Elisa
@elisawantstowrite.bsky.social
Medical lab technologist. Mom of two boys and a silly old dog, wife of a wonderful man. Likes to pretend I can do all the crafts. The outdoors are my sanctuary. She/her
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Elisa
@elisawantstowrite.bsky.social
· May 31
Ok fine. I'll try reading The Wheel of Time again. But it's gonna be in ebook form because my hands don't like holding fat books. They never have. (The complete series is like $150 so I'll have to buy them piece by piece as I get to them, even though it's cheaper to get the one).
I keep thinking kiddo is ready for read-aloud with some of my childhood favorites, and I have failed in my duties as a mother. He doesn't want to read Narnia, A Wrinkle in Time is "boring," he's not interested in The Boxcar Children or The Mouse and the Motorcycle.
I need help.
I need help.
December 20, 2025 at 5:50 AM
I keep thinking kiddo is ready for read-aloud with some of my childhood favorites, and I have failed in my duties as a mother. He doesn't want to read Narnia, A Wrinkle in Time is "boring," he's not interested in The Boxcar Children or The Mouse and the Motorcycle.
I need help.
I need help.
Oh no, the fudge recipe on the back of the chocolate chip package is really easy
December 20, 2025 at 12:18 AM
Oh no, the fudge recipe on the back of the chocolate chip package is really easy
Me: oh let's get dove bar soap. That one's always good.
Me, half a day later: AHHH! WHAT'S GOING ON! MY HANDS ARE DYING!!! DID DOVE CHANGE SOMETHING??? DID I BUY THE WRONG ONE???
And now we have to get through these bars.
Me, half a day later: AHHH! WHAT'S GOING ON! MY HANDS ARE DYING!!! DID DOVE CHANGE SOMETHING??? DID I BUY THE WRONG ONE???
And now we have to get through these bars.
December 19, 2025 at 5:59 AM
Me: oh let's get dove bar soap. That one's always good.
Me, half a day later: AHHH! WHAT'S GOING ON! MY HANDS ARE DYING!!! DID DOVE CHANGE SOMETHING??? DID I BUY THE WRONG ONE???
And now we have to get through these bars.
Me, half a day later: AHHH! WHAT'S GOING ON! MY HANDS ARE DYING!!! DID DOVE CHANGE SOMETHING??? DID I BUY THE WRONG ONE???
And now we have to get through these bars.
Me: cleaning up the downstairs, worried about how in the world I'm gonna keep these kids busy w/out triggering migraines or relying on TV.
Me: remembers how kiddo isn't passing timed math tests due to ADHD.
Me: goes to print a bunch of times worksheets
Me: remembers kidlet will be there too.
Me: remembers how kiddo isn't passing timed math tests due to ADHD.
Me: goes to print a bunch of times worksheets
Me: remembers kidlet will be there too.
December 19, 2025 at 5:04 AM
Me: cleaning up the downstairs, worried about how in the world I'm gonna keep these kids busy w/out triggering migraines or relying on TV.
Me: remembers how kiddo isn't passing timed math tests due to ADHD.
Me: goes to print a bunch of times worksheets
Me: remembers kidlet will be there too.
Me: remembers how kiddo isn't passing timed math tests due to ADHD.
Me: goes to print a bunch of times worksheets
Me: remembers kidlet will be there too.
Kidlet found the movie "Franklin & the Green Knight" on the Kanopy app. It's about the cartoon turtle Franklin waiting for his little sibling to be born. Very cute. But. Although I can appreciate the gentle pace of woodland animals in a little village, turtles lay eggs, & Franklin's mom was pregnant
December 18, 2025 at 8:48 PM
Kidlet found the movie "Franklin & the Green Knight" on the Kanopy app. It's about the cartoon turtle Franklin waiting for his little sibling to be born. Very cute. But. Although I can appreciate the gentle pace of woodland animals in a little village, turtles lay eggs, & Franklin's mom was pregnant
I am so happy that Rascal trusts me enough to come and sit with me on his left side, leaning against me. That's his blind side. He trusts me to keep him safe on that side.
December 18, 2025 at 8:23 PM
I am so happy that Rascal trusts me enough to come and sit with me on his left side, leaning against me. That's his blind side. He trusts me to keep him safe on that side.
Me yesterday: okay! Tomorrow is the last day before winter break! I'm gonna put my everything into it and get this house cleaned and do the last of my Christmas shopping!
Kidlet this morning: really scary, almost ER-level, croup.
Me: nevermind.
