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dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · Jan 11

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j @skaterjoe.bsky.social · 5h

this #wipwednesday i offer a very small snippet from my matz supernatural au (small fragments), a flashback to the moment hj sold his soul😔

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 3h

i feel dread in my bones /pos

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 4h

:"") I hate to commit the sin of breaking matz up so cruelly but alas...... it's fun.....

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 4h

id say I'm sorry but........

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 4h

:)

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 11h

whatever goodnightt

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 11h

still wearing their rings. sh is biting a litany of "mine, mine, mine" into his shoulder and hj has no heart to echo it when he's lost sh at some point, their hands falling away, and he's only finding out now. hj's still his, though, that much is still true.

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 11h

being called needy and pent up because it's been oh so long. the slithering voice that sh isnt as affected because he must have someone else. and yet, here he is, begging for a trace of comfort and feeling dirty and used and pathetic, as if he's a rebound, as if they're hooking up. in their own bed.

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 11h

also thinking about the rare rare occasion of them having sex as everything deteriorates,, hj feeling like he had to lure? coerce sh into doing anything, a healthy dose of degradation to further his spiral as he finds he has nothing to keep sh there with him,

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 16h

thinking about their relationship slowly growing cold for no apparent reason.... the sinking feeling in his guts that it's not a passing thing, that there's someone else... getting flimsy excuses to his questions and disinterest to any attempt at salvaging their relationship...

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 1d

the reverse? maybeee I'll still feel sick to my stomach but if I'm getting hongjoong hurt out of it I'll live

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

to find themselves sitting before a sunset into the sea before he's cracking out "he's cheating on you, you know?". he can't muster more than mumbled assent. it somehow feels like his own fault.

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

they've been brought back to just being coworkers, friends at an arms length. he watches themselves die out, a wick choking itself in molten wax.

hj takes wy on the stupid getaway he couldn't bring himself to cancel, because he was free and willing and quiet about pitying him. just long enough

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

it's casually cruel in ways sh has never been before. and still somehow, perversely, it feels like a kind let down, the flimsy comfort of an old blanket as he's being put down. without much of an argument or the fiery fights to tear the team apart he used to stress himself to tears about,

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

has something happened, is someone sick? no, he gets back, I'd just rather spend any time I get with them.

what can he say to that? should he stomp his feet and demand a crumb of his attention? how can he ask to be met halfway, faced with sincerity, without feeling like a child?

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

they'd been looking forward to the weekend away, the hope still fresh. then it's the week before and he reminds sh of it and all he gets back is

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

an impulse to act out, for fresh air. and if hj doesn't ask, he's still his. he never thought he'd let himself bend so far. where's his rage? his indignation? he doesn't want to cause a scene, he doesn't want to be led on. he doesn't want to ruin this.

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

everything he'd dreaded before giving in, everything sh had sworn with burning conviction would never happen. he'd never regret being selfish just this once. and he doesn't? doesn't know how to, not quite yet. they're ashes cooling down but sh still keeps him, still indulges him. maybe it's a whim.

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

and then gets spotted somewhere else entirely by a lucky fan, apparently alone.

hj should say something about it, catch sh between things, demand an explanation, but his heart just doesn't let him. if it's real - if he asks and sh doesn't lie - then he'd have to call it quits.

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

when sh says he just wants time alone after a day full of people. it's bruising but fair. what can hj ever say to that?

and he knows something's really off when sh stays working overtime - just to avoid him, the victim bit of him scoffs. when sh says he'll spend a day off with his parents

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

knows that it's not when sh stops coming to sleep in his bed - their bed. when hj finds himself awake&alone past the bedtime he's conditioned himself to abide by to steal twenty minutes under blankets with sh. when sh brushes off his suggestion they relocate to his room if he likes it better there.

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

sh has grown so distant over the months, but without much reason beyond stress. conflicting schedules. no energy for anything beyond what's strictly work. sh is never that incommunicative or reticent and hj wants to believe so badly that it's something transitory, momentary stress affecting them.

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 13h

canon compliant, having booked a weekend trip for a rare and much longed for break. things have already gotten weird and hj is hoping (praying) this time just the two of them away from work and obligations and stress will lift the veil of unspoken horribleness over them

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 16h

thinking about their relationship slowly growing cold for no apparent reason.... the sinking feeling in his guts that it's not a passing thing, that there's someone else... getting flimsy excuses to his questions and disinterest to any attempt at salvaging their relationship...

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 1d

the reverse? maybeee I'll still feel sick to my stomach but if I'm getting hongjoong hurt out of it I'll live

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🥀alex🦇 @aquavampyr.bsky.social · 18h

Thinking about you…..

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 18h

🤝🏻🤝🏻🤝🏻 there's just so much hongjoong being mean to seonghwa I can take

dawn🗡️ @hongteeth.bsky.social · 18h

genuinely TT it's in my bookmarks and every couple of weeks it springs up to the top again like 💀