This Heart
@this-heart.com
Mental health survivor, writing about the love of my life to express thoughts and feelings I have supressed for many years. I'm a deep thinker, an over-thinker. Autistic. Father. Animal Lover.
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I’ve been thinking about moving back to Victoria for a while. My company says they wouldn’t have a problem with me relocating to the Melbourne office.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
February 7, 2026 at 7:34 AM
I’ve been thinking about moving back to Victoria for a while. My company says they wouldn’t have a problem with me relocating to the Melbourne office.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
I’m on the way home on a train, and there’s a girl a few rows in front of me who looks so much like Maddie. She’s wearing sunglasses, but otherwise could be her twin.
Hard to see.
Hard to see.
January 15, 2026 at 5:40 AM
I’m on the way home on a train, and there’s a girl a few rows in front of me who looks so much like Maddie. She’s wearing sunglasses, but otherwise could be her twin.
Hard to see.
Hard to see.
Comfortable Places - https://this-heart.com/s/m3Myf0Qx #thisheart
Comfortable Places
Christmas 2025 has been an interesting vibe in my head.
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December 29, 2025 at 11:12 AM
Comfortable Places - https://this-heart.com/s/m3Myf0Qx #thisheart
Struggling with the universe today. And I don’t like hot days. Moving home to Melbourne has its appeal.
December 4, 2025 at 11:46 PM
Struggling with the universe today. And I don’t like hot days. Moving home to Melbourne has its appeal.
Live Moment: Silent Heart - https://this-heart.com/s/NWsdhlr0 #thisheart
Live Moment: Silent Heart
It has been some weeks since I have written.
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December 3, 2025 at 11:52 AM
Live Moment: Silent Heart - https://this-heart.com/s/NWsdhlr0 #thisheart
Oceans Truly Apart - https://this-heart.com/s/4TsJtrxs #thisheart
Oceans Truly Apart
I've spoken previously about how Richard Marx's Right Here Waiting is one of the two main songs in my heart for Maddie, and how I felt it related to us.
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October 25, 2025 at 10:32 AM
Oceans Truly Apart - https://this-heart.com/s/4TsJtrxs #thisheart
A Limerent Question - https://this-heart.com/s/zs3licGR #thisheart
A Limerent Question
It has been a little while since I have written, but I am in a place right now where I need to look inwards toward myself.
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September 27, 2025 at 12:12 PM
A Limerent Question - https://this-heart.com/s/zs3licGR #thisheart
Emotional Dilemma - https://this-heart.com/s/LfwRhm9H #thisheart
Emotional Dilemma
I've been wondering the last couple of weeks whether or not it would be a good idea to just take some time off work, jump on a plane to London and surprise Maddie for her birthday next month.
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August 29, 2025 at 11:22 AM
Emotional Dilemma - https://this-heart.com/s/LfwRhm9H #thisheart
Seriously considering taking some time off work to fly to London to visit Maddie for her birthday next month.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
August 21, 2025 at 1:41 PM
Seriously considering taking some time off work to fly to London to visit Maddie for her birthday next month.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
Live Moment: Those Blue Eyes - https://this-heart.com/s/D5gg7Awz #thisheart
Live Moment: Those Blue Eyes
As I write this live moment tonight, I'm starting to feel a little better about things.
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August 13, 2025 at 12:02 PM
Live Moment: Those Blue Eyes - https://this-heart.com/s/D5gg7Awz #thisheart
I’m in a really shitty space this morning. Deeply craving a little bit of intimacy. It’s all too hard at the moment.
August 5, 2025 at 9:28 PM
I’m in a really shitty space this morning. Deeply craving a little bit of intimacy. It’s all too hard at the moment.
Lost In Conversation - https://this-heart.com/s/N99av5Tn #thisheart
Lost In Conversation
It has just gone 8pm in Eastern Australia, and just past 11am in London.
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August 3, 2025 at 10:52 AM
Lost In Conversation - https://this-heart.com/s/N99av5Tn #thisheart
Moment In Time: The Trees Vibrated - https://this-heart.com/s/osvLkYDN #thisheart
Moment In Time: The Trees Vibrated
I posted some time ago about the two songs that mean the most to me when it comes to Maddie - two songs that touched me deeply in the times they were released, and related closely to how I felt about Maddie at the time.
