EggNaugAlt
@eggnaugalt.bsky.social
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I fucking hate social interaction. I crave relationship but it feels like mental torture trying to build that. I feel like I'm expected to read minds and be the one who does everything but not too much. I want to die. I will never ever feel like I do anything right or feel anyone genuinely loves me.
November 19, 2025 at 10:06 PM
I fucking hate social interaction. I crave relationship but it feels like mental torture trying to build that. I feel like I'm expected to read minds and be the one who does everything but not too much. I want to die. I will never ever feel like I do anything right or feel anyone genuinely loves me.
It seems like when there's nothing else in my life to worry about or feel shit about... I go back to feeling sad about my lack of partnership. Never having experienced any relationship. And his impossible to "fix" that kind of situation is. How stuck I feel.
June 25, 2025 at 8:18 PM
It seems like when there's nothing else in my life to worry about or feel shit about... I go back to feeling sad about my lack of partnership. Never having experienced any relationship. And his impossible to "fix" that kind of situation is. How stuck I feel.
I feel kinda sad. Thinking about my lack of partner again. Not deeply sad, but just kinda bummed at how I've just never experienced romantic love. I wish I could see myself from another person's perspective just so I have a better idea of everything wrong with me and what to improve about myself.
April 3, 2025 at 3:14 AM
I feel kinda sad. Thinking about my lack of partner again. Not deeply sad, but just kinda bummed at how I've just never experienced romantic love. I wish I could see myself from another person's perspective just so I have a better idea of everything wrong with me and what to improve about myself.
I can't shake the idea that nobody likes me for who I am. Not just b/c I hide I'm a furry from friends, but just because I don't think I'm integral to anyone's lives. I don't think I'd be anyone's first pick to hang out with. Nobody wants a relationship with me. If I died, people would move on quick
March 1, 2025 at 4:53 AM
I can't shake the idea that nobody likes me for who I am. Not just b/c I hide I'm a furry from friends, but just because I don't think I'm integral to anyone's lives. I don't think I'd be anyone's first pick to hang out with. Nobody wants a relationship with me. If I died, people would move on quick
Today my desire for intamacy came back, and with it my shame for so much of my sexual arousal. I wish I had a partner to tell this to cuz I feel all of this shame and fear I have about sex is just b/c of my inexperience... But also, I think I do just hate myself and don't think anyone truly wants me
March 1, 2025 at 4:44 AM
Today my desire for intamacy came back, and with it my shame for so much of my sexual arousal. I wish I had a partner to tell this to cuz I feel all of this shame and fear I have about sex is just b/c of my inexperience... But also, I think I do just hate myself and don't think anyone truly wants me
My life is horrible and I don't want to live in it anymore. I have nothing positive in my life. I feel worthless, I feel unworthy of living, and the world I live in is a miserable shit pile and is torture to live in every day. Whats the most painless way to die cuz I feel I just just fuckin do that
February 23, 2025 at 5:25 AM
My life is horrible and I don't want to live in it anymore. I have nothing positive in my life. I feel worthless, I feel unworthy of living, and the world I live in is a miserable shit pile and is torture to live in every day. Whats the most painless way to die cuz I feel I just just fuckin do that
I feel like my brain has been rotting away into depressed mushed and it's irreparably damaged forever. I don't think I'll ever be able to be happy again
February 23, 2025 at 5:23 AM
I feel like my brain has been rotting away into depressed mushed and it's irreparably damaged forever. I don't think I'll ever be able to be happy again
I want to die. There is never anything to be happy about, literally. Life is worthless, meaningless, nothing but torture and being trapped in a place progressively getting worse and I want to fucking kill myself because of it.
February 23, 2025 at 5:21 AM
I want to die. There is never anything to be happy about, literally. Life is worthless, meaningless, nothing but torture and being trapped in a place progressively getting worse and I want to fucking kill myself because of it.
