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Cooper
@cooperleef.bsky.social
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he/him - audhd - trans hottie
queer - polyam - aroace flux
pendragon rules round table member
creator of the 'rat colony' friendship bracelets
moderator on twitch and discord
pegasus pride recipient for cmdr sealed '24
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cooperleef.bsky.social
I have more words to share.
Cw for mental health
Idk why I posted that, or am posting all of this. Maybe I'm turning over a new leaf. Maybe I want to try and welcome people in, to really see me, to know me. I want to be real. It's hard being such an extreme introvert who also feels lonely without people. It's brutal. Life has been a struggle lately. When I was a teen, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. I didn't let anything help. I was on meds for maybe two weeks before stopping them because we were poor and they were expensive and the guilt was too much. So I convinced myself the psychiatrist didn't know what he was talking about. And now, 20+ years later, I'm on the path to get re-diagnosed because the voices have been heavily affecting my life and my relationships with those around me. For the first time in 14 years, I'm single. I know this will come as a shock to all of you, save for like, four people. We didn't announce it or anything because we've seen the community's reactions to people separating, and the details are nobody's business, including the timeline. We didn't want sides chosen, and enough time has passed that I'm comfortable talking about it. There's no dirty laundry to air. There's still love and respect. It feels weird to say that I live with my ex-wife and ex-girlfriend who are a couple and I'm still financially dependent on and remain legally married so I don't lose my health insurance. It's for our kid. We make it work. We're pretty darn good roommates. Speaking about relationships, I just finished one. It was so short but taught me so much. Like how I absolutely will not compromise certain boundaries, and that once the trust is gone, it's near impossible for me to grow it again. I dunno. Maybe asking them to not try and date the exes whom I share a home with was too much. The disrespect to my body dysphoria was the assaulting tipping point though. And the emotional manipulation. So now I'm pushing 40, single, and enjoy having time to myself without feeling like there's expectations I need to meet. But there's part of me who's afraid that I'll never have a companion ever again and that I'm just not meant to be loved or cared for. I don't even know if that's necessarily a bad thing or if that's just the aromatic part of my brain talking and eventually I'll feel lonely and want to share my time and space with someone. Maybe I'll just go back to how I was in my 20s and become incredibly promiscuous. Idk. Anyway… Community. Like, the little niche Magic community I found myself in. I've felt a disconnect for a hot second now. I know it's on me. I don't reach out because I don't want to be perceived as clingy, desperate, or annoying. And then there's the trans Magic community within that little niche. Visibly, I am one of a handful of trans men (or trans masculine people) and probably the most binary of that handful. It's so lonely on this side of the transgender spectrum. I spent 35 years of my life living and presenting as a woman. It's hard to let that go. But I feel ostracized. This probably isn't a lot for some, but it's a lot for me. I'm hoping to share more as it happens, to open myself up for relatability and genuine human connection. Thanks for reading. And thank you to those who left comments, reached out, etc. I do not have the spoons to reach out individually, but I am extremely grateful to every last one of you. The voices didn't win today, and y'all will serve as reminders as to why they never should.
November 11, 2025 at 5:17 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
ngl, life has been lifing pretty brutally lately

I am burned out and am at the point of said burnout where the feelings of depression, isolation, loneliness, and worthlessness are creeping in

I don't let anyone in enough for people to care

idk, maybe the voices should win this time
November 10, 2025 at 5:15 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
Sometimes I just wanna be a villain.

moxfield.com/decks/sROvQO...
[NEKUSAR, the MINDRAZER] - Commander (Nekusar, the Mindrazer)
A deck created using Moxfield.
moxfield.com
November 9, 2025 at 7:44 AM
cooperleef.bsky.social
Absolutely delicious.

My skill with distributing blueberries in baked goods is resume-worthy.
two loaves of banana bread, baked slice of banana bread with blueberries
November 8, 2025 at 5:16 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
Finally getting to use my housewarming present for a bit of post-break up banana bread 🍌🍞
kitchenaid stand mixer
November 8, 2025 at 1:20 AM
Reposted by Cooper
pendragonmtg.com
Day 5 of "NO... hear me out... VEMBER"!
A month dedicated to common creatures, aka Arthurs, who could wield a legendary equipment and look hot while doing so.
Brought to you by our newest RRT member,
@cooperleef.bsky.social!

