im just gonna pretend i heard nothing and go about my day. things keep flip flopping every day and im so confused.
January 18, 2026 at 6:07 AM
im just gonna pretend i heard nothing and go about my day. things keep flip flopping every day and im so confused.
youre not telling me that...........
sheeee........ just brought us...... sweets.....
and buttered me up.....
to then.... try and convince him.............. to kick me to the curb in favor of her????
tell me that im capping
there ain't now way
sheeee........ just brought us...... sweets.....
and buttered me up.....
to then.... try and convince him.............. to kick me to the curb in favor of her????
tell me that im capping
there ain't now way
January 18, 2026 at 6:05 AM
youre not telling me that...........
sheeee........ just brought us...... sweets.....
and buttered me up.....
to then.... try and convince him.............. to kick me to the curb in favor of her????
tell me that im capping
there ain't now way
sheeee........ just brought us...... sweets.....
and buttered me up.....
to then.... try and convince him.............. to kick me to the curb in favor of her????
tell me that im capping
there ain't now way
im sorry........ i hope to God i am capping right now
January 18, 2026 at 6:02 AM
im sorry........ i hope to God i am capping right now
im hoping all of these thoughts are a result of missing my meds today.
i can only hope for a better tomorrow.
i can only hope for a better tomorrow.
January 17, 2026 at 4:20 AM
im hoping all of these thoughts are a result of missing my meds today.
i can only hope for a better tomorrow.
i can only hope for a better tomorrow.
its so easy to look at yourself and see an object when thats all anyone has ever seen, too.
January 17, 2026 at 4:01 AM
its so easy to look at yourself and see an object when thats all anyone has ever seen, too.
i think of something my mom angrily yelled at me once. calling me anti-sex. or saying that i hate sex.
and after having that stick in my head so long i dont think its that i hate sex itself.
i hate that sex has been the deciding factor of everything in my life.
and after having that stick in my head so long i dont think its that i hate sex itself.
i hate that sex has been the deciding factor of everything in my life.
January 17, 2026 at 3:55 AM
i think of something my mom angrily yelled at me once. calling me anti-sex. or saying that i hate sex.
and after having that stick in my head so long i dont think its that i hate sex itself.
i hate that sex has been the deciding factor of everything in my life.
and after having that stick in my head so long i dont think its that i hate sex itself.
i hate that sex has been the deciding factor of everything in my life.
man i just have literally no use to anybody if i dont put out.
January 17, 2026 at 3:47 AM
man i just have literally no use to anybody if i dont put out.
(incoming posts include thoughts that will pass)
January 17, 2026 at 3:36 AM
(incoming posts include thoughts that will pass)
probably gonna start hiding my pokemon binder cause i got a feeling moms gonna be reeeaaal pissed at me after tonight and now i feel like ive gotta watch my back.
November 18, 2025 at 8:48 AM
probably gonna start hiding my pokemon binder cause i got a feeling moms gonna be reeeaaal pissed at me after tonight and now i feel like ive gotta watch my back.
i dont like having to be a dick goddamn it just stop crossing my boundaries and i wouldn't have to fuck
November 18, 2025 at 8:47 AM
i dont like having to be a dick goddamn it just stop crossing my boundaries and i wouldn't have to fuck
i love waking up to an immediate argument with my mother.
November 17, 2025 at 11:31 PM
i love waking up to an immediate argument with my mother.
idk if its being off my meds (bc who knew working my ass off day in and day out to pay this stupid rent STILL. BY. MY. SELF
would leave me no time to make doctor's appts bc on days off i just wanna rest) or having my trust tossed back in my face again but im so done dudes im done.
would leave me no time to make doctor's appts bc on days off i just wanna rest) or having my trust tossed back in my face again but im so done dudes im done.
November 17, 2025 at 5:23 AM
idk if its being off my meds (bc who knew working my ass off day in and day out to pay this stupid rent STILL. BY. MY. SELF
would leave me no time to make doctor's appts bc on days off i just wanna rest) or having my trust tossed back in my face again but im so done dudes im done.
would leave me no time to make doctor's appts bc on days off i just wanna rest) or having my trust tossed back in my face again but im so done dudes im done.
i am genuinely so angry that i dont even want to celebrate my own birthday. i am so angry that i want to take that joy from everyone in my immediate life, reserve the event only to the people (moots) who've actually stuck with me, and i just wanna tell everybody else to fuck off.
