i've come to realize that i've been taking my thyroxine pills wrong for 17 years because of how much eating disorder has fucked my brain up 🤡🤡🤡

in my first bout of procrastination in 2025 (procrastinating getting out of bed lol); tried to answer to myself what prevents me from doing so even on holidays, apparently the answer is “not enough gratification in comparison to very mild but guaranteed discomfort” 🤡 why am i like this

i feel like many things that are marketed as "success" are majorly about strategy (slower, steadier, unflexible, rigid, determined, outcome-driven)

and tactic (swift, turn-based, lacks clear perspective for n steps ahead, process-driven, flexible, adaptive) has really bad rap

struggling with identity stability and identity in general is a common bpd symptom. today i had a visceral emotional response at just the thought of doing something that seemed "out of character" to me and it dawned on me that maybe there's more to that than i had suspected before.

god i NEED to vent about the fact that a 1st year student from ankara ünıversitesi barged into my instagram dms announcing he studies chuvash AND azerbaijani and now asks me all sorts of random questions 🥺 this is Precious

it amazes me that eamonn is edmund

i want to openly talk about my bpd+adhd comorbid combo (yay alliteration) but i am disgusted at the thought of me reduced to these two in public perception. i already vent profoundly in my telegram channel, but i thought of making it educational and less like “oversharing”

ктооооо набухивается гранатовым вином в вечер вторника просто потому что может

finally, a piece of content i’d expect to post in my now nonexistent green circle

sexvalues.github.io/index.html

hate it here that clarifying your position in order not to side with warmongers have become a full-time activity. otherwise it is merely cruel to yourself and thus better to stay silent

then you are bashed for staying silent yet to a lesser extent

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