Because I have a shitty af memory and no emotional, object or even person permanence at all. And also as time goes on I just feel more and more incapable of understanding things and keeping up with subjects and conversations.

unfortunately probably, not legally binding note in my phone abt what I would like to happen in the event of my death including who gets my possessions, access to my accounts and who "gets" to plan my funeral and what happens to my remains. You know, the "good" stuff.

So "edgy" to use all those "or sth, I guess, etc" am I trying to pretend to be chill? Act like idc? No, it's just to show that there's no REAL concern...
Nope, it's cringe if you do and cringe if you don't.
Fuck me, I GUESS

If I, get hit by a car or sth bc I wasn't paying attention outside or 💀ms or wtvr I'll leave a link to this account I guess.

Just feels like I'm fundamentally bad at caring or selfish or both or idk what atp.

Currently on the 3rd type I've tried. I'm "doing everything right and properly". Why am I like this? And then I never have the words to describe what's wrong when it's time to do so. So I just say I'm ok, I'm just sort of dissatisfied w therapy or meds or wtvr...