need to fix my life so i can run away again

also feel kinda funky bc i feel as if i am. simply too Known and Perceived on twt where it’s hard for me to share my earnest thoughts there anymore, and my drafts keep piling up but not lending me the same satisfaction that it used to

someone mentioned bluesky again so here i am

ahhhh it returns. the thing i need to go to therapy for returns. the wound that smarts every time i see mention of her with her new person. wtf wtf wtf

i know that i ‘should’ be happy for her and realistically i could never go back (nor do i desire to) but seeing her so in love with someone else causes an ache to resurface that i’m all too familiar with

yuri train

dunno what or how to feel, oscillating between empathy and apathy, i’d like to sleep forever

*taps mic* is this thing on