There's also like... the idea of having a place separated from my Vtubing antics and being just a lot more realistic and raw, but like. I know I'd be tempted to try and show people the vtubing stuff too, cause it's where a lot of my actual creativity goes into now.

So I dunno. It's tricky stuff!

if you're following me you should know what you're getting into.

if you're not ready to occasionally see something raunchy then maybe you should adjust your labels or like, just not follow, y'know? You can pick and choose what you wanna see but not what I'm allowed to show.

sure i've had this surge to wanna do art again in emote's, but the dopamine's already getting killed off. people's praises aren't hitting me as much as i think they should. i don't know if i'm just burnt out or that this is the way it's always going to be now.

and both ideas scare me.

but it always comes back to the damn medication. the fucking anti's.

i know i can't rely on them and I know it's not a fix-all and that I still have things to do myself, but my ability to DO those things is just. shot. my motivation's been shot for the longest time, and it hasn't come back for long

I've been thinking about doing an alternative bangs style for my vtuber model like that. At least for the 3d one. I wouldn't wanna bug my 2d model dad for more work, with how much this next one has going for it.

I wonder if they would even allow that...

But it would be cute cute cute.......