Kidlet this morning: really scary, almost ER-level, croup.
Me: nevermind.
December 18, 2025 at 6:42 PM
Me yesterday: okay! Tomorrow is the last day before winter break! I'm gonna put my everything into it and get this house cleaned and do the last of my Christmas shopping!
Kidlet this morning: really scary, almost ER-level, croup.
Me: nevermind.
Kidlet this morning: really scary, almost ER-level, croup.
Me: nevermind.
Kiddo: wakes us at 5 am saying that kidlet's breathing is scaring him.
Kidlet: has croup. We manage to get him breathing easy enough to avoid an ER visit, and he falls asleep.
Kiddo: talks for the next 1.5 hrs and says he's too sick to go to school.
Me: you're going to school.
Kidlet: has croup. We manage to get him breathing easy enough to avoid an ER visit, and he falls asleep.
Kiddo: talks for the next 1.5 hrs and says he's too sick to go to school.
Me: you're going to school.
December 18, 2025 at 1:35 PM
Kiddo: wakes us at 5 am saying that kidlet's breathing is scaring him.
Kidlet: has croup. We manage to get him breathing easy enough to avoid an ER visit, and he falls asleep.
Kiddo: talks for the next 1.5 hrs and says he's too sick to go to school.
Me: you're going to school.
Kidlet: has croup. We manage to get him breathing easy enough to avoid an ER visit, and he falls asleep.
Kiddo: talks for the next 1.5 hrs and says he's too sick to go to school.
Me: you're going to school.
We ran out of Taco Bell seasoning. The only tacos kiddo eats uses Taco Bell seasoning packets. I was browning the ground turkey already. I looked for a copycat recipe. I found this one. I tasted it afterwards and almost panicked. It's spicier.
He ate all of it without even mentioning the spice.
He ate all of it without even mentioning the spice.
Taco Bell Seasoning Copycat
Copycat Taco Bell seasoning is fast and simple to make and will make your tacos taste like the popular Mexican chain for an easy taco Tuesday dinner.
www.allrecipes.com
December 18, 2025 at 4:25 AM
We ran out of Taco Bell seasoning. The only tacos kiddo eats uses Taco Bell seasoning packets. I was browning the ground turkey already. I looked for a copycat recipe. I found this one. I tasted it afterwards and almost panicked. It's spicier.
He ate all of it without even mentioning the spice.
He ate all of it without even mentioning the spice.
Something was changed or updated here on Bluesky, and now when I go to my profile (or others'), I scroll and the banner at the top does not scroll. So I'm stuck reading about a line and a half of text at a time.
December 18, 2025 at 4:05 AM
Something was changed or updated here on Bluesky, and now when I go to my profile (or others'), I scroll and the banner at the top does not scroll. So I'm stuck reading about a line and a half of text at a time.
Me: I'm just about done with Christmas shopping.
Me, at Five Below: AND THIS IS A PERFECT GIFT FOR BOTH BROTHER 1 AND MY PARENTS AND THIS IS PERFECT FOR SIS-IN-LAW 2 SO I'M GONNA GET THIS MATCHING PRESENT FOR BROTHER 2 TOO BAD BRO 2, AND THIS IS FOR BRO 3 AND KIDDO WANTS THIS FOR SIS-LAW 3 AND
Me, at Five Below: AND THIS IS A PERFECT GIFT FOR BOTH BROTHER 1 AND MY PARENTS AND THIS IS PERFECT FOR SIS-IN-LAW 2 SO I'M GONNA GET THIS MATCHING PRESENT FOR BROTHER 2 TOO BAD BRO 2, AND THIS IS FOR BRO 3 AND KIDDO WANTS THIS FOR SIS-LAW 3 AND
December 18, 2025 at 3:32 AM
Me: I'm just about done with Christmas shopping.
Me, at Five Below: AND THIS IS A PERFECT GIFT FOR BOTH BROTHER 1 AND MY PARENTS AND THIS IS PERFECT FOR SIS-IN-LAW 2 SO I'M GONNA GET THIS MATCHING PRESENT FOR BROTHER 2 TOO BAD BRO 2, AND THIS IS FOR BRO 3 AND KIDDO WANTS THIS FOR SIS-LAW 3 AND
Me, at Five Below: AND THIS IS A PERFECT GIFT FOR BOTH BROTHER 1 AND MY PARENTS AND THIS IS PERFECT FOR SIS-IN-LAW 2 SO I'M GONNA GET THIS MATCHING PRESENT FOR BROTHER 2 TOO BAD BRO 2, AND THIS IS FOR BRO 3 AND KIDDO WANTS THIS FOR SIS-LAW 3 AND
I texted that I gave Rascal some scritches, and it autocorrected to scratches. No, no, no. Scratches are owie. Scritches are full of love.
