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Ashmallo
@ashleysghost.bsky.social
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"giggle" I am so naughty. The flesh demnds invitation. :P
Lv: 42
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ADHD but also the most shy person u will ever meet
BRAttY when I'm comfy with u
Makes art sometimes, but also just vents frustrations and writes pretentious erotica.
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February 14, 2026 at 3:48 AM
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What the ceiling sees when I lay in the bathtub. 😭😭😭
February 14, 2026 at 1:29 AM
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I never want to get to the point where I've lost enough that I behave like some kind of priveliged little shit who has nothing to lose. That's not me.
I've lost a lot over the years, but I'm never gonna believe it's an excuse to make someone else lose, too. Sorry. Melodrama. Have this.
February 13, 2026 at 7:52 PM
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Power, and money. Made up concepts from balding men who had repulsive souls, and not even an ounce of magic to their step.
We were raised with the hope we wouldn't struggle, taught to keep moving forward, to not fear mistakes- but to accept them, and allowed to question things. The control over the masses has been breaking down since the 90's and the attempts to keep us down like they used to are beginning to fall apart, now. We're not weakening, we've only been getting stronger, and it's laughable how pathetic these people are who try to control us. And all for what? So we can give them money? Some status? Are we to just continue to let leaders or the wealthy tell us we don't know ourselves or others well enough to actually self-govern in a meaningful way? Every time anyone starts to break out, you can guarantee, they're going to suddenly have their lives broken apart at the seams and they're gonna need to come running back to the system to play the game a little longer.
February 12, 2026 at 2:57 AM
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Anxiety makes it so that you can't bear to sit still and can't bear to do anything. It's magical, in a way.
February 11, 2026 at 7:17 PM
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Mooes
February 11, 2026 at 6:14 AM
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My emotional fuse blew up a long time ago. I'm capable of being sad, of being angry, but I'm incapable of explosions or implosions, lately. Just a lot of feelings.
mANY feelings!
#ventart #traditionalart #drawings #artistsofbluesky #ink
February 10, 2026 at 12:57 AM
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Someday, I'll be able to afford this life of mine. But for now. I think I have a tumor in my jaw, I'm struggling in ways that break my heart because it breaks my pride, and I feel like I'm not included in the phrase "everyone deserves to live a happy life." So I'm flying blind. Hoping for home.
This book fascinated me when I was young. Other kids read about fables of bears and foxes- I was wrapped up in tales of bats and ravens.
February 7, 2026 at 5:57 AM
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So..... yeeesty....
February 6, 2026 at 5:51 PM
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I don't want just "anyone" tho, I'm not that much of a hO, I mean I used to be- but then I met someone who used to make light flirts with me, and I realized how much I wanted them to want me. It felt gross when some random guy or girl talked about getting me alone...
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#venting
But when my person talked about spending time with me alone, it made my heart race, like my nerves had given out, I couldn't even believe someone I liked wanted to spend time with me at all. Saying "yes" to our plans felt like I was the series, spiciness rebel around. And yet, I still felt like I was a dog who had to sit still while the owner held my favorite treat before my eyes. I'd have been happy just walking around a park with them, I'd be ecstatic if we fell asleep watching a movie waiting for the kids to get home, baking something in the kitchen together, my wettest dream, honestly... ...I can tell all this to strangers on an app. But I can't even bear to tell someone I don't want to imagine life without: "yes, I want you to want me, I need you to want me. I'm all yours, every last inch of me, inside and out."
February 5, 2026 at 8:06 PM
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Instead of sleeping I was up late, doing my second favorite thing to do with pens. -_- #workinprogess
The only thing holding me back from doing what I want to do, is that I know they'd need biohazard crews to clean up my remains. Adam and Eve, religious gaslighting at its finest. God put them in a garden, he WANTED them to stay but then he set up a plan for them to leave by tricking them into making a mistake he still intended to fully punish them for. (Actual stuff I've heard on Adam and eves mistake: women have to suffer periods because eve tempted aduam, women are "woe" unto men- because they were the ones who tricked adam into eating the apple, snakes used to look like lizards but God removed their legs for being evil, we have to work day jobs because of what happened in eden, adam fell that men might be- men are that they might have joy. Kills me that when they're talking about the garden of eden, when it's a mistake, it's eves fault, when it turned out good, it was adumb who made it so.) Never, since the relationship between fluttershy and rainbow dash have adults debated the relationship status, actions, and lives of two fictional beings.
