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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 4m

Going on a long walk today so I can get an eye exam and pick out new glasses I'm so excited to go on a walk again and also I so need new glasses

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 5m

The chest bones I miss themmmm!!! Also fr thighs are monsters especially the top of the thighs just holding on for dear life for that lil bit of fat left like GO AWAY!!!!!

You are still super tiny, but I totally see where you're coming from cuz when I had my gap I felt exactly the same way 🫂

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 7m

Hey love that we weigh about the same right now lol! I'm sure you're all good, also fuck 2kg of clothes really messes with a head huh? My pre-op weight went up like 5lbs just cuz of the clothes alone I was like yoooo wtf

Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 10m

Why do I have to have a shitty headache every day??? It's driving me insane

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 45m

Never expected to look this small at BMI 20, but here I am

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 1h

tw bc

Idk how much I weigh right now, probably around 53kg, but look how flat I am!!!!

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 12h

Feel like whole world is made of foggy and lies and just wanna sleep but sleep says no awake time awake awake and scared and awake

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 12h

Brain doesn't work but sleep won't happen. Why. Am useless without sleep. Can't be without sleep.

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 13h

I know I'm allowed to need sleep, but I swear I need sleep the most when I feel like I need to be awake the most. I've been awake since yesterday and yet now if I'm needed I'm too fucking tired to exist.

Also still can't sleep but also I can't do anything so fuck me I suppose.

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 14h

It feels selfish having basic needs. I should be there to help, I should be pushing myself to be around and listen and comfort. I haven't slept, I can't even think anymore. It's hard to type now and conversation in person doesn't even sound like words anymore... Why do I have to have needs right now

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 14h

I wish there was anything I could say or do to help 🫂 I don't wanna lose you, you mean so much to me more than words can describe and I love you so much

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 14h

Maybe we're both just equally terrible actually

Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 14h

Sorry :( I didn't know that's what you were doing it sounded like you were correcting me. I'm not very good at this at all.

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 14h

Idk people in a lot of European countries eat dinner super late and still look skinny. It's all portion control hun, but you do what's easiest for you I know the dizzy is just really hard to sleep with and waking up will also be pretty shitty 🫂

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 14h

If it's crazy then I'm also crazy with you, cuz midnight pasta sounds ideal

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 14h

Like it doesn't matter if I'm constantly corrected and misunderstood. Why do I give a shit? Why does it actually fucking matter that much to me? Does it? Or am I just being an asshole?

Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 14h

I honestly shouldn't ever complain about anything cuz all it does is cause tension and scare me into thinking everyone is going to abandon me.

Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 14h

Just please next time take my word for it when I tell you something about how I've been suffering. It's really invalidating to be told I'm wrong and I actually don't remember it when I've been awake for so long and was staring at the clock the whole time.

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 15h

I'm just so tired and so exhausted and so miserable I don't wanna have someone explain to me how I'm wrong about my own suffering please and thank you. I remember every painful fucking second of today okay? Can you just take my word for once? Please? I know I'm not allowed to be smart but please???

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 15h

Guess men can't even vent about men not being allowed in ed spaces cuz fucking nondisordered idiots have to also include themselves in the fucking conversation!!! Just tell me to end it already!!! Tell me you hate me and don't want me to get help and think nothing is wrong with me!!!!!

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 15h

Also you bet your ass nondisordered people can't even read my fucking display name. Do NOT fucking interact!!!! It's not that fucking hard! You assholes are gonna take away my fucking safe space.

I'm gonna have to delete that post and feel like fucking shit for not even being able to vent.

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 15h

Yeah imma just take my pain meds and see what happens. I'm so exhausted and so miserable and I don't have any energy to exist anymore so I should probably get some sleep. It's like 6pm but idc if I'm awake early if I actually get some sleep tonight

Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 15h

Idk if I can sleep but I'm probably gonna attempt to go to bed early tonight cuz I'm just so exhausted and my pain is really bad and I've had an incredibly long day. Almost been up basically 24hrs and cried so much and I have to go out on a long walk tomorrow

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 15h

Idk if I can sleep but I'm probably gonna attempt to go to bed early tonight cuz I'm just so exhausted and my pain is really bad and I've had an incredibly long day. Almost been up basically 24hrs and cried so much and I have to go out on a long walk tomorrow

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 15h

Hope I don't get deleted but at least I have a backup if I do. I just want people to block me and stop interacting with my shit already

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 15h

Ate under 1000cal today cuz I just feel too disgusted with my body and how much it gets sexualized and the thoughts won't leave my head so I just couldn't eat more than that.

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