brutalist lolita would go SO unimaginably hard (said no one ever in history until now) (now it is said by me)

And i managed to get out 9 drawings. :]

It took 2 hours.

But now i don't even know if i have it. I know I'm dysfunctional but i don't understand why I resonate with others who DO have it and were so clearly diagnosed but when I go to see a specialist they seem unconvinced.

It leaves me feeling lost.

I just wish I knew why I can't make myself be better then.

I'm trying. I really am. Is it normal then to feel the way i feel?

Then I realized, oh. I have RBF don't I? She probably thought I was upset when I was staring into space.

It could also be that she thinks 3rd wheeling someone and them occupying themselves while it happens is them displaying jealousy.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