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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 2h

so idk if its ever going to happen,. especially with time ticking down

unless somehow someone donated multiple thousands to pay for it sll

Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 2h

one of my dreams that i desperately want to happen before i pass is to see her in person

but flying her down here as well as visas and everything else is far outside either of our financial range

both living in poverty

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 2h

i love my best friend

she's going through some intense stuff right now

im just glad I have her and that we've been able to get so close despite how far away we are from each other

but right now i have never been this scared for someone i love

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 1d

so if you are worried this is about you, and im still talking with you occasionally, its not you.

also weekly reminder y'all go to fucking therapy oh my god

trust me itll all be worth it once you get a stable therapist you can see long term and support you through life's difficulties

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 1d

so if you are worried this is about you, and im still talking with you occasionally, its not you.

also weekly reminder y'all go to fucking therapy oh my god

trust me itll all be worth it once you get a stable therapist you can see long term and support you through life's difficulties

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 1d

it's only after years of no growth, no self improvement, that i would consider someone irredeemable

that, or they actively committed an act of knowing malice and harm that is particularly abhorrent and not worth unpacking to save a relationship neither wants anyway

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 1d

I know everyone has rough patches that can sometimes harm the people they love around them, even in some pretty fucked ways.

but emotional growth and acknowledgement and correction of those patterns is also important

there's very few people i would consider irredeemable, everyone has room to grow

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 1d

and before people go worrying this is about them because let's be honest pretty much everyone around me is struggling with something of some kind, and im ok with having those people in my life

the difference is willingness to improve and grow

Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 1d

bitches be having unmanaged mental illness and they are absolutely making it other people's problem

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 1d

bitches be having unmanaged mental illness and they are absolutely making it other people's problem

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 11d

im supposed to be getting a larger than usual maintenance surgery on the area on Monday, so im really hoping itll be more ok before then

Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 11d

for the first time since the proper dressing was put back on

and it's very unhappy

like "i didn't realise the body could be that colour" unhappy

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 11d

bleh

when doing the testing the other day, there was a slip up that lead to one of my wounds being improperly dressed for a few hours

did another dressing change today

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 17d

bleh not doing well fucking meds turns out are important

just till tomorrow night and I should be stablised again properly

randomly started crying for 30s and then stopped

sudden jabs of panic and fear

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 18d

yesterday we were so scared we almost cancelled the whole thing

but after talking it through, we really just need to get this over with. this is the best opportunity we are going to get to do this, its only going to get harder with further decline

just gotta make it through the last few days.

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 18d

just, big thing. need it done

not sure if ill be taken home on the same day. they may worry it isnt possible without re stabilising me on my meds in the hospital for a bit

I'll have my gf and my ex with me

both able to handle different things to take care of me while there

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 18d

but at least hoping it will be easier than the previous 200km road ambulance trip we had earlier this year that made us pretty sick with how we were thrown around given the totally unregulated autonomic system

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 18d

it's for some really intense testing at a proper hospital in the middle of melb.

it's going to probably be extremely rough, especially completely withdrawn from almost all of my medications (only leaving hormone supplements/stablisers since they are unrelated to the tests)

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 18d

putting in here because idk its not gonna make sense to people who dont read my stuff in here or on my twt or speak with me occasionally

the air ambulance has been confirmed for Monday, im going to be airlifted to a hospital about 300km from here

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · 19d

yall. follow my GF @flarebeams.bsky.social

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · Sep 15

she survived therapy and now needs an infinite amount of eepy

Milo, very eepy, laying in bed on her pillows, the room is dark, she has light purple pillows and blankets around her, and shelves behind her

her hair is darker than usual and she is wearing headphones.

Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · Sep 14

i wish i didnt have to fight for the most basic of things

Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · Sep 11

this is my current mental state i hate meds if they are causing this

Veronica @veronicaf.bsky.social · Sep 11

Cosette is such a worried little kitten. She is still terrified of toys, even when I leave them around so she can see they're not scary.

Nope. Hissing, spitting, biting.

She is NOT terrified of being snuggled or kissed though, so that's nice.

A very worried looking calico tabby kitten, inside her fluffy cave bed. There is a pink spring and a yellow mouse toy in front of her.

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · Sep 11

this is scaring me

Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · Sep 11

something is feeling very wrong with my mental state

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Milo, mars system @marssysmilo.bsky.social · Sep 10

before and after my gf went after him lol

a screenshot of the prior post, showing a reply from a suspicious guy saying "I love your cardi"

an image of the same reply, but now he has self hidden the reply to stop my friends and gf from going after him to protect me

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