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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · Apr 28

okay everyone we are manifesting: easy income, cute accessible house, and the ability to eat at least my favorite foods, water & some fun drinks again

a group of women sitting in a circle with candles on the floor

Alt: a group of women sitting in a circle with candles on the floor

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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

i am half and half on whether my poems are any good and am well aware a lot of ppl don't like poetry so i tend not to share mine much, but i think there's something strong in how vulnerable poetry is by nature and i do write a lot as my outlet so it's nice to do something with them like posting

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

okay i'll stop with this one for now :]

Screenshot of a short poem by riri titled recovery, that reads: that light looks like better days and these fries taste like dancing again and this song sounds like life worth living
like the best of old me and now me coming back together like it was meant to be

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

screenshot of a poem by riri that reads:
the weight settled under my skin again again until
its familiar burden pulled me back into the softness of my bed beneath my hip
and the stillness of a room where lamplight fades into shadows.
so i can find satisfaction even in the sleepiness of suffering.
is this meant to be a relief or a new concern ? i can't bring myself much to care,
after all,
with sweet music playing there's not much difference
between falling eyelids beckoned shut by joyful movement and pain's exhaustion

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

Screenshot of a poem by riri titled her; my body, that reads: i was sent here to nourish her, to hold her dear, to rock her to sleep, encourage her.
i was sent here to indulge her, let her taste, love her hot,
rub her and coerce her.
i was sent here to watch her break, catch her crumbles, glue her back,
make it through each day.
i was sent here just for her.

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

Screenshot of a poem by riri that reads: "what a nice view"
through this window of mine the trees bloom
and the green meets sunshine i look onto this little corner of the world and know it's mine to look at in wonder to refresh my heart n mind (heart emoji)
- window of sanctuary

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

Screenshot of a short 3 verse poem by riri that reads: i've lost normalcy,
no one sure how to find it again. locked into a doorless room,
the only sun rays i know carved into by windows' shadows across the floor.
they fall at my feet but i do not feel myself their monarch, only their prisoner
-july 20 2025

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

Screenshot of a short poem by riri that reads: the truth is
boredom is the moral failing at the top of my mountain built from the hole i crouch in

Screenshot 2 of a short poem by riri that reads: decided for me, i decide for me, still feel so trapped by circumstance and understandings

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

Screenshot of a short poem by riri that reads: there's a me they've never known, full of life, constant movement, inviting and daring to try. that me left behind by my new realities

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

Screenshot of a short poem by riri that reads: it can be worse i've learned, it can always be worse.
to preserve what i have is no small feat earned with my careful decisions

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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

Screenshot of a short poem by riri that reads: when? when will it be over? over and over
i ask the wrong question.
ask right,
can i adapt to this new reality? i have changed already

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

Screenshot of a short poem by riri that reads: Could i have been one of the flowers
that bloomed?
I forget already if my petals knew pollen picked up by the bee or stayed a bud curled closed

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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

screenshot of a short poem by riri that reads:Standing on the aisle, walking into the dark,
i thought night was coming on with no sense of how perpetual the darkness had become

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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 18h

here, some recent disability related poems ive written

Screenshot of a short poem by riri that reads: I finally learned how to just live life when i don't have much life to live, boxed in on all sides by the way i can't.
'cannot' this word i'm so intimate with, my nemesis and my relief

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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 20h

Student loan debt should be illegal

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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · Jul 21

i am of the opinion that if i post about something shitty im experiencing and someone likes the post it's cause they're showing solidarity with me/validating that they see me

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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 1d

this is just another reason i think im autistic cause decoding my own body's feelings is so unnecessarily difficult for me

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 1d

and also how often im probably in physical pain but think im in mental distress

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 1d

i mistook cramp pain as anxiety and i think that says a lot about how much of a physical experience a lot of my mental health issues are for me

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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 2d

emily dickinson fellow chronic pain girly, it's more likely than you would think

Screenshot of a poem by emily dickinson called the myster of pain which reads: Pain has an element of blank;
It cannot recollect
When it began, or if there were
A day when it was not.
It has no future but itself,
Its infinite realms contain
Its past, enlightened to perceive
New periods of pain.

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 2d

finally doing something about the depression I've been experiencing for the last few months!! :]]]]]

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 2d

it went really well :]

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 3d

i've got an appt tomorrow that i am kinda nervous about, everyone please send me good vibes!!

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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 3d

thanks jenn!! 💓

suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 3d

i've got an appt tomorrow that i am kinda nervous about, everyone please send me good vibes!!

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Chronic Illness Humor @chronicillness.bsky.social · 4d

@sihoorain

starting to feel like like most of my consequences don't even have actions

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suffering sapphic™️ @megsweakestsoldier.bsky.social · 5d

going back to this to help myself feel better about feeling useless recently

Screenshot of a short poem by riri that reads:
to feel useless in a world of being used is a lovely hurt
-2021 journal excerpt