phi 🩵 pre-debut vtuber (healing arc)
@nyctophilium.bsky.social
pre-debut vtuber, 🔞 nsfw, she/her, feral alt girlie demon vampire apprenticing with grim (shh, he loves it) life began at death.
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banner: vgen.co/Exy_Moon
#phihasart #nyctohasart
#philewd #nyctolewd
#naeniamireu #naenialewd
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banner: vgen.co/Exy_Moon
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#philewd #nyctolewd
#naeniamireu #naenialewd
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hi hi! I’m phi, I miiight be the liveliest dead person you ever meet
grim is my hero & after some convincing, his first apprentice (he was a bit concerned while waiting for him, I became a demon & vampire, oops)
I’m your reminder that it’s never too late to start living <3
🎨: vgen.co/artofkoi
grim is my hero & after some convincing, his first apprentice (he was a bit concerned while waiting for him, I became a demon & vampire, oops)
I’m your reminder that it’s never too late to start living <3
🎨: vgen.co/artofkoi
when you are singing at the top of your lungs to “happier than ever” and realize it’s not at your ex but every person in your life who only took from you but never gave you anything but pain
then proceeded to go out of their way to convince you that you deserved that hurt
you didn’t, not once
then proceeded to go out of their way to convince you that you deserved that hurt
you didn’t, not once
November 26, 2025 at 10:58 PM
when you are singing at the top of your lungs to “happier than ever” and realize it’s not at your ex but every person in your life who only took from you but never gave you anything but pain
then proceeded to go out of their way to convince you that you deserved that hurt
you didn’t, not once
then proceeded to go out of their way to convince you that you deserved that hurt
you didn’t, not once
I’m a simp leave me alone but I want to publicly dote on @gunnercrow.bsky.social because I was beginning to think having romantic love and a best friend in one person was too much to ask or that I didn’t deserve it
I’ve never been so happy to be utterly and completely wrong on both those accounts
I’ve never been so happy to be utterly and completely wrong on both those accounts
November 26, 2025 at 3:39 PM
I’m a simp leave me alone but I want to publicly dote on @gunnercrow.bsky.social because I was beginning to think having romantic love and a best friend in one person was too much to ask or that I didn’t deserve it
I’ve never been so happy to be utterly and completely wrong on both those accounts
I’ve never been so happy to be utterly and completely wrong on both those accounts
when it’s the wednesday before you have two days off at work during a holiday and you get really creative with how to burn time because 99% of people already took today off so your biggest work task is testing some of your pens
November 26, 2025 at 1:49 PM
when it’s the wednesday before you have two days off at work during a holiday and you get really creative with how to burn time because 99% of people already took today off so your biggest work task is testing some of your pens
funny story but also a reminder that impulsive behaviors IS a long list and you don’t have to have the “stereotypical” one for your diagnose(s) to be valid
you can be celibate/a virgin and have BPD
you can be financially responsible and have ADHD
you can be alcohol/drug free and have bipolar
you can be celibate/a virgin and have BPD
you can be financially responsible and have ADHD
you can be alcohol/drug free and have bipolar
therapist: “it’s fascinating, you’re the only person I know with BPD that isn’t even sexually active”
me: “I KNOW I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY I DON’T SLEEP AROUND”
~a few sessions later~
therapist: “your autism is creating a wall that keeps you from acting out sexually”
me: “ah so it’s a cockblocker”
me: “I KNOW I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY I DON’T SLEEP AROUND”
~a few sessions later~
therapist: “your autism is creating a wall that keeps you from acting out sexually”
me: “ah so it’s a cockblocker”
November 24, 2025 at 9:04 PM
funny story but also a reminder that impulsive behaviors IS a long list and you don’t have to have the “stereotypical” one for your diagnose(s) to be valid
you can be celibate/a virgin and have BPD
you can be financially responsible and have ADHD
you can be alcohol/drug free and have bipolar
you can be celibate/a virgin and have BPD
you can be financially responsible and have ADHD
you can be alcohol/drug free and have bipolar
therapist: “it’s fascinating, you’re the only person I know with BPD that isn’t even sexually active”
me: “I KNOW I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY I DON’T SLEEP AROUND”
~a few sessions later~
therapist: “your autism is creating a wall that keeps you from acting out sexually”
me: “ah so it’s a cockblocker”
me: “I KNOW I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY I DON’T SLEEP AROUND”
~a few sessions later~
therapist: “your autism is creating a wall that keeps you from acting out sexually”
me: “ah so it’s a cockblocker”
November 24, 2025 at 9:00 PM
therapist: “it’s fascinating, you’re the only person I know with BPD that isn’t even sexually active”
me: “I KNOW I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY I DON’T SLEEP AROUND”
~a few sessions later~
therapist: “your autism is creating a wall that keeps you from acting out sexually”
me: “ah so it’s a cockblocker”
me: “I KNOW I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY I DON’T SLEEP AROUND”
~a few sessions later~
therapist: “your autism is creating a wall that keeps you from acting out sexually”
me: “ah so it’s a cockblocker”
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But like, am I wrong?
