nero / lawrence
@deficitofentirety.bsky.social
did sys, asd, australian. 20. will either explode or combust into flames one of the two. may post art or just yap
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hi guys if you found me then congrats you’re going to explode within the next 7 minutes!
i may not post here often idk but im going by a diff username because i really just dont want to be percieved anymore.
i like my countrys wildlife and plants and i love exploring and stuff.
i may not post here often idk but im going by a diff username because i really just dont want to be percieved anymore.
i like my countrys wildlife and plants and i love exploring and stuff.
What’s really disappointing to me is, this is what I expected from Roblox. I’ve been on Roblox for 14 years, and after everything I’ve seen, everything I’ve witnessed, this is exactly how I expected them to react.
August 13, 2025 at 3:16 AM
What’s really disappointing to me is, this is what I expected from Roblox. I’ve been on Roblox for 14 years, and after everything I’ve seen, everything I’ve witnessed, this is exactly how I expected them to react.
I have problems
August 11, 2025 at 9:15 PM
I have problems
I finally told him my feelings. Nothings changing. Thank god. I didnt want to be in a relationship I just wanted to like get it off my chest yk. Its not reciprocated but idc. Its just hurt so much to keep it to myself
August 8, 2025 at 1:35 PM
I finally told him my feelings. Nothings changing. Thank god. I didnt want to be in a relationship I just wanted to like get it off my chest yk. Its not reciprocated but idc. Its just hurt so much to keep it to myself
I fumbled this morning btw I went to tell him and immediately chickened out
I never knew that love could be so sickening and. Depressing
August 8, 2025 at 3:21 AM
I fumbled this morning btw I went to tell him and immediately chickened out
I forgot until now that people gave up on me in 2020. Like, they outright told me they did.
August 6, 2025 at 8:52 PM
I forgot until now that people gave up on me in 2020. Like, they outright told me they did.
I’m having one of those weeks where I’m struggling to draw but I’m also having one of those weeks where I feel like I’m burdening my friends because of my BPD and the way it makes me feel, and it sucks
August 6, 2025 at 6:09 PM
I’m having one of those weeks where I’m struggling to draw but I’m also having one of those weeks where I feel like I’m burdening my friends because of my BPD and the way it makes me feel, and it sucks
Also, I dont know about anyone else but if I listen to a certain song, it brings me into a certain mental state and either brings my mood up or down. Like. I can deliberately drastically change my mood by listening to specific songs. If I need to feel bad, I listen to songs I listened to during bad-
August 4, 2025 at 9:42 PM
Also, I dont know about anyone else but if I listen to a certain song, it brings me into a certain mental state and either brings my mood up or down. Like. I can deliberately drastically change my mood by listening to specific songs. If I need to feel bad, I listen to songs I listened to during bad-
The closer we get to winter ending the less depressed I feel
August 4, 2025 at 9:37 PM
The closer we get to winter ending the less depressed I feel
I never knew that love could be so sickening and. Depressing
August 2, 2025 at 1:36 PM
I never knew that love could be so sickening and. Depressing
i killed lawrence guys (he’s no longer in front (it’s me remiel))
July 30, 2025 at 10:22 PM
i killed lawrence guys (he’s no longer in front (it’s me remiel))
I was too scared to bring up my dysphoria to my psychiatrist yesterday. Anyways he somehow knew that I wanted to talk about it and asked me about it. I’ve been diagnosed with gender dysphoria which means I can now get testosterone. 14 yo me would be ecstatic right now. And I AM ecstatic
July 29, 2025 at 4:15 AM
I was too scared to bring up my dysphoria to my psychiatrist yesterday. Anyways he somehow knew that I wanted to talk about it and asked me about it. I’ve been diagnosed with gender dysphoria which means I can now get testosterone. 14 yo me would be ecstatic right now. And I AM ecstatic
As an update, I went to an urgent mental health facility because I was having a crisis that could’ve ended horribly. I’m feeling better now. The fact that I haven’t gone there in 3 years just shows how bad it’s gotten. I shouldn’t keep it to myself either, I feel really bad about it. All I know is-
I said here how I was getting better, and that I’m not in such a dark place like I was in 2020, but now I’ve gone backwards in a matter of weeks. I don’t know what to do.