Sure, the dictionary may disagree, but the dictionary needs to be updated to include common linguistical uses of the word "scritches."
Sure, the dictionary may disagree, but the dictionary needs to be updated to include common linguistical uses of the word "scritches."
December 17, 2025 at 8:04 PM
I texted that I gave Rascal some scritches, and it autocorrected to scratches. No, no, no. Scratches are owie. Scritches are full of love.
Sure, the dictionary may disagree, but the dictionary needs to be updated to include common linguistical uses of the word "scritches."
Sure, the dictionary may disagree, but the dictionary needs to be updated to include common linguistical uses of the word "scritches."
I can't clean
I can't do it anymore
I can't wallow in the dirt
Or look at that dog poop stain on the floor.
Tear it down.
Tear it down.
Burn it up and tear it down.
I can't do it anymore
I can't wallow in the dirt
Or look at that dog poop stain on the floor.
Tear it down.
Tear it down.
Burn it up and tear it down.
December 17, 2025 at 3:03 AM
I can't clean
I can't do it anymore
I can't wallow in the dirt
Or look at that dog poop stain on the floor.
Tear it down.
Tear it down.
Burn it up and tear it down.
I can't do it anymore
I can't wallow in the dirt
Or look at that dog poop stain on the floor.
Tear it down.
Tear it down.
Burn it up and tear it down.
Literally shaking on the floor w/ my 2nd panic attack in 2 days due to holiday and just normal everyday stuff piling up. The house is a wreck and dishes aren't done and I've been to 3 stores in 2 days while nursing a migraine and the meds aren't working and maybe this is the seritonin uptake bad rxn
December 16, 2025 at 7:14 PM
Literally shaking on the floor w/ my 2nd panic attack in 2 days due to holiday and just normal everyday stuff piling up. The house is a wreck and dishes aren't done and I've been to 3 stores in 2 days while nursing a migraine and the meds aren't working and maybe this is the seritonin uptake bad rxn
Had a 7-ish hr DND session last night. Ended at 1:30 AM. Luckily, it was online, so I just had to crawl into bed. I should've taken my migraine. I was seeing flashing lightning like crazy in my dark bedroom. But I was so tired.
Hopefully if I take all my available meds this morning I'll be ok.
Hopefully if I take all my available meds this morning I'll be ok.
December 16, 2025 at 3:04 PM
Had a 7-ish hr DND session last night. Ended at 1:30 AM. Luckily, it was online, so I just had to crawl into bed. I should've taken my migraine. I was seeing flashing lightning like crazy in my dark bedroom. But I was so tired.
Hopefully if I take all my available meds this morning I'll be ok.
Hopefully if I take all my available meds this morning I'll be ok.
Today I'm listening to the podcast Hidden Rabbits, and they're talking about a prion disease that causes insomnia before death.
Luckily, it's genetic and none of my family has died like that.
But yet again, prions are some of my biggest fears.
Luckily, it's genetic and none of my family has died like that.
But yet again, prions are some of my biggest fears.
December 15, 2025 at 3:31 PM
Today I'm listening to the podcast Hidden Rabbits, and they're talking about a prion disease that causes insomnia before death.
Luckily, it's genetic and none of my family has died like that.
But yet again, prions are some of my biggest fears.
Luckily, it's genetic and none of my family has died like that.
But yet again, prions are some of my biggest fears.
A while back, we ran out of large toothpaste tubes for grownups and strawberry flavored toothpaste for kids. But before that, I found tons of sample toothpastes from the dentist and "sparkle fun" "spicy" kids' toothpaste.
1/2
1/2
December 15, 2025 at 3:43 AM
A while back, we ran out of large toothpaste tubes for grownups and strawberry flavored toothpaste for kids. But before that, I found tons of sample toothpastes from the dentist and "sparkle fun" "spicy" kids' toothpaste.