This bunny is cookin' on *and* off the field.. 👀👀

#PendragonMTG
Head of the Homestead {3}{G/W}{G/W} Creature — Rabbit Citizen When this creature enters, create two 1/1 white Rabbit creature tokens. “Interrupting a rabbitfolk dinner is a most grievous offense. If you must do so, bring gifts for the little ones, or bring a shield.” —Giddy’s Guide to Valley 3/2 Illustrated by Omar Rayyan Pendragon MTG Command Zone = Arthur (common creature) + Excalibur (legendary equipment) Arthur and Excalibur together determine the deck's color identity 98 commons make up the rest of the deck Starting life = 30 Commander damage = 21 Infect damage = 10 linktr.ee/PendragonMTG
November 7, 2025 at 1:03 AM
Reposted by Cooper
pendragonmtg.com
It's day 4 of "NO... hear me out... VEMBER"!
A month dedicated to common creatures, aka Arthurs, who could wield a legendary equipment and look hot while doing so.
Brought to you by our newest RRT member, @cooperleef.bsky.social!

Ready to get handsy in the graveyard with this Arthur?

#PendragonMTG
Appendage Amalgam {2}{B} Enchantment Creature — Horror Flash Whenever this creature attacks, surveil 1. (Look at the top card of your library. You may put it into your graveyard.) It moves with the speed of a spider but none of its skittering grace, scuttling to the sound of mucus-covered fingers. 3/2 Illustrated by Bartek Fedyczak Pendragon MTG Command Zone = Arthur (common creature) + Excalibur (legendary equipment) Arthur and Excalibur together determine the deck's color identity 98 commons make up the rest of the deck Starting life = 30 Commander damage = 21 Infect damage = 10 linktr.ee/PendragonMTG
November 5, 2025 at 10:45 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
#PendragonMTG

What legendary equipment would you pair with this absolute babe?? 🥵⚔️
pendragonmtg.com PendragonMTG - MagicCon Atlanta @pendragonmtg.com · 9d
Welcome to "NO... hear me out... VEMBER"!
A month dedicated to common creatures, aka Arthurs, who could wield a legendary equipment and look hot while doing so.
Brought to you by our newest RRT member, @cooperleef.bsky.social!

First up, Nanoform Sentinel! The things those tentacles could do...
Nanoform Sentinel {2}{U} Artifact Creature — Robot Whenever this creature becomes tapped, untap another target permanent. This ability triggers only once each turn. Cloudsculpting naturally led the Illvoi to other methods of reshaping matter. 3/2 Illustrated by Tianxing Xu Pendragon MTG Command Zone = Arthur (common creature) + Excalibur (legendary equipment) Arthur and Excalibur together determine the deck's color identity 98 commons make up the rest of the deck Starting life = 30 Commander damage = 21 Infect damage = 10 linktr.ee/PendragonMTG
November 2, 2025 at 4:13 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
I've gotten a handful of new followers, so perhaps yall would like to know me better?
ngl.link/cooperleef1
Anonymous messages!
Anonymous messages!
ngl.link
November 1, 2025 at 11:57 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
LET'S DO THE TIME WARP AGAAAAAIIINNN!!!
mirror selfie, rhps style!
November 1, 2025 at 4:12 AM
cooperleef.bsky.social
CAS NEEDS MORE HYPE FOR HER BIRTHDAY