July 25, 2025 at 11:41 PM
As an update, I went to an urgent mental health facility because I was having a crisis that could’ve ended horribly. I’m feeling better now. The fact that I haven’t gone there in 3 years just shows how bad it’s gotten. I shouldn’t keep it to myself either, I feel really bad about it. All I know is-
I’m mad at myself, it feels like I jinxed it
July 24, 2025 at 12:07 AM
I’m mad at myself, it feels like I jinxed it
A wip of Casimir being straight again and these two
July 23, 2025 at 5:53 PM
A wip of Casimir being straight again and these two
I havent brought it up here but the reason Larry’s side of his head is scarred in my design is because when he was younger, after wwi mind you, he kind of. Threw the pin of a grenade instead of the grenade itself.. He did attempt to throw the grenade before it exploded, but he was a little too late
July 22, 2025 at 8:43 PM
I havent brought it up here but the reason Larry’s side of his head is scarred in my design is because when he was younger, after wwi mind you, he kind of. Threw the pin of a grenade instead of the grenade itself.. He did attempt to throw the grenade before it exploded, but he was a little too late
I’ve started internalising my emotions and every hint of my mental illnesses. I dont even vent to anyone anymore about what Im feeling bc I feel like I’ll cause stress and be too much by doing so. Idk what’s going on with me anymore
July 20, 2025 at 8:45 PM
I’ve started internalising my emotions and every hint of my mental illnesses. I dont even vent to anyone anymore about what Im feeling bc I feel like I’ll cause stress and be too much by doing so. Idk what’s going on with me anymore
Sorry abt earlier I was like legit crashing out
July 20, 2025 at 3:14 AM
Sorry abt earlier I was like legit crashing out
IM FUCKING CRYING
July 19, 2025 at 1:49 AM
IM FUCKING CRYING
I drew this on mspaint a couple months ago for literally no reason apart from making a pfp for my ask blog and Its still one of my favs cause why does it look so good its ms paint 😭
July 19, 2025 at 12:12 AM
I drew this on mspaint a couple months ago for literally no reason apart from making a pfp for my ask blog and Its still one of my favs cause why does it look so good its ms paint 😭
Im trying to make a new sona bc all these years all I’ve had is Sirius my silly fluffy amphiptere and Ive really been wanting a sona thats more humanoid and actually looks like me 💔 I love Sirius don’t get me wrong but I really needed another sona
July 15, 2025 at 8:07 PM
Im trying to make a new sona bc all these years all I’ve had is Sirius my silly fluffy amphiptere and Ive really been wanting a sona thats more humanoid and actually looks like me 💔 I love Sirius don’t get me wrong but I really needed another sona
I’m so glad I went back to he/they and started seeing myself as a dude again. I feel so much more comfortable. I think the past 2 years Ive tried to feel like a woman to some extent again in fear of how people around me would percieve me, though I didn’t even do that deliberately
July 15, 2025 at 7:56 PM
I’m so glad I went back to he/they and started seeing myself as a dude again. I feel so much more comfortable. I think the past 2 years Ive tried to feel like a woman to some extent again in fear of how people around me would percieve me, though I didn’t even do that deliberately
Update my knee is finally getting better. I had to sleep for most of the day to get through it. Dude. It was so painful earlier it made me CRY. I never cry when something hurts even if its really painful, that just says how bad it was 💔
July 15, 2025 at 1:15 PM
Update my knee is finally getting better. I had to sleep for most of the day to get through it. Dude. It was so painful earlier it made me CRY. I never cry when something hurts even if its really painful, that just says how bad it was 💔
I somehow dislocated my knee at like 2 am I’ve been laying here drawing my friends ocs in attempt to ignore it bc it HURTS.
July 14, 2025 at 7:30 PM
I somehow dislocated my knee at like 2 am I’ve been laying here drawing my friends ocs in attempt to ignore it bc it HURTS.
they call me the redrawer
July 14, 2025 at 5:22 PM
they call me the redrawer