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Going to “work” during the week doesn’t fucking help me with anything.
I get back home after sorting bread and washing sticky bottles or whatever… and my home still looks like a cluttered mess, I’m still tired, I’m still depressed, I still don’t have enough money, and now there is no time to draw.
I get back home after sorting bread and washing sticky bottles or whatever… and my home still looks like a cluttered mess, I’m still tired, I’m still depressed, I still don’t have enough money, and now there is no time to draw.
December 14, 2025 at 8:01 AM
Going to “work” during the week doesn’t fucking help me with anything.
I get back home after sorting bread and washing sticky bottles or whatever… and my home still looks like a cluttered mess, I’m still tired, I’m still depressed, I still don’t have enough money, and now there is no time to draw.
I get back home after sorting bread and washing sticky bottles or whatever… and my home still looks like a cluttered mess, I’m still tired, I’m still depressed, I still don’t have enough money, and now there is no time to draw.
Left side of ribs under boob is hurting. The usual oof is higher up than normally. Having a physical form sucks. Why is there a cramp in my damn ribcage?? 😩
December 13, 2025 at 11:09 AM
Left side of ribs under boob is hurting. The usual oof is higher up than normally. Having a physical form sucks. Why is there a cramp in my damn ribcage?? 😩
Sometimes I forget how to human and then I just sit there and stare at a spot for like ten minutes.
Today I pretended to sleep whilst sitting. Was resting my eyes. Didn’t wanna look at anyone on accident.
Today I pretended to sleep whilst sitting. Was resting my eyes. Didn’t wanna look at anyone on accident.
December 12, 2025 at 8:30 AM
Sometimes I forget how to human and then I just sit there and stare at a spot for like ten minutes.
Today I pretended to sleep whilst sitting. Was resting my eyes. Didn’t wanna look at anyone on accident.
Today I pretended to sleep whilst sitting. Was resting my eyes. Didn’t wanna look at anyone on accident.
Cleaned a buncha dishes and sticky bottles at “work” today, also sorted n categorized bread.
Ya kinda gotta stand around n do nothing from time to time, when ya run out of tasks and nobody is there to assign anything to ya.
But it’s not actually hard. I’m just socially awkward.
Ya kinda gotta stand around n do nothing from time to time, when ya run out of tasks and nobody is there to assign anything to ya.
But it’s not actually hard. I’m just socially awkward.
December 11, 2025 at 10:06 PM
Cleaned a buncha dishes and sticky bottles at “work” today, also sorted n categorized bread.
Ya kinda gotta stand around n do nothing from time to time, when ya run out of tasks and nobody is there to assign anything to ya.
But it’s not actually hard. I’m just socially awkward.
Ya kinda gotta stand around n do nothing from time to time, when ya run out of tasks and nobody is there to assign anything to ya.
But it’s not actually hard. I’m just socially awkward.
Old man with a cane out-sped me on the sidewalk today. Never knew just how slow I walk.
After bed-rotting for so long, my legs simply don’t work like they used to.
After bed-rotting for so long, my legs simply don’t work like they used to.
December 10, 2025 at 9:19 PM
Old man with a cane out-sped me on the sidewalk today. Never knew just how slow I walk.
After bed-rotting for so long, my legs simply don’t work like they used to.
After bed-rotting for so long, my legs simply don’t work like they used to.
Spilled coffee on my lap cuz I was trying to put the seatbelt on n put the cardboard cup between le thighs… squeezed too hard.
December 10, 2025 at 6:29 AM
Spilled coffee on my lap cuz I was trying to put the seatbelt on n put the cardboard cup between le thighs… squeezed too hard.
Well first they go smoke like 3 times and drink coffee, and then they start around 8??
And I totally fumbled packing the boxes cuz I didn’t know how much of which was supposed to go into a box and didn’t ask cuz I didn’t wanna be a bother but also now I’m just an inconvenience cuz too much cabbage.
And I totally fumbled packing the boxes cuz I didn’t know how much of which was supposed to go into a box and didn’t ask cuz I didn’t wanna be a bother but also now I’m just an inconvenience cuz too much cabbage.
December 9, 2025 at 8:47 AM
Well first they go smoke like 3 times and drink coffee, and then they start around 8??
And I totally fumbled packing the boxes cuz I didn’t know how much of which was supposed to go into a box and didn’t ask cuz I didn’t wanna be a bother but also now I’m just an inconvenience cuz too much cabbage.
And I totally fumbled packing the boxes cuz I didn’t know how much of which was supposed to go into a box and didn’t ask cuz I didn’t wanna be a bother but also now I’m just an inconvenience cuz too much cabbage.