Can someone please kill me? When I'm feeling sad, it's so unbearably painful for my brain and also sometimes actually painful in like, my chest somehow, and I just don't feel like deserve life
February 21, 2025 at 4:27 PM
Can someone please kill me? When I'm feeling sad, it's so unbearably painful for my brain and also sometimes actually painful in like, my chest somehow, and I just don't feel like deserve life
I wish I wasn't so ashamed of my sexuality or interest in sex. I can feel fine for a while, then a little trigger happens and all of a sudden, I feel a genuine rain cloud of sadness and shame cling to me and I just feel like the worst person ever and feel so guilty for any sexual thing I think about
February 21, 2025 at 4:20 PM
I wish I wasn't so ashamed of my sexuality or interest in sex. I can feel fine for a while, then a little trigger happens and all of a sudden, I feel a genuine rain cloud of sadness and shame cling to me and I just feel like the worst person ever and feel so guilty for any sexual thing I think about
Sad again. I hate film class sometimes cuz it's up in the air whether we watch a film that just fucking ruins me for a bit mentally, and makes me remember all the reasons I hate myself, and feel the rest of the world hates me too. I was doing fine for a while but oh well, there goes the day.
February 21, 2025 at 4:13 PM
Sad again. I hate film class sometimes cuz it's up in the air whether we watch a film that just fucking ruins me for a bit mentally, and makes me remember all the reasons I hate myself, and feel the rest of the world hates me too. I was doing fine for a while but oh well, there goes the day.
Not a sad post, just had a thought. My life was very similar for a few years when I was still in high school a few years ago. Now that I'm in college, I feel my life changed REALLY fast, in terms of my schedule, school work, finances, life goals, social circle, and I'm just yet to FULLY adjust to it
February 19, 2025 at 7:45 PM
Not a sad post, just had a thought. My life was very similar for a few years when I was still in high school a few years ago. Now that I'm in college, I feel my life changed REALLY fast, in terms of my schedule, school work, finances, life goals, social circle, and I'm just yet to FULLY adjust to it
I don't know why I sometimes just see a set of words or whatever and get really sad. Like, it's not even for like any reason. I don't know what's wrong with me, like, I saw a website called "ApartmentLove" while looking for apartments, and I just got sad seeing that?? I don't know why that happens?
February 16, 2025 at 8:14 AM
I don't know why I sometimes just see a set of words or whatever and get really sad. Like, it's not even for like any reason. I don't know what's wrong with me, like, I saw a website called "ApartmentLove" while looking for apartments, and I just got sad seeing that?? I don't know why that happens?
I wish I could go back to one of my old childhood homes. I'd prefer some over others, but I'm just sick of my current place and miss the old ones
February 16, 2025 at 7:44 AM
I wish I could go back to one of my old childhood homes. I'd prefer some over others, but I'm just sick of my current place and miss the old ones
If Canada and the US go to war and bombs start being dropped here or whatever, or if it's annexed into the US and we become the 51st state, I'm just killing myself. I don't even like being alive in the world we live in now, why would I want to be trapped in America against my will?
February 11, 2025 at 4:26 AM
If Canada and the US go to war and bombs start being dropped here or whatever, or if it's annexed into the US and we become the 51st state, I'm just killing myself. I don't even like being alive in the world we live in now, why would I want to be trapped in America against my will?
Deleted a bunch of posts from last night. I don't usually do that here but last night was just genuinely depressed breakdown, and looking back the next day, it just seemed nonsensical and sad, so I figured I'd remove them just to completely remove the memory of them
February 10, 2025 at 2:14 PM
Deleted a bunch of posts from last night. I don't usually do that here but last night was just genuinely depressed breakdown, and looking back the next day, it just seemed nonsensical and sad, so I figured I'd remove them just to completely remove the memory of them
If it wasn't painful, and everything I had ever made would be released with their proper explanations, I would absolutely die. I don't feel I bring anything if worth to the world, nobody would really MISS me miss me, and my life is just kind of a waste. I wish I could sleep and not wake up.
February 10, 2025 at 7:14 AM
If it wasn't painful, and everything I had ever made would be released with their proper explanations, I would absolutely die. I don't feel I bring anything if worth to the world, nobody would really MISS me miss me, and my life is just kind of a waste. I wish I could sleep and not wake up.
