A System of Unfortunate Events
@andiedeclyn.bsky.social
He/They/It
Queer AF
27
System of 30+
18+ Minors DNI - Antis DNI
Multishipper
Queer AF
27
System of 30+
18+ Minors DNI - Antis DNI
Multishipper
Pinned
"i just think he's neat," i say, gesturing wildly to an emotionally unstable and heavily traumatized fictional man
took a migraine pill and then laid down to take a short nap.
four hours later i have awoken. unbalanced, dehydrated, and sweating profusely.
i still have the twinge of a migraine.
four hours later i have awoken. unbalanced, dehydrated, and sweating profusely.
i still have the twinge of a migraine.
February 3, 2026 at 5:30 AM
took a migraine pill and then laid down to take a short nap.
four hours later i have awoken. unbalanced, dehydrated, and sweating profusely.
i still have the twinge of a migraine.
four hours later i have awoken. unbalanced, dehydrated, and sweating profusely.
i still have the twinge of a migraine.
i know the character is bad in canon. he's a dick. he's reactive and aggressive and a bully.
i also know that i don't give a fuck about canon. never have, never will.
the only thing canon has ever given me is a framework on which i can imagine a new story.
a sadder, gayer, happier story.
i also know that i don't give a fuck about canon. never have, never will.
the only thing canon has ever given me is a framework on which i can imagine a new story.
a sadder, gayer, happier story.
February 2, 2026 at 5:15 PM
i know the character is bad in canon. he's a dick. he's reactive and aggressive and a bully.
i also know that i don't give a fuck about canon. never have, never will.
the only thing canon has ever given me is a framework on which i can imagine a new story.
a sadder, gayer, happier story.
i also know that i don't give a fuck about canon. never have, never will.
the only thing canon has ever given me is a framework on which i can imagine a new story.
a sadder, gayer, happier story.
i haven't talked to anyone that i would call a friend in over two years. i have been a live in carer for my grandfather who i hate for almost two years. my most extensive conversation with someone was a five minute conversation with a gas station clerk who i see every week.
i'm so fucking tired.
i'm so fucking tired.
January 25, 2026 at 8:32 AM
i haven't talked to anyone that i would call a friend in over two years. i have been a live in carer for my grandfather who i hate for almost two years. my most extensive conversation with someone was a five minute conversation with a gas station clerk who i see every week.
i'm so fucking tired.
i'm so fucking tired.
can't wait to go to therapy tomorrow and tell Sabrina that apparently it can get worse than being obsessed with Steddie.
unfortunate that i'm going to have to explain what Harringrove is tho.
unfortunate that i'm going to have to explain what Harringrove is tho.
January 23, 2026 at 2:18 AM
can't wait to go to therapy tomorrow and tell Sabrina that apparently it can get worse than being obsessed with Steddie.
unfortunate that i'm going to have to explain what Harringrove is tho.
unfortunate that i'm going to have to explain what Harringrove is tho.
'i just think he's neat'
i say about steve harrington, who was an asshole in hs, but ended up being a frantic and worried mother of 7 in like a year, and who only had any sort of romantic/sexual tension with the two men that ended up dying to protect him and his 7 children. :)
just... so neat.
i say about steve harrington, who was an asshole in hs, but ended up being a frantic and worried mother of 7 in like a year, and who only had any sort of romantic/sexual tension with the two men that ended up dying to protect him and his 7 children. :)
just... so neat.
January 19, 2026 at 2:33 AM
'i just think he's neat'
i say about steve harrington, who was an asshole in hs, but ended up being a frantic and worried mother of 7 in like a year, and who only had any sort of romantic/sexual tension with the two men that ended up dying to protect him and his 7 children. :)
just... so neat.
i say about steve harrington, who was an asshole in hs, but ended up being a frantic and worried mother of 7 in like a year, and who only had any sort of romantic/sexual tension with the two men that ended up dying to protect him and his 7 children. :)
just... so neat.
i just want to go to sleep.
but instead i am chain smoking cigarettes in an attempt to get the lingering panic attack that is gnawing at my bones to go away. or to get it to actually, ya know, happen so i can feel something other than impending doom.
but instead i am chain smoking cigarettes in an attempt to get the lingering panic attack that is gnawing at my bones to go away. or to get it to actually, ya know, happen so i can feel something other than impending doom.
