This Heart
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Mental health survivor, writing about the love of my life to express thoughts and feelings I have supressed for many years. I'm a deep thinker, an over-thinker. Autistic. Father. Animal Lover.
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Strong chance, I’ll see where my head lands on this one. Lots of factors to consider.
February 7, 2026 at 7:45 AM
Strong chance, I’ll see where my head lands on this one. Lots of factors to consider.
Yes, and I didn’t say I didn’t understand… 😏
February 7, 2026 at 7:44 AM
Yes, and I didn’t say I didn’t understand… 😏
Glad you got through that. I don’t have trouble with Ubers, but women I’m sure get lots more unwanted attention.
February 7, 2026 at 7:37 AM
Glad you got through that. I don’t have trouble with Ubers, but women I’m sure get lots more unwanted attention.
I’ve been thinking about moving back to Victoria for a while. My company says they wouldn’t have a problem with me relocating to the Melbourne office.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
February 7, 2026 at 7:34 AM
I’ve been thinking about moving back to Victoria for a while. My company says they wouldn’t have a problem with me relocating to the Melbourne office.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
She’s gotten off now, and I’m sad. It was a little smile in my day.
January 15, 2026 at 5:53 AM
She’s gotten off now, and I’m sad. It was a little smile in my day.
I’m on the way home on a train, and there’s a girl a few rows in front of me who looks so much like Maddie. She’s wearing sunglasses, but otherwise could be her twin.
Hard to see.
Hard to see.
January 15, 2026 at 5:40 AM
I’m on the way home on a train, and there’s a girl a few rows in front of me who looks so much like Maddie. She’s wearing sunglasses, but otherwise could be her twin.
Hard to see.
Hard to see.
Comfortable Places - https://this-heart.com/s/m3Myf0Qx #thisheart
Comfortable Places
Christmas 2025 has been an interesting vibe in my head.
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December 29, 2025 at 11:12 AM
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Struggling with the universe today. And I don’t like hot days. Moving home to Melbourne has its appeal.
December 4, 2025 at 11:46 PM
Struggling with the universe today. And I don’t like hot days. Moving home to Melbourne has its appeal.
Live Moment: Silent Heart - https://this-heart.com/s/NWsdhlr0 #thisheart
Live Moment: Silent Heart
It has been some weeks since I have written.
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December 3, 2025 at 11:52 AM
Live Moment: Silent Heart - https://this-heart.com/s/NWsdhlr0 #thisheart
Thank you, friend…and you’re right, she really is fabulous…
October 25, 2025 at 10:43 AM
Thank you, friend…and you’re right, she really is fabulous…
Oceans Truly Apart - https://this-heart.com/s/4TsJtrxs #thisheart
Oceans Truly Apart
I've spoken previously about how Richard Marx's Right Here Waiting is one of the two main songs in my heart for Maddie, and how I felt it related to us.
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October 25, 2025 at 10:32 AM
Oceans Truly Apart - https://this-heart.com/s/4TsJtrxs #thisheart
A Limerent Question - https://this-heart.com/s/zs3licGR #thisheart
A Limerent Question
It has been a little while since I have written, but I am in a place right now where I need to look inwards toward myself.
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September 27, 2025 at 12:12 PM
A Limerent Question - https://this-heart.com/s/zs3licGR #thisheart
Emotional Dilemma - https://this-heart.com/s/LfwRhm9H #thisheart
Emotional Dilemma
I've been wondering the last couple of weeks whether or not it would be a good idea to just take some time off work, jump on a plane to London and surprise Maddie for her birthday next month.
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August 29, 2025 at 11:22 AM
Emotional Dilemma - https://this-heart.com/s/LfwRhm9H #thisheart
Seriously considering taking some time off work to fly to London to visit Maddie for her birthday next month.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
August 21, 2025 at 1:41 PM
Seriously considering taking some time off work to fly to London to visit Maddie for her birthday next month.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
Live Moment: Those Blue Eyes - https://this-heart.com/s/D5gg7Awz #thisheart
Live Moment: Those Blue Eyes
As I write this live moment tonight, I'm starting to feel a little better about things.
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August 13, 2025 at 12:02 PM
Live Moment: Those Blue Eyes - https://this-heart.com/s/D5gg7Awz #thisheart
I’m in a really shitty space this morning. Deeply craving a little bit of intimacy. It’s all too hard at the moment.
