A carer wrote this on an envelope:

M = t / r × C

Motivation = task balanced reward multiplies confidence.

So I rewarded myself.

That was the work.

#MentalHealth #TraumaRecovery #LivedExperience

substack.com/@electrodegi...

#HomeTreatmentTeam
#NonEngagement
#MentalHealthCare
#CrisisSupport
#ConditionalCare
#LeavingWasTheIntervention
#DistressIsNotRefusal
#MentalHealthSystem
#PatientVoice
#CareAndControl

For the whole story, go here: open.substack.com/pub/electrod...

When distress is read as refusal, care becomes conditional.
When you're most in need, presence disappears.
What’s written down matters.

This isn’t a recovery post. It’s a record of what today looked like from the inside.

I've written more about this and am leaving a link to my substack below.

#mentalhealth #livedexperience #crisiscare #agoraphobia

open.substack.com/pub/electrod...

I also had to make decisions while unwell. Whether to go out on Christmas Eve. Whether I could manage the logistics. Whether being alone would be worse.

I did make a booking. A friend will stay on the phone with me when I get home. That matters. It’s about safety.

After that, the anxiety kept rising.

My breathing sped up. I was alone, trying to manage medication limits, trying not to panic about the panic itself.

Physiology and fear feeding each other.

It is deeply distressing to know so many people seeking treatment that they simply cannot access - be that psychotherapy, hormone therapy, or medication therapy.

If I could have rTMS and Ketamine treatment, I might feel better, quicker.

electrodegirl.substack.com

I use the Flow device. I'm glad and curious as people start to post about it.

Would be happy to write about it specifically for your feed, or a follow.

Thank you for noticing, and posting on such an array of stuff around mental illness.

#flowneuroscience #severeDepression #MentalIllness

Following - I'm cis and straight and fem, but with lots of trans friends. This post really landed with me - for different reasons to you, but ending up at the same place that I've been fighting against pretty much all my life. Glad you leverage your rage; don't ever give up.

Today is quieter, and still very fragile. I cried for nearly two hours with R, who I won't see until the New Year. He and other friends are organising a contact rota so I have company.

#MentalHealth #HousingCrisis #Depression #Anxiety #SystemsFailure

At the same time, Dan was speaking to the housing team, who raised a past final offer and asked for a GP letter, without offering a viewing and without acknowledging that my non response happened during a crisis.

Support did not arrive. Consequences kept moving.

#FlowHeadset #FlowNeuroscience #MentalHealth #DataDrivenHealing #Mindfulness #ProgressNotPerfection #Neurostimulation #HealingIsntLinear #SelfGrowth