January 10, 2026 at 11:24 AM
i just want to go to sleep.
but instead i am chain smoking cigarettes in an attempt to get the lingering panic attack that is gnawing at my bones to go away. or to get it to actually, ya know, happen so i can feel something other than impending doom.
but instead i am chain smoking cigarettes in an attempt to get the lingering panic attack that is gnawing at my bones to go away. or to get it to actually, ya know, happen so i can feel something other than impending doom.
it's 2026.
i've killed my cringe. i will keep doing the shit people have called me cringy for since hs, and i will do it happily.
if i don't like a persons vibes, i immediately block them. i'm too tired to deal with bad vibes. get out.
i'm done saying i'm sorry for being angry. i'm not. i never was.
i've killed my cringe. i will keep doing the shit people have called me cringy for since hs, and i will do it happily.
if i don't like a persons vibes, i immediately block them. i'm too tired to deal with bad vibes. get out.
i'm done saying i'm sorry for being angry. i'm not. i never was.
January 6, 2026 at 10:42 PM
it's 2026.
i've killed my cringe. i will keep doing the shit people have called me cringy for since hs, and i will do it happily.
if i don't like a persons vibes, i immediately block them. i'm too tired to deal with bad vibes. get out.
i'm done saying i'm sorry for being angry. i'm not. i never was.
i've killed my cringe. i will keep doing the shit people have called me cringy for since hs, and i will do it happily.
if i don't like a persons vibes, i immediately block them. i'm too tired to deal with bad vibes. get out.
i'm done saying i'm sorry for being angry. i'm not. i never was.
"i just think he's neat," i say, gesturing wildly to an emotionally unstable and heavily traumatized fictional man
January 2, 2026 at 7:42 AM
"i just think he's neat," i say, gesturing wildly to an emotionally unstable and heavily traumatized fictional man
i would love to write the fanfic that has been running through my brain for days.
but then i start to write and all the words are gone or wrong or not flowing in the right order.
which, fine. i've had writers block before.
but then i change tabs and the words are back.
like. fucking hell brain.
but then i start to write and all the words are gone or wrong or not flowing in the right order.
which, fine. i've had writers block before.
but then i change tabs and the words are back.
like. fucking hell brain.
January 1, 2026 at 12:50 AM
i would love to write the fanfic that has been running through my brain for days.
but then i start to write and all the words are gone or wrong or not flowing in the right order.
which, fine. i've had writers block before.
but then i change tabs and the words are back.
like. fucking hell brain.
but then i start to write and all the words are gone or wrong or not flowing in the right order.
which, fine. i've had writers block before.
but then i change tabs and the words are back.
like. fucking hell brain.
it does feel a little sad to get into a fandom years after it was at its highest.
but on the other hand...
the fanfiction is already written.
but on the other hand...
the fanfiction is already written.
December 30, 2025 at 10:25 PM
it does feel a little sad to get into a fandom years after it was at its highest.
but on the other hand...
the fanfiction is already written.
but on the other hand...
the fanfiction is already written.
one would think that i would be used to disappointment by now.
but alas. i keep allowing myself to focus on the possible positives, and then i am surprised when i get hit with the chair.
but alas. i keep allowing myself to focus on the possible positives, and then i am surprised when i get hit with the chair.
December 27, 2025 at 8:37 AM
one would think that i would be used to disappointment by now.
but alas. i keep allowing myself to focus on the possible positives, and then i am surprised when i get hit with the chair.
but alas. i keep allowing myself to focus on the possible positives, and then i am surprised when i get hit with the chair.
Happy Crisis all.
I shall be spending the day hiding in my room, reading WinterIron fanfic and ignoring my family.
Truly a wonderful day.
Hope yours is just as magical. ^-^
I shall be spending the day hiding in my room, reading WinterIron fanfic and ignoring my family.
Truly a wonderful day.
Hope yours is just as magical. ^-^
December 25, 2025 at 6:36 PM
Happy Crisis all.
I shall be spending the day hiding in my room, reading WinterIron fanfic and ignoring my family.
Truly a wonderful day.
Hope yours is just as magical. ^-^
I shall be spending the day hiding in my room, reading WinterIron fanfic and ignoring my family.
Truly a wonderful day.
Hope yours is just as magical. ^-^
can't say how pleased it makes me that my therapist thought when i walked in yesterday that the fuckery that was my facial injuries were not in fact real and were in fact very convincing makeup.
bc she knows me so well. and i would show up to therapy with very convincing fake injuries.
bc she knows me so well. and i would show up to therapy with very convincing fake injuries.
