Amadeus Esso
@pencilsplz.bsky.social
Retired person. MY PAGE IS AN ADULT SPACE. Support of people being comfortable and happy. LGBT+ furries, trekkies, whatever. Just wash your hands and don't elect N*zis. Do not feed trolls. #BlockAndMoveOn
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Amadeus Esso
@pencilsplz.bsky.social
· Feb 4
Please note, If I do not respond to your comments, It does not mean I am not paying attention. I read every comment although I am not sure how to respond to all of them, especially from strangers. Please do not take offense.
On top of all the hyper-independent-social-anxiety stuff... ym faith in people is at an all-time low. And that's after it's already been trounced upon by working retail, dealing with toxic family members and the constant stream of assholes on the street,
December 17, 2025 at 7:46 PM
On top of all the hyper-independent-social-anxiety stuff... ym faith in people is at an all-time low. And that's after it's already been trounced upon by working retail, dealing with toxic family members and the constant stream of assholes on the street,
Each new day a new thing the admin announces they have done, and each day I freak out all over again. This is the main reason why I dislike this "unprecedented time in history" because each dumbass grab for money is a needle into a effigy doll Aimed at the American people
December 16, 2025 at 5:31 AM
Each new day a new thing the admin announces they have done, and each day I freak out all over again. This is the main reason why I dislike this "unprecedented time in history" because each dumbass grab for money is a needle into a effigy doll Aimed at the American people
Now Rob Reiner. This is truly the worst time line.
December 15, 2025 at 10:20 AM
Now Rob Reiner. This is truly the worst time line.
Friday, just the beginning. Saturday was worse. If my sister throwing the temper tantrum over me picking a cheap place to eat wasn't enough, I opened Bsky, THAT'S when I heard about BrownU . Suddenly, my previous pain stopped. The perspective shift had me struggling to maintain composure.
December 14, 2025 at 5:57 PM
Friday, just the beginning. Saturday was worse. If my sister throwing the temper tantrum over me picking a cheap place to eat wasn't enough, I opened Bsky, THAT'S when I heard about BrownU . Suddenly, my previous pain stopped. The perspective shift had me struggling to maintain composure.
Realtalk, people think my social anxiety stems from things I've said and decisions I made. There is that, but you know what it mostly stems from?
People around me in physical space and the way they treated me in a difficult way. This is way beyond simply criticism.
People around me in physical space and the way they treated me in a difficult way. This is way beyond simply criticism.
December 14, 2025 at 12:15 AM
Realtalk, people think my social anxiety stems from things I've said and decisions I made. There is that, but you know what it mostly stems from?
People around me in physical space and the way they treated me in a difficult way. This is way beyond simply criticism.
People around me in physical space and the way they treated me in a difficult way. This is way beyond simply criticism.
To the one in my life crying poverty, bitching about me choosing a cheaper place to eat, but casually mentioning they have to use their CC in a seperate purchase b/c they are only carrying 100s, fuck you. I hope #Santa breaks his foot off in your ass. You make me ashamed to identify as a human being
December 13, 2025 at 11:01 PM
To the one in my life crying poverty, bitching about me choosing a cheaper place to eat, but casually mentioning they have to use their CC in a seperate purchase b/c they are only carrying 100s, fuck you. I hope #Santa breaks his foot off in your ass. You make me ashamed to identify as a human being
Glad it's the weekend. In physical space, more people pull their entitled a-hole shtick than any other December and I worked #RETAIL a decade ago . According to them
-I did not deserve to sit with friends at lunch
-My plate is now theirs for who knows what reason
-I did not deserve to go home at all
-I did not deserve to sit with friends at lunch
-My plate is now theirs for who knows what reason
-I did not deserve to go home at all
December 12, 2025 at 8:54 PM
Glad it's the weekend. In physical space, more people pull their entitled a-hole shtick than any other December and I worked #RETAIL a decade ago . According to them
-I did not deserve to sit with friends at lunch
-My plate is now theirs for who knows what reason
-I did not deserve to go home at all
-I did not deserve to sit with friends at lunch
-My plate is now theirs for who knows what reason
-I did not deserve to go home at all
I'm gettin' nuttin' for Christmas, Mommy and Daddy are mad I'm gettin' nuttin' for Christmas, I opposed tyranny and cruelty and I'm glad
Context: I quit twitter and opposed these ridiculous changes as every freedom-loving American should.
