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lmao and ig they removed my post for "upsetting someone" wow jeez idk its almost as if the whole prospect and roadblocks of having an ostomy is upsetting and if ppl trying to discuss those things w others who can relate upsets you then youre a pussy and should leave the group imo

not to mention the ground was already covered in goose and dog shit anyways??????? i highly doubt my LIQUID OUTPUT that the ground will absorb in an hour is hurting ANYONE.

-fast while i was out and i had no other choice. what the fuck else do you want me to do?? i hate having this thing enough as it is, how shitty of you as a fellow ostomate to put me down as if you have never had any sort of fucking situation with your own bag, you loser whiny asshole

-bitch chill the fuck out. i dumped it in a wooded area that i doubt fucking anyone walks through anyways and why the fuck should i know to keep ziplock bags on me?? ive had my ostomy for only 2 months and im literally never anywhere where there is no toilet. i wasnt anticipating my bag filling so-

relationships aside, even just the idea of baseline affection with ANYONE rn makes me feel kind of sick. i dont like the idea of kissing or cuddling or none of that shit. its been this way for several, several months now. genuinely what is happening to me bc i dont wanna be this way

it feels kind of hopeless tbh. i wish i could feel excited about the prospect of new relationships but i just dont; in fact, the complete opposite. it makes me think theres something wrong w me. am i a sociopath?? idk!!!

on that last part especially bc people will tell me its not a problem to them but then we get into a relationship and suddenly theyre insecure about me not rly wanting them like that and now suddenly i feel pressured to give that and it leaves me in a bad place mentally

im too afraid of being burnt, im too afraid of feeling disappointed, im too afraid of not being good enough for anyone, im not a sexual person and that already shrinks my pool by like 70% etc

thats alright, i had UC for 14 years, im already pretty accustomed to the lack of normal poop. i already live off of electrolit and gatorade propel because UC left me chronically dehydrated for years too, so ive got that base covered as well

if its this one, im in it and its been a huge help with getting myself prepared. plus i have a couple of friends with jpouches who have also been great resources. ready to be over with the ostomy and go back to semi-normal

thanks! peristomal skin wasnt doing so hot for a little while, but im still new to this and didnt yet understand the importance of barrier methods. now i crust + use a ring and it keeps my skin happy

[sharp exhale]

not allowing myself to even worry about what to think or feel anyways bc i dont think shes a lesbian. ik she identified as one at one point for a little bit and then decided it wasnt actually the case

-month or so just thru fb comments but we have been talking 1-1 all day and im like. what a weird turn of events. life is strange. anyways, what do i even do with this. i wouldnt say i still have a crush on her, more like an intense urge to be good friends, but..... im just. huh??? feelings r odd