becky - a tortured poet
@beccalizz.bsky.social
amateur writer | wannabe stand up comedian | 30 | DV survivor | literally always online (she/her) | Lupus | POTS | all views are mine
https://soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/
https://soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/
the carpathia and the heat of mercy
they want us to feel like we can’t fight this. but the thing about humanity is that we always have.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/two-days-o...
they want us to feel like we can’t fight this. but the thing about humanity is that we always have.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/two-days-o...
January 24, 2026 at 3:20 PM
the carpathia and the heat of mercy
they want us to feel like we can’t fight this. but the thing about humanity is that we always have.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/two-days-o...
they want us to feel like we can’t fight this. but the thing about humanity is that we always have.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/two-days-o...
maybe i’ve already lived all my best days
and maybe that’s actually ok.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/i-already-...
and maybe that’s actually ok.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/i-already-...
January 23, 2026 at 8:49 PM
maybe i’ve already lived all my best days
and maybe that’s actually ok.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/i-already-...
and maybe that’s actually ok.
soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/i-already-...
if you are waiting for a moment when everyone agrees something has gone too far —
you will wait until there is nothing left to save.
if you are waiting for permission to resist —
you will never receive it.
power does not grant consent to be challenged.
you will wait until there is nothing left to save.
if you are waiting for permission to resist —
you will never receive it.
power does not grant consent to be challenged.
January 9, 2026 at 10:58 AM
if you are waiting for a moment when everyone agrees something has gone too far —
you will wait until there is nothing left to save.
if you are waiting for permission to resist —
you will never receive it.
power does not grant consent to be challenged.
you will wait until there is nothing left to save.
if you are waiting for permission to resist —
you will never receive it.
power does not grant consent to be challenged.
this is your warning, written in plain language:
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.
when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.
when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.
January 8, 2026 at 8:53 AM
this is your warning, written in plain language:
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.
when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.
when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.
in July, i decided to give tiktok a real shot. at first it was bc i wanted to try finding new places to share things i write, but quickly became a fun and new creative outlet for me.
i have posted at least once every day since July 8th. I have gotten nearly 4k new followers and almost 10M views !!
i have posted at least once every day since July 8th. I have gotten nearly 4k new followers and almost 10M views !!
December 31, 2025 at 11:50 AM
in July, i decided to give tiktok a real shot. at first it was bc i wanted to try finding new places to share things i write, but quickly became a fun and new creative outlet for me.
i have posted at least once every day since July 8th. I have gotten nearly 4k new followers and almost 10M views !!
i have posted at least once every day since July 8th. I have gotten nearly 4k new followers and almost 10M views !!
i survived the stress test! barely but it did happen 😅 heart rate hit 184 in under 6 minutes.
didn’t get any of the scary symptoms! i’m so exhausted now. this is where i’ll be for the next few days recovering
didn’t get any of the scary symptoms! i’m so exhausted now. this is where i’ll be for the next few days recovering
December 4, 2025 at 4:09 PM
i survived the stress test! barely but it did happen 😅 heart rate hit 184 in under 6 minutes.
didn’t get any of the scary symptoms! i’m so exhausted now. this is where i’ll be for the next few days recovering
didn’t get any of the scary symptoms! i’m so exhausted now. this is where i’ll be for the next few days recovering
a food photographer i am not, but i made eggs benedict with homemade hollandaise sauce and it turned out delicious 🤤
December 3, 2025 at 11:28 PM
a food photographer i am not, but i made eggs benedict with homemade hollandaise sauce and it turned out delicious 🤤
ended this week by decorating the house for christmas.
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
December 1, 2025 at 1:29 AM
ended this week by decorating the house for christmas.
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up
taking headshots for my mom’s coworkers.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
November 3, 2025 at 7:44 PM
taking headshots for my mom’s coworkers.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.
and more!!
like. i’m going insane. this book changed me and you’re telling me that bc jk rowling played a role in creating a universe that inspired the work that inspired this book im transphobic?? absolutely not.
like. i’m going insane. this book changed me and you’re telling me that bc jk rowling played a role in creating a universe that inspired the work that inspired this book im transphobic?? absolutely not.
October 2, 2025 at 6:45 PM
and more!!
like. i’m going insane. this book changed me and you’re telling me that bc jk rowling played a role in creating a universe that inspired the work that inspired this book im transphobic?? absolutely not.
like. i’m going insane. this book changed me and you’re telling me that bc jk rowling played a role in creating a universe that inspired the work that inspired this book im transphobic?? absolutely not.
some quotes (mild spoilers) from the book i’m being attacked for reading by keyboard warriors on tiktok. like. PLEASE. be fucking serious.
