ejeli
ejeli.bsky.social
ejeli
@ejeli.bsky.social
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April 15, 2025 at 8:42 AM
which is super weird to me because i refuse to believe flexibility is not a valuable asset these days, when the pace of life is insane

how did we allow this to happen
December 29, 2024 at 8:26 PM
... that you will be always, forever protected from any loss or pain or abandonment.

doesn't sound like a realistic goal to me, and i consciously try to steer away from automatic actions driven by this goal, but an immediate response to even a faint perspective of such negative outcomes is there.
December 28, 2024 at 8:35 PM
AND when you tie your worth solely to externalities (not my case anymore... okay, not 100% so, was worse), your life becomes a journey of search for some mythical unattainable identity that will be so perfectly optimized for every single person around you and every situation in life...
December 28, 2024 at 8:35 PM
my honest answer is that ultimately it is a fear of losing what you "got" with that identity, even if in reality gaining that (friend? lover? job? any other achievement) might have had nothing to do with said identity.
December 28, 2024 at 8:35 PM
why is it so scary to me to behave "out of character" -> why is it so scary to me to appear different from the image that i [subconsciosly] want to project outside? what happens if i stop? i tried to answer these questions to myself.
December 28, 2024 at 8:35 PM
мне кажется, автор теста имплицировал, что если есть интерес к ярко выраженной мускулатуре даже у девушек, то это все равно про тяготение к мужчинам (что мне кажется неправдой)
November 14, 2023 at 8:21 PM