My favorite creative act: Being brainwashed into making hypnotech for the cult. My favorite part of my creative process is pressing the helmet against my face and clicking the button to activate it over and over and over and over and over and over and over and o......................................

and maybe, JUST maybe, i might be able to get this working in vr too. not making any promises but if godot lets me make vr overlay apps then i'm getting it done.

yeah that's the thing i'm trying to figure out. i don't want it to just be reading too hard into "i feel different in different situations", but there's been several examples of there being separation when i look back on my life, especially w the ways that i have persecuted myself in my life

oh yeah if people are aggressive and weird towards plural people i don't wanna be around them whether or not i personally am plural

it's just. difficult going through that process of self discovery with the Unique way i have landscaped my mind over the years

yeah that's the main concern, on both of those counts, i'm trying to figure that out for me first before presenting that for anyone else

if you have any of those firsthand accounts i would love to hear. it's just weird for me because i never really had an internal monologue growing up and we both used to share the same view of our identity (with heavy cognitive dissonance) until i thought about it more recently

it's not been anything disruptive but i don't really have any firsthand accounts to go off of. i don't think i have full DID but the different behaviorisms i have that share different individual beliefs and emotions and conceptions.. it can't be *nothing*

on in my life)

that + i wouldn't want people to get weird or judgmental at me if that's something i decide to present as more publically but i guess that one's just gonna happen regardless

not entirely sure if there's anything id need immediately i just absolutely wouldn't want to claim that if i'm not. a lot of the behaviorisms that have led me to believe i am, i haven't really noticed throughout my life (as a result of my autism and not having an established headspace until later

maybe? though I'd still want something a bit more public facing

it's just rough because due to the nature of SYNK being play-oriented if minors start looking for that play in the discord i make, i'm not trying to facilitate that kind of interaction :(

i mostly present as my host + the other alter doesn't care that much about outwardly presenting themself anyways so the presentation's not something i'm all too concerned about. just not entirely sure how to really make my mind of things going forward

plural!

yeah obviously but i'm just not really trying to have to devote a significant amount of time making sure people aren't lying about that, just to have a place where people can talk about what i make / otherwise

I don't have a choice.

I wouldn't have a choice.

as they fucking SHOULD. i'd want to be in the middle of both of them when it happens

(preferably, in a spitroast)

this may be true of mewtwo but i think with lucario he'd need a bit more effort than JUST that. a blast of aura directly to the head, surging from both paws clamped around the sides of someone's head, hard, would do the trick

I'M ALWAYS SAYING THIS. the hypno content with the most elaborate backstories and other context makes it so much better when all that used to be you and your history crumbles into dust under the servitude of a higher power. elaborating the stakes of being turned into a mindless thrall in every sense

this lucario should also be the reason mewtwo becomes a gooner i think. imagining some shenanigans in my mind to make this real