October 2, 2025 at 6:45 PM
some quotes (mild spoilers) from the book i’m being attacked for reading by keyboard warriors on tiktok. like. PLEASE. be fucking serious.
it is october 1st which means i will once again be going through this immaculate list of horror films provided by @masmus.bsky.social
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
October 1, 2025 at 10:25 PM
it is october 1st which means i will once again be going through this immaculate list of horror films provided by @masmus.bsky.social
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks.
as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition
going through some extensive medical testing currently - haven’t said much bc honestly it’s overwhelming and i feel miserable.
anyways. thanks to my dad for these moments of levity in the hard stuff 😂😂
anyways. thanks to my dad for these moments of levity in the hard stuff 😂😂
September 14, 2025 at 9:13 PM
going through some extensive medical testing currently - haven’t said much bc honestly it’s overwhelming and i feel miserable.
anyways. thanks to my dad for these moments of levity in the hard stuff 😂😂
anyways. thanks to my dad for these moments of levity in the hard stuff 😂😂
as important as it is for scripture to not be taken out of context and misapplied - i would say the same is true of quotes from classic literature.
one of my favorites comes from Moby Dick
“i know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, i’ll go to it laughing”
one of my favorites comes from Moby Dick
“i know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, i’ll go to it laughing”
August 15, 2025 at 2:12 AM
as important as it is for scripture to not be taken out of context and misapplied - i would say the same is true of quotes from classic literature.
one of my favorites comes from Moby Dick
“i know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, i’ll go to it laughing”
one of my favorites comes from Moby Dick
“i know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, i’ll go to it laughing”
oh the IG filter is going to dominate my life.
August 14, 2025 at 1:15 AM
oh the IG filter is going to dominate my life.
once again here to confirm that i am 99.8% straight - that .2% is taylor alison swift.
August 14, 2025 at 12:12 AM
once again here to confirm that i am 99.8% straight - that .2% is taylor alison swift.
she’s moving on from the manuscript of tortured poets into the life of a showgirl !!!!!
August 12, 2025 at 4:39 AM
she’s moving on from the manuscript of tortured poets into the life of a showgirl !!!!!
being a woman on the internet! a story in 4 photos!
i posted this 20 minutes ago and i actually thought i posted a nude accidentally with how quickly my notifications went off.
i posted this 20 minutes ago and i actually thought i posted a nude accidentally with how quickly my notifications went off.
July 29, 2025 at 12:09 AM
being a woman on the internet! a story in 4 photos!
i posted this 20 minutes ago and i actually thought i posted a nude accidentally with how quickly my notifications went off.
i posted this 20 minutes ago and i actually thought i posted a nude accidentally with how quickly my notifications went off.
we clean up pretty good
July 26, 2025 at 10:33 AM
we clean up pretty good
not me being caught shoeless and with a diet coke 😂😂
July 26, 2025 at 1:02 AM
not me being caught shoeless and with a diet coke 😂😂
another surreal moment is seeing all the decor make it there and actually look put together.
i’m grateful it didn’t look DIY in the end lol
i’m grateful it didn’t look DIY in the end lol
July 25, 2025 at 3:53 AM
another surreal moment is seeing all the decor make it there and actually look put together.
i’m grateful it didn’t look DIY in the end lol
i’m grateful it didn’t look DIY in the end lol
how you know you nailed it at the MOH sister speech.
1- i’m laughing
2- she’s mortified
3- everyone else is laughing while looking at her
1- i’m laughing
2- she’s mortified
3- everyone else is laughing while looking at her
July 25, 2025 at 3:27 AM
how you know you nailed it at the MOH sister speech.
1- i’m laughing
2- she’s mortified
3- everyone else is laughing while looking at her
1- i’m laughing
2- she’s mortified
3- everyone else is laughing while looking at her
the pics came back and i like how i look in them 😭😭😭💜💜💜💜
(posting this here bc it is entirely selfish to go through a 3000+ pic archive and find only the ones with you in it….but i had to know!!!)
(posting this here bc it is entirely selfish to go through a 3000+ pic archive and find only the ones with you in it….but i had to know!!!)
July 25, 2025 at 3:04 AM
the pics came back and i like how i look in them 😭😭😭💜💜💜💜
(posting this here bc it is entirely selfish to go through a 3000+ pic archive and find only the ones with you in it….but i had to know!!!)
(posting this here bc it is entirely selfish to go through a 3000+ pic archive and find only the ones with you in it….but i had to know!!!)
my sweetie boy is SIX today 🫶🏻✨😘
July 18, 2025 at 12:57 AM
my sweetie boy is SIX today 🫶🏻✨😘
have a friend who wants to learn to edit photos himself that people often ask AI to create - so he can sell his services on tiktok as a photographer and editor.
he asked to do a test rub on a pic of me from the wedding and he turned it into this and it’s become my whole personality — WHO IS SHE?!
he asked to do a test rub on a pic of me from the wedding and he turned it into this and it’s become my whole personality — WHO IS SHE?!
July 14, 2025 at 4:46 PM
have a friend who wants to learn to edit photos himself that people often ask AI to create - so he can sell his services on tiktok as a photographer and editor.
he asked to do a test rub on a pic of me from the wedding and he turned it into this and it’s become my whole personality — WHO IS SHE?!
he asked to do a test rub on a pic of me from the wedding and he turned it into this and it’s become my whole personality — WHO IS SHE?!