November 24, 2025 at 8:38 PM
But like, am I wrong?
ngl posting this in itself is just terrifying lol
I spent 10+ years “best friends” with someone who was that nightmare feminist that ruins the word who made statements like “we don’t need men, just their sperm”
which is as fucked as saying “we don’t need women, just their eggs”
we’re human first
I spent 10+ years “best friends” with someone who was that nightmare feminist that ruins the word who made statements like “we don’t need men, just their sperm”
which is as fucked as saying “we don’t need women, just their eggs”
we’re human first
fear being instilled in me when I started getting backlash from pointing out not just the injustice women faced but men’s suffering is fucked
I do not care what you identify as or what is between your legs
my autistic brain is like “UNFAIRNESS? NO” the moment I become aware and I try to educate
I do not care what you identify as or what is between your legs
my autistic brain is like “UNFAIRNESS? NO” the moment I become aware and I try to educate
November 21, 2025 at 8:03 PM
ngl posting this in itself is just terrifying lol
I spent 10+ years “best friends” with someone who was that nightmare feminist that ruins the word who made statements like “we don’t need men, just their sperm”
which is as fucked as saying “we don’t need women, just their eggs”
we’re human first
I spent 10+ years “best friends” with someone who was that nightmare feminist that ruins the word who made statements like “we don’t need men, just their sperm”
which is as fucked as saying “we don’t need women, just their eggs”
we’re human first
fear being instilled in me when I started getting backlash from pointing out not just the injustice women faced but men’s suffering is fucked
I do not care what you identify as or what is between your legs
my autistic brain is like “UNFAIRNESS? NO” the moment I become aware and I try to educate
I do not care what you identify as or what is between your legs
my autistic brain is like “UNFAIRNESS? NO” the moment I become aware and I try to educate
November 21, 2025 at 7:59 PM
fear being instilled in me when I started getting backlash from pointing out not just the injustice women faced but men’s suffering is fucked
I do not care what you identify as or what is between your legs
my autistic brain is like “UNFAIRNESS? NO” the moment I become aware and I try to educate
I do not care what you identify as or what is between your legs
my autistic brain is like “UNFAIRNESS? NO” the moment I become aware and I try to educate
“so did you have a ~dirty~ dream about me?”
“no, I dreamt of miniature horses riding regular horses around a track and the humans were in an uproar because the mini horses hadn’t washed before getting in the saddles so the saddles needed to be cleaned”
“no, I dreamt of miniature horses riding regular horses around a track and the humans were in an uproar because the mini horses hadn’t washed before getting in the saddles so the saddles needed to be cleaned”
November 17, 2025 at 8:24 PM
“so did you have a ~dirty~ dream about me?”
“no, I dreamt of miniature horses riding regular horses around a track and the humans were in an uproar because the mini horses hadn’t washed before getting in the saddles so the saddles needed to be cleaned”
“no, I dreamt of miniature horses riding regular horses around a track and the humans were in an uproar because the mini horses hadn’t washed before getting in the saddles so the saddles needed to be cleaned”
as an adult who hasn't experienced a "real period" (cramps, emotional reactivity, negative energy, etc) since they were ELEVEN and now suddenly is, is fucking wild
why did I go from 100% bouncy extrovert to "fuck off give me a shovel so I can dig a hole to crawl into and die with these oreos"
why did I go from 100% bouncy extrovert to "fuck off give me a shovel so I can dig a hole to crawl into and die with these oreos"
November 16, 2025 at 10:30 PM
as an adult who hasn't experienced a "real period" (cramps, emotional reactivity, negative energy, etc) since they were ELEVEN and now suddenly is, is fucking wild
why did I go from 100% bouncy extrovert to "fuck off give me a shovel so I can dig a hole to crawl into and die with these oreos"
why did I go from 100% bouncy extrovert to "fuck off give me a shovel so I can dig a hole to crawl into and die with these oreos"
me fighting tears ferociously in the a.m. because I went to water my boss’ plant and I saw my christmas card from last year tucked into a stack of papers
I filled the left page of the card with how much I appreciate him ending it with “thank you for being the boss I always needed”
HE KEPT IT
I filled the left page of the card with how much I appreciate him ending it with “thank you for being the boss I always needed”
HE KEPT IT
a cartoon girl is crying with tears running down her face
Alt: a cartoon girl is crying with tears running down her face
media.tenor.com
November 14, 2025 at 12:07 PM
me fighting tears ferociously in the a.m. because I went to water my boss’ plant and I saw my christmas card from last year tucked into a stack of papers