Don’t remember what time the boss lady asked me to come in tomorrow,,,, but the paper says 7, so I should be there at 7? But she most definitely didn’t say 7…
More like Viertel or Dreiviertel… so 7:30 or 7:45?
Why couldn’t she write it down on paper 😩??
The words left her and I mhm’d but I forgot
More like Viertel or Dreiviertel… so 7:30 or 7:45?
Why couldn’t she write it down on paper 😩??
The words left her and I mhm’d but I forgot
December 8, 2025 at 9:38 PM
Don’t remember what time the boss lady asked me to come in tomorrow,,,, but the paper says 7, so I should be there at 7? But she most definitely didn’t say 7…
More like Viertel or Dreiviertel… so 7:30 or 7:45?
Why couldn’t she write it down on paper 😩??
The words left her and I mhm’d but I forgot
More like Viertel or Dreiviertel… so 7:30 or 7:45?
Why couldn’t she write it down on paper 😩??
The words left her and I mhm’d but I forgot
Ya go back to work irl and suddenly all the suicidal thoughts come back. What’s up with that???
December 8, 2025 at 12:29 PM
Ya go back to work irl and suddenly all the suicidal thoughts come back. What’s up with that???
Peeling off the gross leafs from lettuce and sorting through rotten apples or whatever… for 1,50€ an hour… really ain’t it.
I’ve wasted my youth.
I’m gonna try vtubing again. 😭
I’ve wasted my youth.
I’m gonna try vtubing again. 😭
December 8, 2025 at 12:26 PM
Peeling off the gross leafs from lettuce and sorting through rotten apples or whatever… for 1,50€ an hour… really ain’t it.
I’ve wasted my youth.
I’m gonna try vtubing again. 😭
I’ve wasted my youth.
I’m gonna try vtubing again. 😭
I found the place and we got a breakfast break. I’m just staring at my phone now.
Had to pack boxes with vegetables n bread and stuff.
I feel like the worst introvert to ever exist. But at least the tasks aren’t hard so far…
Had to pack boxes with vegetables n bread and stuff.
I feel like the worst introvert to ever exist. But at least the tasks aren’t hard so far…
December 8, 2025 at 8:20 AM
I found the place and we got a breakfast break. I’m just staring at my phone now.
Had to pack boxes with vegetables n bread and stuff.
I feel like the worst introvert to ever exist. But at least the tasks aren’t hard so far…
Had to pack boxes with vegetables n bread and stuff.
I feel like the worst introvert to ever exist. But at least the tasks aren’t hard so far…
I don’t even know where I’m supposed to go tomorrow.
The Jobcenter Lady told me the road name… and the general direction… but I’m looking at the Google maps and I ??? Still don’t know where the entry is ??
I’m gonna cry if I can’t find it.
Can’t even bring my mom along cuz I’m 26 years old.
The Jobcenter Lady told me the road name… and the general direction… but I’m looking at the Google maps and I ??? Still don’t know where the entry is ??
I’m gonna cry if I can’t find it.
Can’t even bring my mom along cuz I’m 26 years old.
December 7, 2025 at 6:21 PM
I don’t even know where I’m supposed to go tomorrow.
The Jobcenter Lady told me the road name… and the general direction… but I’m looking at the Google maps and I ??? Still don’t know where the entry is ??
I’m gonna cry if I can’t find it.
Can’t even bring my mom along cuz I’m 26 years old.
The Jobcenter Lady told me the road name… and the general direction… but I’m looking at the Google maps and I ??? Still don’t know where the entry is ??
I’m gonna cry if I can’t find it.
Can’t even bring my mom along cuz I’m 26 years old.
Depending on how life goes, there prolly won’t be new art from me until March.
Or I’ll only draw cats.
I don’t wanna be too dramatic but the burnout is really bad this time around.
Or I’ll only draw cats.
I don’t wanna be too dramatic but the burnout is really bad this time around.
December 4, 2025 at 3:01 PM
Depending on how life goes, there prolly won’t be new art from me until March.
Or I’ll only draw cats.
I don’t wanna be too dramatic but the burnout is really bad this time around.
Or I’ll only draw cats.
I don’t wanna be too dramatic but the burnout is really bad this time around.
What do you even do at a food pantry? Sort through cabbages?
I feel like a big dummy for not knowing anything whatsoever.
And it’s gonna last until the end of February,,, five hours a day isn’t that bad but also??
Am I gonna miss out on my granny’s bday on Tuesday if it’s every day of the week?
I feel like a big dummy for not knowing anything whatsoever.
And it’s gonna last until the end of February,,, five hours a day isn’t that bad but also??
Am I gonna miss out on my granny’s bday on Tuesday if it’s every day of the week?
December 4, 2025 at 2:41 PM
What do you even do at a food pantry? Sort through cabbages?
I feel like a big dummy for not knowing anything whatsoever.
