sylvie ⋆˚꩜｡
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melancholic alien 👽
cw: 120.4 | gw: 110
melancholic alien 👽
cw: 120.4 | gw: 110
Pinned
⋆✴︎˚｡⋆ about me ⋆ ✶⋆.˚
they/them
prorecovery + not fatphobic!
⋆˚⟡｡ ednos
ospd (borderline, schizotypal) ⋆˙⟡
✧ ˖ ° depression & anxiety
𖡼𖤣𖥧𖡼𓋼𖤣𖥧𓋼𓍊
they/them
prorecovery + not fatphobic!
⋆˚⟡｡ ednos
ospd (borderline, schizotypal) ⋆˙⟡
✧ ˖ ° depression & anxiety
𖡼𖤣𖥧𖡼𓋼𖤣𖥧𓋼𓍊
in 6 months i will be back at my lw if i stick to my plan which i’ve tried to make as realistic as possible
January 21, 2026 at 1:13 AM
in 6 months i will be back at my lw if i stick to my plan which i’ve tried to make as realistic as possible
i maintained all week :/
January 20, 2026 at 3:56 PM
i maintained all week :/
we got into an argument over this :/ he is convinced i’m lying to him and he made me doubt my memory so much that now i’m scared he’s not actually the biggest and i’ve been lying
nsfw
he was a v1rg1n when we met and i wasn’t. he’s obsessed with having been the biggest i’ve had, and he actually is, but he doesn’t believe me when i tell him idk what to do
he was a v1rg1n when we met and i wasn’t. he’s obsessed with having been the biggest i’ve had, and he actually is, but he doesn’t believe me when i tell him idk what to do
January 19, 2026 at 9:54 PM
we got into an argument over this :/ he is convinced i’m lying to him and he made me doubt my memory so much that now i’m scared he’s not actually the biggest and i’ve been lying
my goal is to lose at least 8.5 pounds by my birthday.
January 18, 2026 at 8:50 PM
my goal is to lose at least 8.5 pounds by my birthday.
my boyfriend has been obsessing over my s3xu4l history for our entire relationship and i just don’t know what to even do anymore. it makes me feel so guilty and disgusted by myself for my past.
January 18, 2026 at 12:52 AM
my boyfriend has been obsessing over my s3xu4l history for our entire relationship and i just don’t know what to even do anymore. it makes me feel so guilty and disgusted by myself for my past.
i think my bf is mad at me and i’m so anxious and i can’t talk to him because he’s working with his dad right now
January 17, 2026 at 10:54 PM
i think my bf is mad at me and i’m so anxious and i can’t talk to him because he’s working with his dad right now
currently lying in bed at my bf’s parents house…feeling sad and bf is mad at me i think :(
January 17, 2026 at 10:02 PM
currently lying in bed at my bf’s parents house…feeling sad and bf is mad at me i think :(
i’ve been in bed all day and i feel awful and guilty
January 15, 2026 at 8:38 PM
i’ve been in bed all day and i feel awful and guilty
i’m really so worthless, i can’t do anything on my own and i should be ashamed of myself
January 15, 2026 at 3:28 PM
i’m really so worthless, i can’t do anything on my own and i should be ashamed of myself
i’m supposed to meet with my professor on campus but i just emailed to cancel because i’m feeling way to anxious to do it. i feel terrible.
January 15, 2026 at 3:24 PM
i’m supposed to meet with my professor on campus but i just emailed to cancel because i’m feeling way to anxious to do it. i feel terrible.
i’m too depressed to do anything today. i went to class and iop but did no homework, i’m already falling behind my plan.
January 15, 2026 at 2:26 AM
i’m too depressed to do anything today. i went to class and iop but did no homework, i’m already falling behind my plan.
i just can’t get myself to start working on schoolwork and i don’t know what to do
January 14, 2026 at 7:45 PM
i just can’t get myself to start working on schoolwork and i don’t know what to do
i feel exhausted and i barely did anything today
January 14, 2026 at 12:39 AM
i feel exhausted and i barely did anything today
i’m so anxious idk why!!!!!
January 13, 2026 at 5:45 PM
i’m so anxious idk why!!!!!
she’s prettier and skinnier than me and i can’t get over it !!!
while we were broken up, my boyfriend considered hooking up with this girl and he DIDNT but i feel sick thinking about it
January 13, 2026 at 3:44 AM
she’s prettier and skinnier than me and i can’t get over it !!!
i was so nauseous on the car ride home from IOP and i was dripping sweat bc i have a phobia of vomiting 😭
January 13, 2026 at 1:12 AM
i was so nauseous on the car ride home from IOP and i was dripping sweat bc i have a phobia of vomiting 😭
while we were broken up, my boyfriend considered hooking up with this girl and he DIDNT but i feel sick thinking about it
January 12, 2026 at 6:25 PM
while we were broken up, my boyfriend considered hooking up with this girl and he DIDNT but i feel sick thinking about it
i’m so anxious and i don’t even know why
January 12, 2026 at 2:30 PM
i’m so anxious and i don’t even know why
i hate sunday nights. i miss my boyfriend and i have to worry about school, driving, and iop tomorrow..
January 12, 2026 at 3:17 AM
i hate sunday nights. i miss my boyfriend and i have to worry about school, driving, and iop tomorrow..
me and my bf made sweet and sour tofu for dinner together ^_^
January 12, 2026 at 3:04 AM
me and my bf made sweet and sour tofu for dinner together ^_^
my bf made me pancakes while i did a little bit of work! i only did two easy assignments but i’m proud of myself for starting :3
January 11, 2026 at 8:03 PM
my bf made me pancakes while i did a little bit of work! i only did two easy assignments but i’m proud of myself for starting :3
i really need to get started on schoolwork but i can’t bring myself to sit down and do it
January 10, 2026 at 11:00 PM
i really need to get started on schoolwork but i can’t bring myself to sit down and do it
Reposted by sylvie ⋆˚꩜｡
i do not understand why people judge others' bodies. bodies are one of the least controllable aspect of human life. they are vessels meant to carry you around. they cannot be pretty or ugly, too big or too small... they are made of bones and flesh, a meat armor, that's all there is to them. thats it
January 9, 2026 at 1:03 PM
i do not understand why people judge others' bodies. bodies are one of the least controllable aspect of human life. they are vessels meant to carry you around. they cannot be pretty or ugly, too big or too small... they are made of bones and flesh, a meat armor, that's all there is to them. thats it
my roommate in residential used to have an e4t1ng d1s0rd3r and she said her lw and it was 1 lb less than my lw which of course made me feel invalid
January 8, 2026 at 11:30 PM
my roommate in residential used to have an e4t1ng d1s0rd3r and she said her lw and it was 1 lb less than my lw which of course made me feel invalid
i told my iop therapist about being an alien, having special powers, etc and i feel so embarrassed now why did i tell her everything??
January 8, 2026 at 9:38 PM
i told my iop therapist about being an alien, having special powers, etc and i feel so embarrassed now why did i tell her everything??