Final answer. I was perfect for that job but that was not the perfect job for me. Current role isn't perfect either but pays more and has elements I like. I have to stop beating myself up about this.

We went to Christmas Eve worship this morning and intended to go back for the 5pm, but the girls didn't want to get dressed again, I was tired enough to give in. Now I feel guilty because the friend who gave my girls ice skating tickets (for today/why were so tired) did a reading. 😔

I have to decide "what's right for me" and have such a hard time knowing what that is. The easy thing, and smarter financially is to stay. Not to mention my friendships there and the projects in which I'm professionally and personally invested. But I looked for other opportunities for reasons.

I waffle and waiver and have to decide this week. I should have decided when I got the offer but had to let it play out. I am deeply valued in current role and fantastic at my job. But I'd me amazing in the other too

I applied to several jobs between those two events. Turned down one offer, declined to move forward on another. And now I have one in considering and have spoken to my current job about.

I started using Twitter as an online complaint hotline when I joined as a newlywed. Now I'm a still married mom of two, getting back into career life and trying to discern a work decision. I've been at my job just over two years, was not chosen for one promotion then given another

I also have stuff to make muddy buddies and toffee cracker candy.

On Xmas: ham, corn casserole, mashed potatoes, heat and serve rolls, heating dressing I made and froze at Thanksgiving, gravy.

Tomorrow: Watergate salad (with cherries to make it Xmas), deviled eggs and maybe the pumpkin pies.

What I made today: Chex mix, chocolate chip cookies, two kinds of fudge, candied pecans (terribly), bacon crackers, white velvet cutout cookies and peppermint chip cookies.