Context: I quit twitter and opposed these ridiculous changes as every freedom-loving American should.
December 12, 2025 at 12:18 AM
I'm gettin' nuttin' for Christmas, Mommy and Daddy are mad I'm gettin' nuttin' for Christmas, I opposed tyranny and cruelty and I'm glad
Context: I quit twitter and opposed these ridiculous changes as every freedom-loving American should.
Context: I quit twitter and opposed these ridiculous changes as every freedom-loving American should.
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MAGAZINER: How many veterans have you deported?
NOEM: We haven't deported veterans
MAGAZINER: We are now joined on Zoom by a combat veteran you deported to Korea
NOEM: We haven't deported veterans
MAGAZINER: We are now joined on Zoom by a combat veteran you deported to Korea
December 11, 2025 at 4:22 PM
MAGAZINER: How many veterans have you deported?
NOEM: We haven't deported veterans
MAGAZINER: We are now joined on Zoom by a combat veteran you deported to Korea
NOEM: We haven't deported veterans
MAGAZINER: We are now joined on Zoom by a combat veteran you deported to Korea
Ignore this , just putting thoughts down on paper because if I don't I'm going to lie awake all night
December 11, 2025 at 5:19 AM
Ignore this , just putting thoughts down on paper because if I don't I'm going to lie awake all night
In the current state of the world, I think I managed to successfully "try" social storytelling using math rocks. And I realize, maybe it's not for me at this time.
December 6, 2025 at 4:33 PM
In the current state of the world, I think I managed to successfully "try" social storytelling using math rocks. And I realize, maybe it's not for me at this time.
back on my emo bullshit thanks
December 6, 2025 at 4:21 PM
back on my emo bullshit thanks
I wish I could buy a physical copy. I know the costs behind it and the hassle but I can dream!
www.mylifewithfel.com is back online! Webmaster said it was an issue with the hosting service, nothing more 👌
I should get off my ass and compilate the whole thing into a downloadable thing though, have it as a backup on my ejunkie site hmmmm
I should get off my ass and compilate the whole thing into a downloadable thing though, have it as a backup on my ejunkie site hmmmm
December 5, 2025 at 5:02 PM
I wish I could buy a physical copy. I know the costs behind it and the hassle but I can dream!
Dear gamer pals, I understand that consumer anxiety is high, checking GPU prices daily is not going to help it. Try doing something else with productive with your your life like calling your congress people to impeach the guy making everything expensive through tariffs.
December 3, 2025 at 7:47 PM
Dear gamer pals, I understand that consumer anxiety is high, checking GPU prices daily is not going to help it. Try doing something else with productive with your your life like calling your congress people to impeach the guy making everything expensive through tariffs.
-A hugeass catgirl approaches a podium with a wreath on it, wearing antlers-
-It's Winter, raising her huge paw in front of her mouth, balling her fist in front of her mouth & clearing her throat as loud & disruptively as possible.-
-It's Winter, raising her huge paw in front of her mouth, balling her fist in front of her mouth & clearing her throat as loud & disruptively as possible.-
November 30, 2025 at 9:43 PM
-A hugeass catgirl approaches a podium with a wreath on it, wearing antlers-
-It's Winter, raising her huge paw in front of her mouth, balling her fist in front of her mouth & clearing her throat as loud & disruptively as possible.-
-It's Winter, raising her huge paw in front of her mouth, balling her fist in front of her mouth & clearing her throat as loud & disruptively as possible.-
People ask me "how did you survive every #BlackFriday working retail" I say "stories like this."
November 28, 2025 at 11:31 PM
People ask me "how did you survive every #BlackFriday working retail" I say "stories like this."
"Why don't people buy my robot turds--" Tim "Temper Tantrum" Sweeney
"Trump's America" enabled this type of entitlement for too long.
They've done everything, including selling us the modern equivalent of snake oil, except mandate that you give them money without your legal consent.
"Trump's America" enabled this type of entitlement for too long.
They've done everything, including selling us the modern equivalent of snake oil, except mandate that you give them money without your legal consent.