December 21, 2025 at 8:43 AM
can't say how pleased it makes me that my therapist thought when i walked in yesterday that the fuckery that was my facial injuries were not in fact real and were in fact very convincing makeup.
bc she knows me so well. and i would show up to therapy with very convincing fake injuries.
bc she knows me so well. and i would show up to therapy with very convincing fake injuries.
i fell face first down a hill and into a tree today.
so i am in a bit of pain.
pretty sure i didn't break my nose.
but i deffo have a concussion.
yayyyy
so i am in a bit of pain.
pretty sure i didn't break my nose.
but i deffo have a concussion.
yayyyy
December 20, 2025 at 3:15 AM
i fell face first down a hill and into a tree today.
so i am in a bit of pain.
pretty sure i didn't break my nose.
but i deffo have a concussion.
yayyyy
so i am in a bit of pain.
pretty sure i didn't break my nose.
but i deffo have a concussion.
yayyyy
i'm having thoughts.
and very few of them are captain america friendly.
and very few of them are captain america friendly.
December 19, 2025 at 2:16 AM
i'm having thoughts.
and very few of them are captain america friendly.
and very few of them are captain america friendly.
i just wanna read an unstable amount of fluff and fix it's, because i am sad
however... if i read the hurt/comforts i get to feel the sad harder and then get rewarded with the fluff and fix it and it makes things better for approximately 2 minutes
however... if i read the hurt/comforts i get to feel the sad harder and then get rewarded with the fluff and fix it and it makes things better for approximately 2 minutes
December 16, 2025 at 9:41 AM
i just wanna read an unstable amount of fluff and fix it's, because i am sad
however... if i read the hurt/comforts i get to feel the sad harder and then get rewarded with the fluff and fix it and it makes things better for approximately 2 minutes
however... if i read the hurt/comforts i get to feel the sad harder and then get rewarded with the fluff and fix it and it makes things better for approximately 2 minutes
we have only slept 2-4 hours every day for the last week.
which is not the worst insomnia we've dealt with.
but is proving to be somehow worse.
sleep deprivation with benefits. in that we have slept just enough to be mostly functional. but not enough to not have a breakdown nearly every day.
which is not the worst insomnia we've dealt with.
but is proving to be somehow worse.
sleep deprivation with benefits. in that we have slept just enough to be mostly functional. but not enough to not have a breakdown nearly every day.
December 13, 2025 at 8:56 AM
we have only slept 2-4 hours every day for the last week.
which is not the worst insomnia we've dealt with.
but is proving to be somehow worse.
sleep deprivation with benefits. in that we have slept just enough to be mostly functional. but not enough to not have a breakdown nearly every day.
which is not the worst insomnia we've dealt with.
but is proving to be somehow worse.
sleep deprivation with benefits. in that we have slept just enough to be mostly functional. but not enough to not have a breakdown nearly every day.
btw i wrote a thing yesterday.
a little winteriron song fic that took an hour to write because my mind was buzzing with it.
just in case ya wanna check it out. ^-^
archiveofourown.org/works/75591441
a little winteriron song fic that took an hour to write because my mind was buzzing with it.
just in case ya wanna check it out. ^-^
archiveofourown.org/works/75591441
archiveofourown.org
December 13, 2025 at 6:01 AM
btw i wrote a thing yesterday.
a little winteriron song fic that took an hour to write because my mind was buzzing with it.
just in case ya wanna check it out. ^-^
archiveofourown.org/works/75591441
a little winteriron song fic that took an hour to write because my mind was buzzing with it.
just in case ya wanna check it out. ^-^
archiveofourown.org/works/75591441
don't worry. the innocent person is no longer the target. the anger has, with very little difficulty, and much familiarity, jumped back to the person that truly did piss us off.
all i did was do all of those, and then take a two hour nap.
oh, and have to speak to the fucker who started it up.
all i did was do all of those, and then take a two hour nap.
oh, and have to speak to the fucker who started it up.
me, more often than i would like: "why am i so unreasonably angry at this person. my rage does not make sense and that is making things much worse. gahhhhh."
babes. you have bpd.
drink some water. smoke a cigarette. read a fanfic.
you dumb bitch.
babes. you have bpd.
drink some water. smoke a cigarette. read a fanfic.
you dumb bitch.