February 5, 2026 at 5:43 PM
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Skipped naps all day, felt yawns setting in at dusk.
And now it's almost 1am and I'm not sleepy yet.
Anyways, #witchhouse40k yal.
February 5, 2026 at 7:45 AM
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Beginnings.
February 4, 2026 at 7:40 PM
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I've heard the word "AI" so much in the last year that I'm just done with it, and I haven't even used it, myself.
February 4, 2026 at 5:38 AM
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"Discard this comment?"
"Delete this reply?"
"Delete draft?"
"Discard this message?"
Always yes, even though deep down, the answer is no. And my heart still breaks every time.
#sad #depression #loss #lonely #mlp #edgy #drawings
February 4, 2026 at 4:18 AM
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I don't care if it greasy
I want to have sanwich
I want a perfect grilled
I want a perfect cheese
:3
#grilledcheese #munchies #meme #mice #artists #drawingtime #poem #depression
Ethel Cain inspired this one, tbh.
February 3, 2026 at 9:07 PM
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The past, the present, and the future. I feel like drawing today.
#sketching #drawing #doodle #ventart
February 3, 2026 at 5:32 PM
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Fiddling with filters because I just cannot seem to sleep at night.
I'm missing a drawing I wanted to do, and it's bothering me.
#drawings #artist #filters #doodles #workinprogress
February 3, 2026 at 7:18 AM
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"Church isn't a museum for the perfect, it's a hospital for the broken" considering how most Christian nationalists who go to these "hospitals" are antivaxxers, it makes me kind of laugh a little when I realize they're not looking to get better, they're just looking to not be viewed as sick.
I love my little pink hair tie. :3 it cheers me up on bad days.
February 1, 2026 at 7:32 PM
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Just existing is enough.
I'll say, I'm having a Hell of a time trying to just continue existing.
#drawings #artists #aliens #ufo #mask
January 28, 2026 at 4:56 AM
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Some new OCs incoming? Or are they best marketed to the masses as adoptables? Either way, they're still under construction, and the filter is so I can tease you with possibilities like the brat I am.
#adoptable #wip #originalcharacter #snapchat #filter #depression
Also I might be shadowbanned lol
January 20, 2026 at 8:13 AM
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Ah, yes. The classic artist problem where you hoard your craft supplies, but don't use them. -_- I think it's time to change that.
January 17, 2026 at 5:33 AM
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I just hope I never lose the love I still have for this life Never let myself get so bitter, or sad that I stop believing this is a beautiful world.
I never finished this painting.
[I never finished anything]
#chibi #red #artist #amateur
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January 17, 2026 at 4:16 AM
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I'm tired.
#photography #streetphotography #fog #winter #depression
January 15, 2026 at 5:35 AM
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Sometimes, I just don't know how to finish a drawing. Adding inks gives it a clean, crisp, look- almost like I knew what I was doing from the beginning. And that sense of power gives me a high. But keeping it scrappy and sketchy gives it an underlying tone of emotion you can't really replicate.
Its important for me to not: be perceived as "needy" like I genuinely don't want people to look at me as someone who needs constant guidance. But then, every day, I battle with emotions that have me begging God: "won't you please just tell me what to do, so I can do it, already!?" It's also important for me to not be perceived by others as too headstrong. Most days, I don't know what I'm doing, I don't want to mislead anyone, and I don't want people to hate me for it. It's a real pain in the patella! I don't want to be seen as needy, but I do often need help, and I don't want people to look up to me- because I do absolutely dread to let someone down with every fiber of my being. If someone trusts me, I should live up to it, not lower the bar so I can be more comfortable.
January 14, 2026 at 3:56 AM