And it’s gonna last until the end of February,,, five hours a day isn’t that bad but also??
Am I gonna miss out on my granny’s bday on Tuesday if it’s every day of the week?
I feel like a big dummy for not knowing anything whatsoever.
And it’s gonna last until the end of February,,, five hours a day isn’t that bad but also??
Am I gonna miss out on my granny’s bday on Tuesday if it’s every day of the week?
Fang ab Montag bei der Tafel an, weil meiner Beraterin vom Jobcenter die Ideen ausgegangen sind und ich nicht weiß was ich mit mir selbst anfangen soll.
Nur weil ich nicht in Therapie gehen will. Ist auch komisch.
Dann kam sie mir mit „da gehen Leute hin, die sich selbst aufgegeben haben“. 🥲
Nur weil ich nicht in Therapie gehen will. Ist auch komisch.
Dann kam sie mir mit „da gehen Leute hin, die sich selbst aufgegeben haben“. 🥲
December 4, 2025 at 2:31 PM
Fang ab Montag bei der Tafel an, weil meiner Beraterin vom Jobcenter die Ideen ausgegangen sind und ich nicht weiß was ich mit mir selbst anfangen soll.
Nur weil ich nicht in Therapie gehen will. Ist auch komisch.
Dann kam sie mir mit „da gehen Leute hin, die sich selbst aufgegeben haben“. 🥲
Nur weil ich nicht in Therapie gehen will. Ist auch komisch.
Dann kam sie mir mit „da gehen Leute hin, die sich selbst aufgegeben haben“. 🥲
Everything in life is going terrible right now. There is only blah blah and complaints. Never anything good or positive,,, it’s all just bad or neutral or empty. I’m itchy and my spleen hurts :(
Listening to the sound of my bunnies chewing is the only thing keeping me sane rn.
Listening to the sound of my bunnies chewing is the only thing keeping me sane rn.
December 3, 2025 at 11:11 PM
Everything in life is going terrible right now. There is only blah blah and complaints. Never anything good or positive,,, it’s all just bad or neutral or empty. I’m itchy and my spleen hurts :(
Listening to the sound of my bunnies chewing is the only thing keeping me sane rn.
Listening to the sound of my bunnies chewing is the only thing keeping me sane rn.
Reached a point where I just don’t do anything anymore.
Aside from occasionally doing dishes, laundry, cleaning the bunny room… I just lay here and scroll the tiktok, looking for something to laugh at.
The algorithm fucking sucks as well,,, they don’t even show me anything good. I hate it here.
Aside from occasionally doing dishes, laundry, cleaning the bunny room… I just lay here and scroll the tiktok, looking for something to laugh at.
The algorithm fucking sucks as well,,, they don’t even show me anything good. I hate it here.
December 2, 2025 at 8:36 AM
Reached a point where I just don’t do anything anymore.
Aside from occasionally doing dishes, laundry, cleaning the bunny room… I just lay here and scroll the tiktok, looking for something to laugh at.
The algorithm fucking sucks as well,,, they don’t even show me anything good. I hate it here.
Aside from occasionally doing dishes, laundry, cleaning the bunny room… I just lay here and scroll the tiktok, looking for something to laugh at.
The algorithm fucking sucks as well,,, they don’t even show me anything good. I hate it here.
Coffee makes my spleen hurt.
(At least I think it’s the spleen? It’s on my left by the ribs.)
I only drink 1 or 2 mugs of instant coffee a day,,, but apparently that’s too much to handle now.
I also get asthmatic from the tummy acid fumes whilst digesting, or whatever. It’s weird.
(At least I think it’s the spleen? It’s on my left by the ribs.)
I only drink 1 or 2 mugs of instant coffee a day,,, but apparently that’s too much to handle now.
I also get asthmatic from the tummy acid fumes whilst digesting, or whatever. It’s weird.
November 27, 2025 at 8:28 AM
Coffee makes my spleen hurt.
(At least I think it’s the spleen? It’s on my left by the ribs.)
I only drink 1 or 2 mugs of instant coffee a day,,, but apparently that’s too much to handle now.
I also get asthmatic from the tummy acid fumes whilst digesting, or whatever. It’s weird.
(At least I think it’s the spleen? It’s on my left by the ribs.)
I only drink 1 or 2 mugs of instant coffee a day,,, but apparently that’s too much to handle now.
I also get asthmatic from the tummy acid fumes whilst digesting, or whatever. It’s weird.
Doctor is away for some schooling shtick,,, all week long,,,, and I’m too spooked by strangers to look for a stand-in doc to get a new asthma spray inhaler prescription.
