10. Summing up I decided that it is time for me to continue moving in a new direction, and devote more time to my main job and family. I need to accept myself and give myself the opportunity to do what I'm good at progress. Thank you all for being with me for so long! I love you all!

9. Several times I went through burnout and depression episodes cause I wanted to continue my contribution to the ABDL furry community and wanted to earn money by drawing, but many days of work, which, became more difficult every day despite the gained experience, that all have exhausted me.

8. But nevermind. Drawing without getting attention is hardly demotivating, especially when someone posts simple doodles and gets thousands of likes, and especially when it's your job.

7. I also noticed that I'm being in something shadow-ban-like on all the platforms where I am, apparently seems because of my nationality or the visibility of my location on social networks, or perhaps because someone could have report about me if I didn't know about it.

6. I'm not ready to sit for weeks for a dubious result, especially considering it's taking a toll on my job and family time.

5. Now I have more work in other fields, which brings in a lot more money, spending a lot less time. I thought about continuing my activity, sometimes publishing drawings as a hobby, but again it comes down to the complexity of the style.

4. And yes, I have received commissions worth $300, $500, and even more than $1000, but I myself feel embarrassed in front of my commissioners that my work began to take an awful lot of time. I don't want to torment them with waiting so long.

3. In my first year of university I could earn $30-40 by drawing 1 piece a night and satisfy a lot of my needs, then now I sometimes have to spend several weeks or even months to earn sometimes less than $100 from one commission.

2. This situation leads to another problem. I have to sacrifice either a lot of time to complete one commission, or cut the price. I even managed to acquire some minor health problems due to the fact that I have been sitting and drawing for too long

1. The first thing, I experience learning difficulties due to some autistic features of my psyche, so sometimes it's extremely difficult for me and almost completely ineffective to develop and progress in the current style, and despite my efforts I've reached the ceiling

Shfoofy

It’s too spoopy 4 me