August 5, 2025 at 9:28 PM
I’m in a really shitty space this morning. Deeply craving a little bit of intimacy. It’s all too hard at the moment.
Lost In Conversation - https://this-heart.com/s/N99av5Tn #thisheart
Lost In Conversation
It has just gone 8pm in Eastern Australia, and just past 11am in London.
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August 3, 2025 at 10:52 AM
Lost In Conversation - https://this-heart.com/s/N99av5Tn #thisheart
Moment In Time: The Trees Vibrated - https://this-heart.com/s/osvLkYDN #thisheart
Moment In Time: The Trees Vibrated
I posted some time ago about the two songs that mean the most to me when it comes to Maddie - two songs that touched me deeply in the times they were released, and related closely to how I felt about Maddie at the time.
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July 28, 2025 at 1:02 AM
Moment In Time: The Trees Vibrated - https://this-heart.com/s/osvLkYDN #thisheart
But I have made an appointment to see a psychologist. It's a new one, my previous one is no longer practicing, so I have anxiety that I need to learn a new person.
I just need to talk, and find a perspective.
I have two more years of this to get through.
I just need to talk, and find a perspective.
I have two more years of this to get through.
July 26, 2025 at 1:20 PM
But I have made an appointment to see a psychologist. It's a new one, my previous one is no longer practicing, so I have anxiety that I need to learn a new person.
I just need to talk, and find a perspective.
I have two more years of this to get through.
I just need to talk, and find a perspective.
I have two more years of this to get through.
I can't imagine how complicated it would be to move to the other side of the world. More intense than my anxiety would be able to deal with.
July 26, 2025 at 1:20 PM
I can't imagine how complicated it would be to move to the other side of the world. More intense than my anxiety would be able to deal with.
I am not doing great.
It's silly, because I'm not with Maddie, but now that she's so far away, and I can't just reach out to her, I've never felt so lonely.
We've not really communicated too much since she left, she's just super busy getting set up in London.
It's silly, because I'm not with Maddie, but now that she's so far away, and I can't just reach out to her, I've never felt so lonely.
We've not really communicated too much since she left, she's just super busy getting set up in London.
July 26, 2025 at 1:20 PM
I am not doing great.
It's silly, because I'm not with Maddie, but now that she's so far away, and I can't just reach out to her, I've never felt so lonely.
We've not really communicated too much since she left, she's just super busy getting set up in London.
It's silly, because I'm not with Maddie, but now that she's so far away, and I can't just reach out to her, I've never felt so lonely.
We've not really communicated too much since she left, she's just super busy getting set up in London.
Men and women just need to start giving each other a chance again.
And learn to be kind to each other…
And learn to be kind to each other…
July 17, 2025 at 12:52 PM
Men and women just need to start giving each other a chance again.
And learn to be kind to each other…
And learn to be kind to each other…
Men have given up because they just want to feel close to someone, and women have decided they are all bastards.
There any many bastards, but those of us who try to be good men get lumped in with those bastards, and we don’t stand a chance.
There any many bastards, but those of us who try to be good men get lumped in with those bastards, and we don’t stand a chance.
July 17, 2025 at 12:52 PM
Men have given up because they just want to feel close to someone, and women have decided they are all bastards.
There any many bastards, but those of us who try to be good men get lumped in with those bastards, and we don’t stand a chance.
There any many bastards, but those of us who try to be good men get lumped in with those bastards, and we don’t stand a chance.
Ladies - please try and give men some answers. They might act tough and like that don’t care.
Most of us do care, but most of those don’t want to seem weak.
It’s not a failure to let yourself feel. To let yourself cry.
But it hurts more when you don’t know why you’re crying.
Most of us do care, but most of those don’t want to seem weak.
It’s not a failure to let yourself feel. To let yourself cry.
But it hurts more when you don’t know why you’re crying.
July 17, 2025 at 12:52 PM
Ladies - please try and give men some answers. They might act tough and like that don’t care.
Most of us do care, but most of those don’t want to seem weak.
It’s not a failure to let yourself feel. To let yourself cry.
But it hurts more when you don’t know why you’re crying.
Most of us do care, but most of those don’t want to seem weak.
It’s not a failure to let yourself feel. To let yourself cry.
But it hurts more when you don’t know why you’re crying.