i just bring suffering into this world anyway

this pain won't go away even in my death

i love my gfs so much

the only moments i feel alive is with them

starting to feel like i dont actually matter at all. just hurts

brain has been a really dark place to be lately. feeling like if i disappeared right now, the universe wouldnt even notice the gap. just existing quietly while everything moves around me. feeling super heavy and unimportant, just wish i felt real again, to feel like i actually matter

time to cry a bit so i dont explode inside

i feel like an empty shell that learned how to smile on command.
every day i push a little further, not because im ready, but because stopping feels forbidden
im still here, technically alive, but existing like im stuck between moments, not moving forward, not allowed to rest, to feel, to live

i dont want to be the one who drags everyone down anymore

maybe things would be easier without me

finally got to talk with family and idk

i feel so empty
i need a hug so bad

i guess all those pent up feelings finally hit me :(
can't stop crying and i just need a hug and a shoulder so bad

im deleting twitter for real, that place sucks ass and i dont want that shit on my phone anymore
so im moving my sad/vent account here too