Guess I’ll die. 😩
Guess I’ll die. 😩
November 25, 2025 at 12:23 PM
Doctor is away for some schooling shtick,,, all week long,,,, and I’m too spooked by strangers to look for a stand-in doc to get a new asthma spray inhaler prescription.
Guess I’ll die. 😩
Guess I’ll die. 😩
Can’t believe I haven’t drawn since ~Halloween,,, it’s so over.
November 23, 2025 at 8:54 AM
Can’t believe I haven’t drawn since ~Halloween,,, it’s so over.
Breathing sucks and I’ve been all out of asthma spray inhaler shtick since ~Tuesday,,,, but was too tired to go to the doc,,, and the lady got horrible opening hours on most days.
But if I don’t go on Monday, I might genuinely perish cuz I can’t breathe lmao.
But if I don’t go on Monday, I might genuinely perish cuz I can’t breathe lmao.
November 23, 2025 at 8:51 AM
Breathing sucks and I’ve been all out of asthma spray inhaler shtick since ~Tuesday,,,, but was too tired to go to the doc,,, and the lady got horrible opening hours on most days.
But if I don’t go on Monday, I might genuinely perish cuz I can’t breathe lmao.
But if I don’t go on Monday, I might genuinely perish cuz I can’t breathe lmao.
Mom cleaned the dishes and then complained how she cleaned “my” dishes… bruh, I used one (1) mug and a plate. The hell you mean “my” dishes?? I didn’t even dirty anything yesterday cuz I wasn’t home??
Also, if you would’ve waited two more hours, I would have cleaned the dishes myself…
Also, if you would’ve waited two more hours, I would have cleaned the dishes myself…
November 19, 2025 at 12:56 PM
Mom cleaned the dishes and then complained how she cleaned “my” dishes… bruh, I used one (1) mug and a plate. The hell you mean “my” dishes?? I didn’t even dirty anything yesterday cuz I wasn’t home??
Also, if you would’ve waited two more hours, I would have cleaned the dishes myself…
Also, if you would’ve waited two more hours, I would have cleaned the dishes myself…
My home makes me miserable.
The fact that I gotta hang up laundry and do the dishes, now that I’m back, is pissing me off.
I spend one night away and aside from missing my bunnies, it was great.
Tasty food, no corn-bugs or crumbs in my bed, no blabbering from mom, no waiting for the mailwoman…
The fact that I gotta hang up laundry and do the dishes, now that I’m back, is pissing me off.
I spend one night away and aside from missing my bunnies, it was great.
Tasty food, no corn-bugs or crumbs in my bed, no blabbering from mom, no waiting for the mailwoman…
November 19, 2025 at 11:32 AM
My home makes me miserable.
The fact that I gotta hang up laundry and do the dishes, now that I’m back, is pissing me off.
I spend one night away and aside from missing my bunnies, it was great.
Tasty food, no corn-bugs or crumbs in my bed, no blabbering from mom, no waiting for the mailwoman…
The fact that I gotta hang up laundry and do the dishes, now that I’m back, is pissing me off.
I spend one night away and aside from missing my bunnies, it was great.
Tasty food, no corn-bugs or crumbs in my bed, no blabbering from mom, no waiting for the mailwoman…
Back home, time to snooze.
Should have worn different shoes. Everything hurts.
I’m still too short to see anything at concerts.
Concert overall felt kinda mid.
The songs were good, tho it were the exact same ones as last time besides ~3 new songs.
I think I’m just getting too old for this.
Should have worn different shoes. Everything hurts.
I’m still too short to see anything at concerts.
Concert overall felt kinda mid.
The songs were good, tho it were the exact same ones as last time besides ~3 new songs.
I think I’m just getting too old for this.
November 18, 2025 at 2:55 PM
Back home, time to snooze.
Should have worn different shoes. Everything hurts.
I’m still too short to see anything at concerts.
Concert overall felt kinda mid.
The songs were good, tho it were the exact same ones as last time besides ~3 new songs.
I think I’m just getting too old for this.
Should have worn different shoes. Everything hurts.
I’m still too short to see anything at concerts.
Concert overall felt kinda mid.
The songs were good, tho it were the exact same ones as last time besides ~3 new songs.
I think I’m just getting too old for this.
Going to a concert tonight and lil sis booked us an air bnb cuz trains don’t drive back home that late and I am feeling awful in my guts lolol.
Also it’s cold!! Like damn!! Why is it so cold all of a sudden???
Also it’s cold!! Like damn!! Why is it so cold all of a sudden???
November 17, 2025 at 8:50 AM
Going to a concert tonight and lil sis booked us an air bnb cuz trains don’t drive back home that late and I am feeling awful in my guts lolol.
Also it’s cold!! Like damn!! Why is it so cold all of a sudden???
Also it’s cold!! Like damn!! Why is it so cold all of a sudden???