louder !!!
want to watch a movie? good luck. we’ve got one 60 year old toddler drinking glasses of milk and then clearing his throat all night.
ended this week by decorating the house for christmas.
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
December 1, 2025 at 1:29 AM
ended this week by decorating the house for christmas.
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
i’m in a family of passive know-it-alls and i cannot explain to you how much hell i’m in now that we are trialing a monthly game night to hang out more since gramps died.
November 29, 2025 at 9:53 PM
i’m in a family of passive know-it-alls and i cannot explain to you how much hell i’m in now that we are trialing a monthly game night to hang out more since gramps died.
i managed to go my whole life and through the promo for two films without spoiling the plot and character connections in Wicked.
my mother spoiled the movie for me in under two minutes from the opening scene. she just leaned over and spilled the tea. like ???? help 😂
my mother spoiled the movie for me in under two minutes from the opening scene. she just leaned over and spilled the tea. like ???? help 😂
November 22, 2025 at 10:11 PM
i managed to go my whole life and through the promo for two films without spoiling the plot and character connections in Wicked.
my mother spoiled the movie for me in under two minutes from the opening scene. she just leaned over and spilled the tea. like ???? help 😂
my mother spoiled the movie for me in under two minutes from the opening scene. she just leaned over and spilled the tea. like ???? help 😂
my parents are having a spirited conversation about a hypothetical business where you rate landlords so tenants don’t get scammed.
they have had a mortgage since 1990. bought and sold 2 homes before the one they are in now.
why are they weighing pros and cons of this. i am going to die.
they have had a mortgage since 1990. bought and sold 2 homes before the one they are in now.
why are they weighing pros and cons of this. i am going to die.
November 17, 2025 at 12:25 AM
my parents are having a spirited conversation about a hypothetical business where you rate landlords so tenants don’t get scammed.
they have had a mortgage since 1990. bought and sold 2 homes before the one they are in now.
why are they weighing pros and cons of this. i am going to die.
they have had a mortgage since 1990. bought and sold 2 homes before the one they are in now.
why are they weighing pros and cons of this. i am going to die.
i am convinced the discourse about these emails is being algorithm suppressed bc how the fuck does it feel like no one is talking about it.
BUBBA BILL?? HE IS THE WORST PERSON EPSTEIN KNEW??
my brain is malfunctioning
BUBBA BILL?? HE IS THE WORST PERSON EPSTEIN KNEW??
my brain is malfunctioning
November 14, 2025 at 11:04 PM
i am convinced the discourse about these emails is being algorithm suppressed bc how the fuck does it feel like no one is talking about it.
BUBBA BILL?? HE IS THE WORST PERSON EPSTEIN KNEW??
my brain is malfunctioning
BUBBA BILL?? HE IS THE WORST PERSON EPSTEIN KNEW??
my brain is malfunctioning
“if liberals are so fucking smart how come they lose so goddamn always” - will mcavoy s1:e1 of the newsroom. the most evergreen quote of all time.
“we are reopening the govt on the PROMISE we will be allowed to vote about healthcare”
fucking morons. the lot of them.
“we are reopening the govt on the PROMISE we will be allowed to vote about healthcare”
fucking morons. the lot of them.
November 10, 2025 at 12:46 AM
“if liberals are so fucking smart how come they lose so goddamn always” - will mcavoy s1:e1 of the newsroom. the most evergreen quote of all time.
“we are reopening the govt on the PROMISE we will be allowed to vote about healthcare”
fucking morons. the lot of them.
“we are reopening the govt on the PROMISE we will be allowed to vote about healthcare”
fucking morons. the lot of them.
i will say that it feels profoundly difficult to emotionally process the hope of last year being absolutely railroaded to celebrating this year.
i’m glad for any win. any movement. but goddamnit where were you all last year.
why are we now cursed to celebrate with an asterisk of profound failure
i’m glad for any win. any movement. but goddamnit where were you all last year.
why are we now cursed to celebrate with an asterisk of profound failure
November 5, 2025 at 3:27 AM
i will say that it feels profoundly difficult to emotionally process the hope of last year being absolutely railroaded to celebrating this year.
i’m glad for any win. any movement. but goddamnit where were you all last year.
why are we now cursed to celebrate with an asterisk of profound failure
i’m glad for any win. any movement. but goddamnit where were you all last year.
why are we now cursed to celebrate with an asterisk of profound failure
look. i am the last person people look to for optimism or pollyanna perspectives.
but i have been shocked, in very good ways, by the outcomes tonight. and it goes past these very large races like VA or NYC.
my small (and VERY red town for the past 12 years) just elected a democratic mayor.
but i have been shocked, in very good ways, by the outcomes tonight. and it goes past these very large races like VA or NYC.
my small (and VERY red town for the past 12 years) just elected a democratic mayor.
November 5, 2025 at 2:56 AM
look. i am the last person people look to for optimism or pollyanna perspectives.
but i have been shocked, in very good ways, by the outcomes tonight. and it goes past these very large races like VA or NYC.
my small (and VERY red town for the past 12 years) just elected a democratic mayor.
but i have been shocked, in very good ways, by the outcomes tonight. and it goes past these very large races like VA or NYC.
my small (and VERY red town for the past 12 years) just elected a democratic mayor.
god the fact that we’ve gotten all these wins on the day dick cheney died is honestly incredible.
like he will enter that grave rolling over. he deserves every second of his legacy being overlooked.
like he will enter that grave rolling over. he deserves every second of his legacy being overlooked.
November 5, 2025 at 2:50 AM
god the fact that we’ve gotten all these wins on the day dick cheney died is honestly incredible.
like he will enter that grave rolling over. he deserves every second of his legacy being overlooked.
like he will enter that grave rolling over. he deserves every second of his legacy being overlooked.
do you know why today is a phenomenal day? it’s because the man who abused me for the better part of a decade now lives in a state run by a democrat, female governor and he can’t say shit about it without blowing his misogynistic identities he hides behind narcissism 🫶🏻😇
November 5, 2025 at 1:09 AM
do you know why today is a phenomenal day? it’s because the man who abused me for the better part of a decade now lives in a state run by a democrat, female governor and he can’t say shit about it without blowing his misogynistic identities he hides behind narcissism 🫶🏻😇