I filled the left page of the card with how much I appreciate him ending it with “thank you for being the boss I always needed”
HE KEPT IT
I filled the left page of the card with how much I appreciate him ending it with “thank you for being the boss I always needed”
HE KEPT IT
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sometimes I’m like “huh it’s been a while since I scrolled through bsky, why is that”
BECAUSE BEAUTIFUL ART
TALENTED ARTISTS
I AM IN PAIN I WOULD 100% HAVE A FULL TIME JOB JUST TO COMMISSION ARTISTS
BECAUSE BEAUTIFUL ART
TALENTED ARTISTS
I AM IN PAIN I WOULD 100% HAVE A FULL TIME JOB JUST TO COMMISSION ARTISTS
November 9, 2025 at 3:24 PM
sometimes I’m like “huh it’s been a while since I scrolled through bsky, why is that”
BECAUSE BEAUTIFUL ART
TALENTED ARTISTS
I AM IN PAIN I WOULD 100% HAVE A FULL TIME JOB JUST TO COMMISSION ARTISTS
BECAUSE BEAUTIFUL ART
TALENTED ARTISTS
I AM IN PAIN I WOULD 100% HAVE A FULL TIME JOB JUST TO COMMISSION ARTISTS
I HAVE THIS AND FUCKING LOVE IT AFTER TRYING OTHERS
people can hear me so much better without me having to install anything extra to help/customize my audio output
really sensitive to “headset fatigue”; around my ears will become so sore I want to cry—these? not once, even after 7+ hours (shhhh)
people can hear me so much better without me having to install anything extra to help/customize my audio output
really sensitive to “headset fatigue”; around my ears will become so sore I want to cry—these? not once, even after 7+ hours (shhhh)
The headset I use is on sale for 70 bucks! I just wanted to share in case anyone was innthe market! Theyre SUPER comfy (which is a must with my industrial piercing) and sturdy and durable ✨️
I use a stand alone mic, but the one on the set pretty solid too!
a.co/d/4lRSLzV
#streamer #vtuber
I use a stand alone mic, but the one on the set pretty solid too!
a.co/d/4lRSLzV
#streamer #vtuber
November 9, 2025 at 3:02 PM
I HAVE THIS AND FUCKING LOVE IT AFTER TRYING OTHERS
people can hear me so much better without me having to install anything extra to help/customize my audio output
really sensitive to “headset fatigue”; around my ears will become so sore I want to cry—these? not once, even after 7+ hours (shhhh)
people can hear me so much better without me having to install anything extra to help/customize my audio output
really sensitive to “headset fatigue”; around my ears will become so sore I want to cry—these? not once, even after 7+ hours (shhhh)
"you main C&D in marvel rivals because they're brainless and you're a bad gamer"
alright? I guess at excel at being bad
#marvelrivals
alright? I guess at excel at being bad
#marvelrivals
November 8, 2025 at 7:52 PM
"you main C&D in marvel rivals because they're brainless and you're a bad gamer"
alright? I guess at excel at being bad
#marvelrivals
alright? I guess at excel at being bad
#marvelrivals
listening to all these glorious new songs from set it off and since their reimagined “wolf in sheep’s clothing” THE ANGER OF PEOPLE BEING SHITTY AND CALLING THEM THE FUCK OUT IS SO DOMINANT
THE NERDY HAPPY LEAD SINGER IS LEGIT SCREAMING SO BEAUTIFULLY
but I also wanna be like “who did this to you”
THE NERDY HAPPY LEAD SINGER IS LEGIT SCREAMING SO BEAUTIFULLY
but I also wanna be like “who did this to you”
a close up of a man 's face in the dark with a red light behind him
Alt: a close up of a john wick’s face as he steps out of shadows with a menacing look, played by keanu reeves
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November 7, 2025 at 12:43 PM
listening to all these glorious new songs from set it off and since their reimagined “wolf in sheep’s clothing” THE ANGER OF PEOPLE BEING SHITTY AND CALLING THEM THE FUCK OUT IS SO DOMINANT
THE NERDY HAPPY LEAD SINGER IS LEGIT SCREAMING SO BEAUTIFULLY
but I also wanna be like “who did this to you”
THE NERDY HAPPY LEAD SINGER IS LEGIT SCREAMING SO BEAUTIFULLY
but I also wanna be like “who did this to you”
when you reach that point of burnt out where your flame flickers then winks out of existence, I hope you realize the darkness around you is embracing you at your worst and lowest, not swallowing you
there you rest and as your eyes adjust to the dark, you can finally see who you are
don’t look away
there you rest and as your eyes adjust to the dark, you can finally see who you are
don’t look away
November 7, 2025 at 12:30 AM
when you reach that point of burnt out where your flame flickers then winks out of existence, I hope you realize the darkness around you is embracing you at your worst and lowest, not swallowing you
there you rest and as your eyes adjust to the dark, you can finally see who you are
don’t look away
there you rest and as your eyes adjust to the dark, you can finally see who you are
don’t look away
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Comm work for @jacenlandry.bsky.social 🐍
Even a connoisseur of the mystical arts may need a break for contemplation...or reflection. A quiet secluded place, the rustling of grass, the setting sun and a devoted familiar - all that's needed.
