I wish I could express to people how much pain and regret, I have sort of toiling inside of me. I wish I could expression how heavy it is to just sit and have to remember, all the way I didn't live for myself only now when I have no choice to, I'm sorta just stuck here.

I wanna cry.. and shout.. and yell.. I'm so tired...

I.. want to be receptive be in the place to recieve but alot of people have alot of needs rn.. and it's soo...idk...

mmn.. tired and feeling extra soft, like coiling in on myself and wanting to forget the things..

them:

me:

me: can i bite it......

Venus Retrograde is doing her mf thing... >>;

LRP is ust PJ with Sawyer....

hey, don't cry. imagine your OC bouncing on it, okay?

thinking about convo with a friend about my jealous / territorial spells. not to them - but in gen i have to preface its not a jealousy like no trust toward my loved one, its toward the other person's behavior in general. ppl taking friends away or steering em from liking me

lol.. i'm going through this weird, quasi-space with the friend me having to behave as it relates to my bbys.. andthen in my romance, some odd like limbo? i'm being patience, keeping my energy hopeful, and focused on my monetary stability, but hh.. am i gonna blow a fuse?

thinking about the different pairing and ships for folks... and instantly get thoughts of Ryo and Eerie, one of those times they initiate

I am very unfortunately awake.. and I am like, so ready to vibrate out of my skin...

uriella is the type to face off with a beast like a dragon, it'd likely be large and ferocious.. easily a man eater and attempting to intimidate her only for her to puff up like a cat puffing at a predator.. she'd brandish her knaves and let her cloak billow, and hiss HARD..

or like.. my OC uriella being claimed by a dragon, like as a dragonrider

thinking about hotd and wanting to create an au setting to play

no sleep for the wicked..

i wanna write something for my bbys for v-day.. i hope i can do it..

This will be where i post my writing and shit..
and stream of consciousness!!