1/2
1/2
Listening to the podcast "Hidden Rabbits" go over the Best Picture Academy Awards winners, and you can see the few years where my parents were like "We shall be cultured," in the early 2000's. (Of course, watching only edited versions of R-rated movies in my Mormon household)
December 14, 2025 at 4:56 PM
Listening to the podcast "Hidden Rabbits" go over the Best Picture Academy Awards winners, and you can see the few years where my parents were like "We shall be cultured," in the early 2000's. (Of course, watching only edited versions of R-rated movies in my Mormon household)
Today is a good day for Rascal. I didn't ugly cry at work, and came home straight after the work Christmas party, and immediately took Rascal for a walk, and he was so happy afterwards that I got his treats out and he was so happy he got on his hind legs like a dog 2 years younger.
December 13, 2025 at 1:38 AM
Today is a good day for Rascal. I didn't ugly cry at work, and came home straight after the work Christmas party, and immediately took Rascal for a walk, and he was so happy afterwards that I got his treats out and he was so happy he got on his hind legs like a dog 2 years younger.
"What is grief but love persevering?"
December 12, 2025 at 5:10 AM
"What is grief but love persevering?"
I have had 2 MRIs. The quoted cost of getting Rascal the CT scans he would need before a vet surgeon would even consider surgery is more than the two MRIs together.
Unless some miraculous windfall comes upon us, we are stopping diagnostic imaging. We will love on Rascal for as long as he's happy.
Unless some miraculous windfall comes upon us, we are stopping diagnostic imaging. We will love on Rascal for as long as he's happy.
December 12, 2025 at 3:03 AM
I have had 2 MRIs. The quoted cost of getting Rascal the CT scans he would need before a vet surgeon would even consider surgery is more than the two MRIs together.
Unless some miraculous windfall comes upon us, we are stopping diagnostic imaging. We will love on Rascal for as long as he's happy.
Unless some miraculous windfall comes upon us, we are stopping diagnostic imaging. We will love on Rascal for as long as he's happy.
Trying to at least calm my heart by watching My Hero Academy while hand stitching on a patch on my kidlet's pants while on my lunch break.
I have 2 or 3 more pairs after this.
I wish I could just do this instead of pipetting. Pipetting gives my brain too much time to think. And MHA isn't allowed.
I have 2 or 3 more pairs after this.
I wish I could just do this instead of pipetting. Pipetting gives my brain too much time to think. And MHA isn't allowed.
December 11, 2025 at 6:28 PM
Trying to at least calm my heart by watching My Hero Academy while hand stitching on a patch on my kidlet's pants while on my lunch break.
I have 2 or 3 more pairs after this.
I wish I could just do this instead of pipetting. Pipetting gives my brain too much time to think. And MHA isn't allowed.
I have 2 or 3 more pairs after this.
I wish I could just do this instead of pipetting. Pipetting gives my brain too much time to think. And MHA isn't allowed.
What would be worse: forking over the money for the CT scan for Rascal, only to find you can't afford a vet Surgeon, or to not get the CT scan and forever wonder if it's operable?
December 10, 2025 at 11:16 PM
What would be worse: forking over the money for the CT scan for Rascal, only to find you can't afford a vet Surgeon, or to not get the CT scan and forever wonder if it's operable?
I even set up a new checking account and everything. So we could keep GoFundMe donations in one place. I was ready and raring to go.
Now I just want to snuggle my dog. He likes rub downs, but not snuggles. Sometimes I'll try, and he'll wriggle away. He doesn't even put his head in my lap.
Now I just want to snuggle my dog. He likes rub downs, but not snuggles. Sometimes I'll try, and he'll wriggle away. He doesn't even put his head in my lap.
December 10, 2025 at 8:57 PM
I even set up a new checking account and everything. So we could keep GoFundMe donations in one place. I was ready and raring to go.
Now I just want to snuggle my dog. He likes rub downs, but not snuggles. Sometimes I'll try, and he'll wriggle away. He doesn't even put his head in my lap.
Now I just want to snuggle my dog. He likes rub downs, but not snuggles. Sometimes I'll try, and he'll wriggle away. He doesn't even put his head in my lap.
When I first learned about a mass in Rascal's abdomen, I reached for A Wind in the Door by Madeline L'Engle. It was my first L'Engle book, and I read it several times. I'm afraid to read it this time. There is loss in that book. Erasure. X'd.
I don't know if I can.
But part of me feels I must.
I don't know if I can.
But part of me feels I must.
December 10, 2025 at 8:51 PM
When I first learned about a mass in Rascal's abdomen, I reached for A Wind in the Door by Madeline L'Engle. It was my first L'Engle book, and I read it several times. I'm afraid to read it this time. There is loss in that book. Erasure. X'd.
I don't know if I can.
But part of me feels I must.
I don't know if I can.
But part of me feels I must.