November 17, 2025 at 5:21 AM
i am genuinely so angry that i dont even want to celebrate my own birthday. i am so angry that i want to take that joy from everyone in my immediate life, reserve the event only to the people (moots) who've actually stuck with me, and i just wanna tell everybody else to fuck off.
i dont want to do it again. i cant bear this anymore.
i did my part, i played hero, but there's only so much i can save of a ship that just wants to sink again.
i cant do this. im so tired. im exhausted.
i did my part, i played hero, but there's only so much i can save of a ship that just wants to sink again.
i cant do this. im so tired. im exhausted.
November 14, 2025 at 6:06 PM
i dont want to do it again. i cant bear this anymore.
i did my part, i played hero, but there's only so much i can save of a ship that just wants to sink again.
i cant do this. im so tired. im exhausted.
i did my part, i played hero, but there's only so much i can save of a ship that just wants to sink again.
i cant do this. im so tired. im exhausted.
i hate so much of it.
i hate that there is no difference between when she left and when i got her back.
i hate that instead of getting help she decided falling back on men would be the proper therapy. again.
i hate watching the train crash in slow motion over and over again.
i hate that there is no difference between when she left and when i got her back.
i hate that instead of getting help she decided falling back on men would be the proper therapy. again.
i hate watching the train crash in slow motion over and over again.
November 14, 2025 at 6:05 PM
i hate so much of it.
i hate that there is no difference between when she left and when i got her back.
i hate that instead of getting help she decided falling back on men would be the proper therapy. again.
i hate watching the train crash in slow motion over and over again.
i hate that there is no difference between when she left and when i got her back.
i hate that instead of getting help she decided falling back on men would be the proper therapy. again.
i hate watching the train crash in slow motion over and over again.
the thing that sucks most about it all is that this will be the first time in 10 years that my mom will be present for my birthday. and yet with how much shes managed to hurt me over the past few months, i dont even wanna spend it with her.
November 14, 2025 at 5:58 PM
the thing that sucks most about it all is that this will be the first time in 10 years that my mom will be present for my birthday. and yet with how much shes managed to hurt me over the past few months, i dont even wanna spend it with her.
genuinely between my mother and my neighbors and the sounds they generate at ungodly hours and with how acute my hearing is its so hard to fuckin exist
October 29, 2025 at 9:31 AM
genuinely between my mother and my neighbors and the sounds they generate at ungodly hours and with how acute my hearing is its so hard to fuckin exist
amazing when they think i dont know.
October 19, 2025 at 8:07 AM
amazing when they think i dont know.
oh and that just makes it even lovelier.
they are fucking while not paying a goddamn dime in the house theyre fucking in.
they are fucking while not paying a goddamn dime in the house theyre fucking in.
October 18, 2025 at 8:58 AM
oh and that just makes it even lovelier.
they are fucking while not paying a goddamn dime in the house theyre fucking in.
they are fucking while not paying a goddamn dime in the house theyre fucking in.
i dont know. im going to try and finally sleep. im so tired. i cant do this.
October 18, 2025 at 8:02 AM
i dont know. im going to try and finally sleep. im so tired. i cant do this.
and she acts like this is all no big deal? like im insane for crying? like this doesnt mean it jeopardizes her having a roof over her head too?
October 18, 2025 at 8:01 AM
and she acts like this is all no big deal? like im insane for crying? like this doesnt mean it jeopardizes her having a roof over her head too?
i have been bawling my eyes out since 10pm. its now 4am. i have had maybe only two breaks between tears.
October 18, 2025 at 7:59 AM
i have been bawling my eyes out since 10pm. its now 4am. i have had maybe only two breaks between tears.
maybe if i had help, i could have salvaged this.
but nothing. absolutely nothing.
but nothing. absolutely nothing.
October 18, 2025 at 7:58 AM
maybe if i had help, i could have salvaged this.
but nothing. absolutely nothing.
but nothing. absolutely nothing.
they dont pay. not my ma or her little boything. they live under my roof ""rent free" and its been fucking me in the ass for months. i have no help from them. i have been drowning continuously.
October 18, 2025 at 7:58 AM
they dont pay. not my ma or her little boything. they live under my roof ""rent free" and its been fucking me in the ass for months. i have no help from them. i have been drowning continuously.
they served me. and ofc they did. i havent been able to keep up with this rent for months. the damage my ex roommate left me with had made this a losing battle from the start.
October 18, 2025 at 7:56 AM
they served me. and ofc they did. i havent been able to keep up with this rent for months. the damage my ex roommate left me with had made this a losing battle from the start.