one of the greatest teaching lessons I've learned is that sometimes replacing "if" with a pause can go a really long way because silence is okay but recklessly and immediately if-ing something without a constructive plan can be super destructive (even and especially if it's not intended to be)

academia is a series of applications with (sometimes) fun reading/ writing while waiting to hear back about the status of those applications

thinking a lot lately about how one time during my MA program I called an acquaintance from the PhD track to let her know that I found some dead birds and trashed vapes near a frat house while I was jogging and that she was the only person I knew who could decode the situation as a sign

the overwhelming urge to scream all the time because thanksgiving break is not an actual break but no one outside of academia actually understands that on a practical level because why wouldn't it be a break????

oppenheimer and wicked are strikingly similar narratives, and I can't believe it took me this long to think about that

I think the "screen time is not reading" argument (as a blanket statement/ stance) is rly weird

speechless

"the labor of understanding" is a good phrase (thx Dr. Salerno for popping it into my brain today)

highly suspicious of my state-of-not-panic rn

sometimes being a PhD student is so unnecessarily embarrassing -- like I love (and stand by) what I do but how tf do I struggle so much to find WORDS all. the. time.

R.I.P.