"Epic CEO angry that customers want to be informed and will refuse to purchase products they feel were made unethically so wants to take that choice away". There, fixed it for you.
Epic CEO says AI disclosures like Steam's make "no sense" because AI will be involved in "nearly all" future game development
https://www.reddit.com/r/pcgaming/comments/1p7eh60/epic_ceo_says_ai_disclosures_like_steams_make_no/
https://www.reddit.com/r/pcgaming/comments/1p7eh60/epic_ceo_says_ai_disclosures_like_steams_make_no/
November 28, 2025 at 12:12 PM
"Why don't people buy my robot turds--" Tim "Temper Tantrum" Sweeney
"Trump's America" enabled this type of entitlement for too long.
They've done everything, including selling us the modern equivalent of snake oil, except mandate that you give them money without your legal consent.
"Trump's America" enabled this type of entitlement for too long.
They've done everything, including selling us the modern equivalent of snake oil, except mandate that you give them money without your legal consent.
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Pratchett's first Tiffany Aching book is pretty philosophical, though it's not as spiritual as something like _A Wrinkle in Time_, while Rowling is like "Every Flavor Beans! let's go BUY shit, Harry!"
November 27, 2025 at 1:47 AM
Pratchett's first Tiffany Aching book is pretty philosophical, though it's not as spiritual as something like _A Wrinkle in Time_, while Rowling is like "Every Flavor Beans! let's go BUY shit, Harry!"
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I feel I should point out that I thought Rowling's work was terrible even back when she was everybody's darling. I did. and I didn't understand what everybody saw in it, other than that marketing is a hell of a drug
November 27, 2025 at 1:18 AM
I feel I should point out that I thought Rowling's work was terrible even back when she was everybody's darling. I did. and I didn't understand what everybody saw in it, other than that marketing is a hell of a drug
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so you can directly compare the work of Terry Pratchett and J. K. Rowling, because Pratchett did a YA series about a kid learning to be a witch... you can check to see who's good at this and who's an unreadable hack
November 27, 2025 at 1:08 AM
so you can directly compare the work of Terry Pratchett and J. K. Rowling, because Pratchett did a YA series about a kid learning to be a witch... you can check to see who's good at this and who's an unreadable hack
But the main thing most of all is being cut off from everyone i've ever cared about, has cause a burnout so terrible I just don't do anything but game dailies and color coloring book pages.
November 24, 2025 at 8:12 PM
But the main thing most of all is being cut off from everyone i've ever cared about, has cause a burnout so terrible I just don't do anything but game dailies and color coloring book pages.
Asdf Movie 2 | I'm Allergic To Adorableness
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November 24, 2025 at 2:33 PM
Shower thoughts: maybe it's not that I'm hyper independent, or I have #autism , or I'm this or that or whatever society labels me as.
If i pretend to be an alien from offworld and try to integrate, play well with others, try to get along... it's damn near impossible.
If i pretend to be an alien from offworld and try to integrate, play well with others, try to get along... it's damn near impossible.
November 22, 2025 at 4:01 AM
Shower thoughts: maybe it's not that I'm hyper independent, or I have #autism , or I'm this or that or whatever society labels me as.
If i pretend to be an alien from offworld and try to integrate, play well with others, try to get along... it's damn near impossible.
If i pretend to be an alien from offworld and try to integrate, play well with others, try to get along... it's damn near impossible.
I should not be physically be getting worked up over intangible things but the queasiness is unending. Who needs sleep when I have my BFF nausea
November 20, 2025 at 11:36 AM
I should not be physically be getting worked up over intangible things but the queasiness is unending. Who needs sleep when I have my BFF nausea
#Discord 's actually snorting the koolaid, believing that we can find places to share the things we like, that's really cute. Not in 2025, you can't. Even if what you share is harmless, someone's going to take issue with it & tear it, & you, down.
And here I thought this was a "social" site. RIP
And here I thought this was a "social" site. RIP
November 19, 2025 at 7:25 PM
#Discord 's actually snorting the koolaid, believing that we can find places to share the things we like, that's really cute. Not in 2025, you can't. Even if what you share is harmless, someone's going to take issue with it & tear it, & you, down.
And here I thought this was a "social" site. RIP
And here I thought this was a "social" site. RIP