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July 28, 2025 at 1:02 AM
Moment In Time: The Trees Vibrated - https://this-heart.com/s/osvLkYDN #thisheart
I am not doing great.
It's silly, because I'm not with Maddie, but now that she's so far away, and I can't just reach out to her, I've never felt so lonely.
We've not really communicated too much since she left, she's just super busy getting set up in London.
It's silly, because I'm not with Maddie, but now that she's so far away, and I can't just reach out to her, I've never felt so lonely.
We've not really communicated too much since she left, she's just super busy getting set up in London.
July 26, 2025 at 1:20 PM
I am not doing great.
It's silly, because I'm not with Maddie, but now that she's so far away, and I can't just reach out to her, I've never felt so lonely.
We've not really communicated too much since she left, she's just super busy getting set up in London.
It's silly, because I'm not with Maddie, but now that she's so far away, and I can't just reach out to her, I've never felt so lonely.
We've not really communicated too much since she left, she's just super busy getting set up in London.
I’m finding it so hard to be alone at the moment. Yes, I have my son with me most of the time.
I adore him, and love his company. He is so funny and so smart that he does make me smile so hard.
You can love your kids as much as is possible, but there’s a kind of company they just can’t give…
I adore him, and love his company. He is so funny and so smart that he does make me smile so hard.
You can love your kids as much as is possible, but there’s a kind of company they just can’t give…
July 17, 2025 at 12:46 PM
I’m finding it so hard to be alone at the moment. Yes, I have my son with me most of the time.
I adore him, and love his company. He is so funny and so smart that he does make me smile so hard.
You can love your kids as much as is possible, but there’s a kind of company they just can’t give…
I adore him, and love his company. He is so funny and so smart that he does make me smile so hard.
You can love your kids as much as is possible, but there’s a kind of company they just can’t give…
I just dropped Maddie at the airport for her secondment to London. I’m totally broken.
July 12, 2025 at 7:07 AM
I just dropped Maddie at the airport for her secondment to London. I’m totally broken.
Moment In Time: We Danced - https://this-heart.com/s/DoTBNK0y #thisheart
Moment In Time: We Danced
I'm ready to start a new category - given the main story I have told on this site has now reached the present day, this is me going back and filling in little moments in time between Maddie and myself.
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June 11, 2025 at 1:42 PM
Moment In Time: We Danced - https://this-heart.com/s/DoTBNK0y #thisheart
The cold weather while I was in Melbourne for work has really made my ankle ache. The joys of recovering from bone breaks. At least I am off the crutches, and just in a boot.
June 1, 2025 at 9:02 PM
The cold weather while I was in Melbourne for work has really made my ankle ache. The joys of recovering from bone breaks. At least I am off the crutches, and just in a boot.
Live Moment: Deep Loneliness - https://this-heart.com/s/dF90Zz0P #thisheart
Live Moment: Deep Loneliness
Maddie and I have continued talking quite a lot recently.
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May 28, 2025 at 1:52 PM
Live Moment: Deep Loneliness - https://this-heart.com/s/dF90Zz0P #thisheart
I’m really struggling tonight, and I’m writing a “Live Moment”. Publishing soon.
May 28, 2025 at 12:55 PM
I’m really struggling tonight, and I’m writing a “Live Moment”. Publishing soon.
Live Moment: Calm Confusion - https://this-heart.com/s/B5roPqlI #thisheart
Live Moment: Calm Confusion
I've been trying to write again for some time, but it has been difficult.
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May 15, 2025 at 1:12 PM
Live Moment: Calm Confusion - https://this-heart.com/s/B5roPqlI #thisheart
Seem to have lost my voice, so having a quiet night at home.
I haven’t written in a while, and I can feel words coming. Going to have dinner and a shower and try and do some.
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I haven’t written in a while, and I can feel words coming. Going to have dinner and a shower and try and do some.
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May 10, 2025 at 9:30 AM
Seem to have lost my voice, so having a quiet night at home.
I haven’t written in a while, and I can feel words coming. Going to have dinner and a shower and try and do some.
#thisheart
I haven’t written in a while, and I can feel words coming. Going to have dinner and a shower and try and do some.
#thisheart
So hard to read Maddie at the moment. Our interactions of late feel a lot more personal than they have in months…
May 5, 2025 at 2:38 AM
So hard to read Maddie at the moment. Our interactions of late feel a lot more personal than they have in months…