GO GO GO

TELL HER HOW GORGEOUS SHE LOOKS AND HOW SMART AND CLEVER SHE IS
strixhavendropout.bsky.social Cas/Strix 🔜 MagicCon Vegas @strixhavendropout.bsky.social · 12d
My costume for this year and the reference art!
October 31, 2025 at 9:47 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
Don't be tricked by the imposters out there, treat yourself to some @infinitokens.com! Even the worst art (mine) looks amazing on these high-quality dry erase tokens 👻
infinitokens
October 31, 2025 at 6:48 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
are you really playing magic if you aren't flirting with an opponent?
a man holding a lollipop with the words you find me very attractive below him
Alt: Colin mochrie holding a lollipop like a hypnotize wheel with the caption: you find me very attractive
media.tenor.com
October 30, 2025 at 7:59 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
Headline: Cool Dad gets to hang solo with the kid while Moms have date night 🥰
Selfie on the swingset
October 27, 2025 at 10:47 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
Roughly the size of a barge
mirror selfie, flexing
October 26, 2025 at 6:57 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
I'm COLD 🥶😫😭
ISO cuddles for warmth
photo of Cooper in a wooden folding chair, hoodie stretched over his knees and legs in a hunched position
October 25, 2025 at 12:37 AM
cooperleef.bsky.social
a gay cis man having a crush on me would do so much for my ego and dysphoria rn
October 24, 2025 at 10:12 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
A solid 13
October 24, 2025 at 12:59 AM
cooperleef.bsky.social
a man in a white sweater is standing in a dark room
Alt: screaming, crying
media.tenor.com
October 19, 2025 at 9:37 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
Define your music taste in eight artists:

Ghost
Taylor Swift
Kill Hannah
Opeth
bbno$
Failure
David Bowie
Kesha

idk how that defines anything lol
interestingmtg.bsky.social Interesting MTG Art @interestingmtg.bsky.social · 25d
Define your music taste in eight artists!:

Queens of the Stone Age
The Dead Weather
Radiohead
Men I Trust
Shoji Meguro
My Bloody Valentine
Masayoshi Soken
Portishead

Tough exercise, imo
kathleen.loadingreadyrun.com Kathleen De Vere @kathleen.loadingreadyrun.com · 25d
Define your music taste in eight artists:
Boards of Canada
King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard
Horse Lords
Fat White Family
Magdalena Bay
Radiohead
Men I Trust
Pink Floyd

(just thinking about this was stressful, ha ha ha 😅)
October 18, 2025 at 5:05 AM
cooperleef.bsky.social
I took a full frontal nude post-shower and the dysphoria hit fucking haaaarrrrddd
Toss another reason onto the depression pile 🙃
October 14, 2025 at 10:37 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
Happy heckin birthday to one of my favoritest dudes, @travism.bsky.social 🩶🩶
October 14, 2025 at 6:50 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
10 Horror Movies to Get to Know Me

Scream
Us
Sinners
Parasite
Barbarian
Heretic
Candyman (2021)
Dreamcatcher
Longlegs
Pearl / X / Maxxxine
strixhavendropout.bsky.social Cas/Strix 🔜 MagicCon Vegas @strixhavendropout.bsky.social · Oct 10
15 Horror Movies to Understand Me (cause 10 isn’t enough)

Rear Window
Hereditary
It Follows
The VVitch
Creep
Get Out
Rosemary’s Baby
The Wailing
His House
Talk to Me
Raw
10 Cloverfield Lane
Ready or Not
IT
Barbarian

There are so much more!
hobbesq.bolasgang.com Hobbes (like the Heathen) Q (like the letter) @hobbesq.bolasgang.com · Oct 10
10 Horror Movies to know me

Nightmare on Elm Street
Nightmare on Elm Street 3
Scream
Get Out
Army of Darkness
Jason X
Silence of the Lambs
Pet Semetary
Blair Witch Project
Rear Window
October 10, 2025 at 5:05 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
Update:
So fresh and crisp!
Cooper selfie Side profile selfie
October 9, 2025 at 11:52 PM
cooperleef.bsky.social
Getting my first haircut today since moving across the country back in May! The dysphoria is getting bad and these hairs are holding onto some bad vibes. Time to switch up the style...

I'm thinking... modern mullet!
side profile of mullet hairstyle back quarter profile of mullet hairstyle side profile of mullet hairstyle side profile of mullet hairstyle
October 9, 2025 at 5:11 PM