#artsky ◻️ #worldofwarcraft ◻️ #warcraft ◻️ #artistsonbluesky
Even a connoisseur of the mystical arts may need a break for contemplation...or reflection. A quiet secluded place, the rustling of grass, the setting sun and a devoted familiar - all that's needed.
#artsky ◻️ #worldofwarcraft ◻️ #warcraft ◻️ #artistsonbluesky
November 4, 2025 at 5:02 PM
Comm work for @jacenlandry.bsky.social 🐍
Even a connoisseur of the mystical arts may need a break for contemplation...or reflection. A quiet secluded place, the rustling of grass, the setting sun and a devoted familiar - all that's needed.
#artsky ◻️ #worldofwarcraft ◻️ #warcraft ◻️ #artistsonbluesky
Even a connoisseur of the mystical arts may need a break for contemplation...or reflection. A quiet secluded place, the rustling of grass, the setting sun and a devoted familiar - all that's needed.
#artsky ◻️ #worldofwarcraft ◻️ #warcraft ◻️ #artistsonbluesky
I wish I got a screenshot of it, but on #palia the other day someone said “I love you” and I didn’t see the name after and was going to respond “I LOVE YOU TOO” (I don’t know anyone on this game haha)
but I saw the name, didn’t, and then was like “fuck it” and wrote “I love anyone who sees this”
but I saw the name, didn’t, and then was like “fuck it” and wrote “I love anyone who sees this”
November 5, 2025 at 3:51 PM
I wish I got a screenshot of it, but on #palia the other day someone said “I love you” and I didn’t see the name after and was going to respond “I LOVE YOU TOO” (I don’t know anyone on this game haha)
but I saw the name, didn’t, and then was like “fuck it” and wrote “I love anyone who sees this”
but I saw the name, didn’t, and then was like “fuck it” and wrote “I love anyone who sees this”
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oc | Charlotte (Modern AU)
Am I on trend? 🤍
Am I on trend? 🤍
November 4, 2025 at 7:45 PM
oc | Charlotte (Modern AU)
Am I on trend? 🤍
Am I on trend? 🤍
always, always, always loved the moon and @gunnercrow.bsky.social has managed to do what I thought was impossible and made me love it more
BUT I SAW IT YESTERDAY AND IT WAS KIND OF SCARY AND ALARMING IT WAS SO BIG AND CLOSE I GOT MAJORA’S MASK FLASHBACKS
BUT I SAW IT YESTERDAY AND IT WAS KIND OF SCARY AND ALARMING IT WAS SO BIG AND CLOSE I GOT MAJORA’S MASK FLASHBACKS
November 5, 2025 at 3:41 PM
always, always, always loved the moon and @gunnercrow.bsky.social has managed to do what I thought was impossible and made me love it more
BUT I SAW IT YESTERDAY AND IT WAS KIND OF SCARY AND ALARMING IT WAS SO BIG AND CLOSE I GOT MAJORA’S MASK FLASHBACKS
BUT I SAW IT YESTERDAY AND IT WAS KIND OF SCARY AND ALARMING IT WAS SO BIG AND CLOSE I GOT MAJORA’S MASK FLASHBACKS
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Why is this important? In a time of hate, fear, and selfishness in this country, a man who is a millennial, a democratic socialist, a Muslim, an immigrant, and who did not abandon anyone on his campaign was elected mayor of the largest city in the US. Good can prevail.
November 5, 2025 at 7:10 AM
Why is this important? In a time of hate, fear, and selfishness in this country, a man who is a millennial, a democratic socialist, a Muslim, an immigrant, and who did not abandon anyone on his campaign was elected mayor of the largest city in the US. Good can prevail.
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