the evil 3rd pris
@livingcode.bsky.social
ramble / vent account || it / he / glitch, 19
i feel disgusted in myself and upset still. not at him obviously, just… i wish i handled it differently.
December 22, 2025 at 4:14 PM
i feel disgusted in myself and upset still. not at him obviously, just… i wish i handled it differently.
6 hours later and i still feel like shit. whatever man it’s fine. if he doesn’t want to talk to me then that’s fine. i’m just desperately hoping that he doesn’t do anything to himself.
December 22, 2025 at 11:49 AM
6 hours later and i still feel like shit. whatever man it’s fine. if he doesn’t want to talk to me then that’s fine. i’m just desperately hoping that he doesn’t do anything to himself.
if i kms then nothing will be better. i just have to sit and wait for him to want to talk to me. i’m a sorry fucking excuse of a partner and i don’t know why he ever chose to stay with me when he deserves better.
i have no right to feel terrified that he will leave. i have no right to cry. i have no right to feel like a person when i am barely one at all. i’m not even a good person at that. i have no right to feel guilty for something i caused.
December 22, 2025 at 4:49 AM
if i kms then nothing will be better. i just have to sit and wait for him to want to talk to me. i’m a sorry fucking excuse of a partner and i don’t know why he ever chose to stay with me when he deserves better.
i have no right to feel terrified that he will leave. i have no right to cry. i have no right to feel like a person when i am barely one at all. i’m not even a good person at that. i have no right to feel guilty for something i caused.
December 22, 2025 at 4:40 AM
i have no right to feel terrified that he will leave. i have no right to cry. i have no right to feel like a person when i am barely one at all. i’m not even a good person at that. i have no right to feel guilty for something i caused.
like i want to draw but usually whenever i ask nobody really answers so it feels like i’m asking a brick wall or nobody has ideas either
i want 2 draw more but broo im struggling so bad
December 21, 2025 at 6:56 PM
like i want to draw but usually whenever i ask nobody really answers so it feels like i’m asking a brick wall or nobody has ideas either
i want 2 draw more but broo im struggling so bad
December 21, 2025 at 6:53 PM
i want 2 draw more but broo im struggling so bad
i love my friends /p and sometimes i stress about them being okay cause of it, especially ones i consider close to me. i mean im glad one situation is put to rest but theres still an ongoing one then there’s another problem and it’s like. one other problem unrelated to those
December 1, 2025 at 2:35 PM
i love my friends /p and sometimes i stress about them being okay cause of it, especially ones i consider close to me. i mean im glad one situation is put to rest but theres still an ongoing one then there’s another problem and it’s like. one other problem unrelated to those
depression so bad i genuinely want to give up and cry. i can't even get myself to sleep without struggling.
November 24, 2025 at 4:32 AM
depression so bad i genuinely want to give up and cry. i can't even get myself to sleep without struggling.
evil ass thoughts are coming back and i'm already dealing with shame for even feeling this way. it's nobody fault, this is just completely normal for me.
November 22, 2025 at 2:41 PM
evil ass thoughts are coming back and i'm already dealing with shame for even feeling this way. it's nobody fault, this is just completely normal for me.
depression is genuinely kicking my ass rn i have the slight urge to cry for no reason but i'm not doing that!!!
November 12, 2025 at 4:34 AM
depression is genuinely kicking my ass rn i have the slight urge to cry for no reason but i'm not doing that!!!
fumble of the century earlier i still feel bad about it. not as bad like earlier but bro i feel a bit dumb for it,, like yeah it was a small mistake but i genuinely nearly panicked at the time cause my brain immediately rushed to the heavy fear of me putting him in a spot where he'd feel uncomfy+
November 3, 2025 at 3:11 AM
fumble of the century earlier i still feel bad about it. not as bad like earlier but bro i feel a bit dumb for it,, like yeah it was a small mistake but i genuinely nearly panicked at the time cause my brain immediately rushed to the heavy fear of me putting him in a spot where he'd feel uncomfy+
missing the huzz bro
October 29, 2025 at 3:23 PM
missing the huzz bro
i ramble so much once i get started it's so bad bro i barely ramble irl 💔
October 28, 2025 at 2:33 PM
i ramble so much once i get started it's so bad bro i barely ramble irl 💔
ok my stomach doesn't hurt anymore i just had to shit. i just feel like ass for no reason and have been since i woke up but i'm gonna assume hormone imbalance and all that so.
i feel like i'm on the verge of bawling my eyes out today and i don't know why. my anxiety's been getting horrible lately too. 🤑🤑🤑
okay i need to get back to work.
okay i need to get back to work.
October 27, 2025 at 1:50 PM
ok my stomach doesn't hurt anymore i just had to shit. i just feel like ass for no reason and have been since i woke up but i'm gonna assume hormone imbalance and all that so.
i feel like i'm on the verge of bawling my eyes out today and i don't know why. my anxiety's been getting horrible lately too. 🤑🤑🤑
okay i need to get back to work.
okay i need to get back to work.
October 27, 2025 at 12:43 PM
i feel like i'm on the verge of bawling my eyes out today and i don't know why. my anxiety's been getting horrible lately too. 🤑🤑🤑
okay i need to get back to work.
okay i need to get back to work.
ok nvm the joy and whimsy is back i want 2 kiss him methinks,, would be super gay and umm i'd just really like to kiss and cuddle him
dude seeing my bf irl is going to be so whimsical and joyous but also i keep overthinking such small things so i'm getting extremely nervous at the same time
October 26, 2025 at 3:59 PM
ok nvm the joy and whimsy is back i want 2 kiss him methinks,, would be super gay and umm i'd just really like to kiss and cuddle him
i do not like being a janitor . - 🏷
October 25, 2025 at 8:30 PM
i do not like being a janitor . - 🏷
dude seeing my bf irl is going to be so whimsical and joyous but also i keep overthinking such small things so i'm getting extremely nervous at the same time
October 25, 2025 at 6:05 PM
dude seeing my bf irl is going to be so whimsical and joyous but also i keep overthinking such small things so i'm getting extremely nervous at the same time
i keep wanting physical affection so much but i can't get it rn and i hate feeling so touchstarved like this i wish i lived closer :[
October 17, 2025 at 2:25 AM
i keep wanting physical affection so much but i can't get it rn and i hate feeling so touchstarved like this i wish i lived closer :[
dude istg im going to genuinely hit my head against the wall i'm already dead terrified of losing my job because i JUST got it but uber fucking sucks and i can't even get to my job without either being late or SOMETHING happening. this is already stressing me out and pissing me off fuck dude
October 6, 2025 at 12:12 PM
dude istg im going to genuinely hit my head against the wall i'm already dead terrified of losing my job because i JUST got it but uber fucking sucks and i can't even get to my job without either being late or SOMETHING happening. this is already stressing me out and pissing me off fuck dude
ouuu my thoughts are not being kind to me lately but it is ok i will try to ignore it
September 14, 2025 at 11:40 PM
ouuu my thoughts are not being kind to me lately but it is ok i will try to ignore it