December 12, 2025 at 3:02 PM
don't worry. the innocent person is no longer the target. the anger has, with very little difficulty, and much familiarity, jumped back to the person that truly did piss us off.
all i did was do all of those, and then take a two hour nap.
oh, and have to speak to the fucker who started it up.
all i did was do all of those, and then take a two hour nap.
oh, and have to speak to the fucker who started it up.
me, more often than i would like: "why am i so unreasonably angry at this person. my rage does not make sense and that is making things much worse. gahhhhh."
babes. you have bpd.
drink some water. smoke a cigarette. read a fanfic.
you dumb bitch.
babes. you have bpd.
drink some water. smoke a cigarette. read a fanfic.
you dumb bitch.
December 12, 2025 at 10:46 AM
me, more often than i would like: "why am i so unreasonably angry at this person. my rage does not make sense and that is making things much worse. gahhhhh."
babes. you have bpd.
drink some water. smoke a cigarette. read a fanfic.
you dumb bitch.
babes. you have bpd.
drink some water. smoke a cigarette. read a fanfic.
you dumb bitch.
having fictives is kinda like grieving all the time for something that never actually existed but was real all the same.
December 11, 2025 at 3:12 PM
having fictives is kinda like grieving all the time for something that never actually existed but was real all the same.
okay but hear me out.
what if my comorbid mental health disorders...
stopped being comorbid...
and i could have a single fucking second of peace.
what if my comorbid mental health disorders...
stopped being comorbid...
and i could have a single fucking second of peace.
December 10, 2025 at 12:37 PM
okay but hear me out.
what if my comorbid mental health disorders...
stopped being comorbid...
and i could have a single fucking second of peace.
what if my comorbid mental health disorders...
stopped being comorbid...
and i could have a single fucking second of peace.
having DID is always a trip. like.
what do you mean one of us wants to learn Russian, or study physics, or learn how to throw knives, or get into a fistfight, or get into a fistfight, or get into a fistfight.
tbh, it's getting kinda hard to veto the fistfight. too many of us would love to do it.
what do you mean one of us wants to learn Russian, or study physics, or learn how to throw knives, or get into a fistfight, or get into a fistfight, or get into a fistfight.
tbh, it's getting kinda hard to veto the fistfight. too many of us would love to do it.
December 10, 2025 at 10:27 AM
having DID is always a trip. like.
what do you mean one of us wants to learn Russian, or study physics, or learn how to throw knives, or get into a fistfight, or get into a fistfight, or get into a fistfight.
tbh, it's getting kinda hard to veto the fistfight. too many of us would love to do it.
what do you mean one of us wants to learn Russian, or study physics, or learn how to throw knives, or get into a fistfight, or get into a fistfight, or get into a fistfight.
tbh, it's getting kinda hard to veto the fistfight. too many of us would love to do it.
everytime i see someone apologize in the notes of their fic for it being "ooc" or "ignoring canon" (after tagging it as such)
babes, lemme hold your hands.
fanfic isn't canon. you don't gotta apologize. i don't want it to be canon. i clicked on this soft-fluff-fix-it because the canon made me mad.
babes, lemme hold your hands.
fanfic isn't canon. you don't gotta apologize. i don't want it to be canon. i clicked on this soft-fluff-fix-it because the canon made me mad.
December 9, 2025 at 4:32 AM
everytime i see someone apologize in the notes of their fic for it being "ooc" or "ignoring canon" (after tagging it as such)
babes, lemme hold your hands.
fanfic isn't canon. you don't gotta apologize. i don't want it to be canon. i clicked on this soft-fluff-fix-it because the canon made me mad.
babes, lemme hold your hands.
fanfic isn't canon. you don't gotta apologize. i don't want it to be canon. i clicked on this soft-fluff-fix-it because the canon made me mad.
seeing people talk about learning the Bucky walk as a strut.
i taught myself that strut as a teenager so that people would get the fuck out of my way. i taught myself that walk as a teenager because it made me feel hella masc and made me feel like i passed better.
i still do that walk.
i taught myself that strut as a teenager so that people would get the fuck out of my way. i taught myself that walk as a teenager because it made me feel hella masc and made me feel like i passed better.
i still do that walk.
December 6, 2025 at 2:09 AM
seeing people talk about learning the Bucky walk as a strut.
i taught myself that strut as a teenager so that people would get the fuck out of my way. i taught myself that walk as a teenager because it made me feel hella masc and made me feel like i passed better.
i still do that walk.
i taught myself that strut as a teenager so that people would get the fuck out of my way. i taught myself that walk as a teenager because it made me feel hella masc and made me feel like i passed better.
i still do that walk.