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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌

@prlnce.bsky.social

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your resident bluetual · he/him · trans · 30+ · autistic · oc/dnd artist/voice actor/writer/vtuber · do not use/upload my art ☆ NO AI ☆ I DO NOT F4F bz: [email protected] links: https://t.co/GamiCLbHKD art feed: https://tinyurl.com/3bxurm5z

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · Aug 26

🌺 BIG STORE UPDATE!! 🌺 new prints and buttons, original AND fanart, are all up for preorders in my store!! (check thread for fandoms)

if you share any post in this thread i am kissing you directly on the forehead 💋

| #princearttag #merch #artshop #ocsky #elfenjoyers |

www.princelowell.com/store

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Kenny Goblins @kennylogins.bsky.social · May 21

jazz!
@juhuachai
"optimal posting times" "stagger your posts" if you see me you see me. it's in gods hands and i am not praying
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Faine Greenwood @faineg.bsky.social · 13h

there’s this weird idea a lot of people seem to have about how all of us writers and artists must secretly want to use AI and are merely resisting temptation for ethical reasons, and like, no, it’s not hard for me to resist drinking the bowl of Piss With Glass In It actually

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 13h

eclair is the guy i've slapped all my old dysphoria experiences onto but otherwise he would've been the perfect candidate 😔 he's like the one oc i have that wouldn't even wear a skirt

♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 13h

i want to make a transman oc with tits.....i've had some images in my head

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 13h

thanks for listening to me ramble all day while i'm in art purgatory

♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 13h

yeah like clearly they're seeing something i'm not but idk how and i'm scared to find out LMAO

♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 13h

i follow some creators whom i respect in everything they do and all the opinions they've presented and yet they're self proclaimed swifties and like. while people are allowed to like what they like there's such a huge disconnect for me, i struggle to see how they interpret her in a good light

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 14h

it would be so cool to collab with a composer to sing a song for impcycle

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 14h

🙈 DHKSJDG THANK YOU
i think i already sent you the close in the distance cover but i'm thinking about other ones i might do eventually

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 14h

since i talked about it, here's that cover. i might redo it sometime www.youtube.com/watch?v=aLaI...

Close in the Distance Cover [With Lyrics]

YouTube video by Prince Lowell

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

but if i do ever post something again, it will be something i'm proud of. and if nobody likes it that's fine. i just want someone to listen.

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

these past few days i've considered trying to sing again. i sometimes do still, when i'm by myself. but like all my creative pursuits, it's not enough to just be by myself. i want to share. i want validation. and it's not the end all be all, but it is something i want, and i'm not ashamed of that.

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

so i hid again. and i said i quit for real this time. i remembered that all those years ago, i couldn't even get my friends at the time to listen to a 2 minute song. even though it meant the entire world to me, they wouldn't even try. and i got scared, like. is history just gonna keep repeating????

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

but by then, i just. couldn't believe it. how could it be beautiful? i haven't done this in so long, and i have no confidence in it. i listened to it again and again, and all i could hear were mistakes. i could hear the emotion i felt as i sang but i couldn't find it beautiful

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

i made a cover semi recently because the song meant something to me. it was of close in the distance. and i was so rusty, i hadn't done this in so long. and for the first time, i was getting comments from people i didn't know that it was beautiful. not many, but more than one

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

so while it kept me going for a while, i worried. was i ever good? was i just imagining it? did i lose the ability?

so i hid my voice away again. and pretended i couldn't even sing at all. made up a voice for when i needed to, to clown the pain away.

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

idk what this musing is about. I'M HAVING SO MANY REALIZATIONS LATELY. I'M SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR TL

just. i was forced to hide my voice away from an early age, right as i was getting confident in my own possibilities. and when i tried online....no one cared but that one mutual.

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

one person kept me going, and that wasn't even someone i was close to. i still remember them. we were mutuals on tumblr, and they said one of my covers had them almost crying because it was beautiful. that comment kept me singing for YEARS

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

i thought that maybe if people liked my songs, it would boost my confidence a lil

AND BOY HOWDY WAS THAT A MISTAKE, i wasn't ready and i was too fragile inside to handle the reaction i got. which was anything from absolutely nothing to "that's a little much"

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

i discovered audacity and mastering later on. i attempted covers. but i would wait until my wife left the apartment before i dared to sing. she knows i can sing, she's heard it, but i was so used to hiding and so used to my voice being a bother that i could only do it alone

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

and i only got to do a stage performance one time for a musical, which happened to be the worst timing possible for. tragic reasons. so i wasn't at my best nor did i have the wherewithal to rly take in where i was or what i was doing. i was just on autopilot, performing on no sleep

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

i mean. i know where it comes from (thanks mom) and it's the root of all my creative insecurities, but with all the other stuff i've been picking back up i'm inevitably thinking back to music again

i wanted to stop hiding my voice and be on stage and make people smile or cry or sing along

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

i'm a theater kid so the music kids in school would often kinda show off in public, and i don't rly think all of them meant it as Showing Off, they just knew how to sing so when they sang something they did it properly. but i always felt that if i did that, i'd be looked at like a showoff

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

my confidence and faith in myself was literally so crushed i'm more scared of trying than i am of sounding horrible. like if i can at least make people laugh then it was worth something, somehow

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♔Prince ✨Gunpowder Messenger ⚙💌 @prlnce.bsky.social · 15h

i realize that since i quit singing, every time i'm in vc and singing something i purposely make myself sound bad 💀

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