Yknow part of me used to feel comfort knowing not many ppl follow this account, but now it isnt. I feel like Im screaming for help into a void. There used to be someone who followed and replied frequently but I think they deleted their account, and I cant help but worry I had something to do with it
February 10, 2025 at 6:53 AM
Yknow part of me used to feel comfort knowing not many ppl follow this account, but now it isnt. I feel like Im screaming for help into a void. There used to be someone who followed and replied frequently but I think they deleted their account, and I cant help but worry I had something to do with it
Okay so, for once, I'm not sad, just kinda baffled. I've gone off about my worries from Trump... But HOLY FUCK, my Mom and her BF, who is horrible for her and a literal conspiracy theorist, have gone fucking insane, and are absolutely not keeping it to themselves and it's getting so hard to stand...
February 7, 2025 at 9:40 PM
Okay so, for once, I'm not sad, just kinda baffled. I've gone off about my worries from Trump... But HOLY FUCK, my Mom and her BF, who is horrible for her and a literal conspiracy theorist, have gone fucking insane, and are absolutely not keeping it to themselves and it's getting so hard to stand...
America voted in an insane cunt who wants my country for no reason, and is terrifing my country over it. I said this year was going to be the one where if things don't improve, I'm ending my life. I was already broke before 2025 so... I guess the billionaires in charge really want me to die quicker.
February 2, 2025 at 2:45 PM
America voted in an insane cunt who wants my country for no reason, and is terrifing my country over it. I said this year was going to be the one where if things don't improve, I'm ending my life. I was already broke before 2025 so... I guess the billionaires in charge really want me to die quicker.
I wonder if it's a good thing that I keep all my suicidal thoughts here and all my sad posting and worthless shit like that on this account mostly. Like, if most people who've seen my art knew I was just depressed as fuck, would that make my art harder to look at?
February 2, 2025 at 4:16 AM
I wonder if it's a good thing that I keep all my suicidal thoughts here and all my sad posting and worthless shit like that on this account mostly. Like, if most people who've seen my art knew I was just depressed as fuck, would that make my art harder to look at?
Sometimes I wonder if having a bigger following would make me feel better, because I'd know there's a lot more people who like my art and I'd get more comments and stuff... Or worse, because I'd have even more of a high standard for my art that I'd never reach anyway because I can't draw.
February 2, 2025 at 3:34 AM
Sometimes I wonder if having a bigger following would make me feel better, because I'd know there's a lot more people who like my art and I'd get more comments and stuff... Or worse, because I'd have even more of a high standard for my art that I'd never reach anyway because I can't draw.
I've only ever drawn on my phone. I'd love to use a drawing tablet, or just a tablet... But oh wait, I can't afford that shit. They're like $1000 and I have no money and no way to get money because I'm a waste and nobody wants to hire me and im an untalented waste of a human in the eyes of the world
February 2, 2025 at 3:28 AM
I've only ever drawn on my phone. I'd love to use a drawing tablet, or just a tablet... But oh wait, I can't afford that shit. They're like $1000 and I have no money and no way to get money because I'm a waste and nobody wants to hire me and im an untalented waste of a human in the eyes of the world
This is me trying to draw my own characters. It sucks. I can't draw. My character design sucks. I can't draw my own character design in an appealing way. I can't come up with a new one. And I can't draw anything else cuz I've only ever drawn these characters for 3 years. I'm a waste of an artist
February 2, 2025 at 3:27 AM
This is me trying to draw my own characters. It sucks. I can't draw. My character design sucks. I can't draw my own character design in an appealing way. I can't come up with a new one. And I can't draw anything else cuz I've only ever drawn these characters for 3 years. I'm a waste of an artist
I am so close to giving up, because making art doesn't make me happy. I used to like doing it, or at least feel motivated to do it, but now, I have so many wips that I struggle to just finish, and I can't even draw my own characters heads because their designs are so poor, and I'm so untalented
February 2, 2025 at 3:23 AM
I am so close to giving up, because making art doesn't make me happy. I used to like doing it, or at least feel motivated to do it, but now, I have so many wips that I struggle to just finish, and I can't even draw my own characters heads because their designs are so poor, and I'm so untalented