YOU SEE IT YESS

Xander con su anillo !!! 🙈🙈

I’ve been missing them terribly!!!! Thank you Eva 😭😭😭🥺🥺🫶🫶

Thank you, I appreciate it!

Thank you!!!

Not as bad. I had to take aspirin for this rough headache but things are looking up. Thank you for asking 🫂

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Everytime I meet a new therapist they tell me they can tell I’m a good person and that I care a lot about others. She said today I go out of my way to inconvenience myself for the sake of others.

It’s not that I think they lie to me. My mind is just “don’t good things happen to good people?”

I didn’t 💔 I have high hopes for tomorrow, though. I think the depression is lifting a little bit.

I think therapy reopened wounds again.

I can’t be the only person on the world who feels this. I feel so alone.

I forgot her response I think something like “you just gotta live and let things go”

I gotta let it everything go I think

Also, I guess there’s the loneliness too. And that has been a pain since I was a tiny child. Feeling unloved. Even if it were true, there has to be an existence for the unloved too.

I don’t want to be doomed. I don’t want to feel sorry for existing my whole life. I don’t want to beg.

I think the question is just how do you live? How do you keep going? I feel so heavy sometimes and I know I barely have a real load on me, or things to actually feel guilty about like mortal sins, but it’s still so suffocating.

How can you feel okay to just be?

If I can muster the motivation I will draw more tonight. I hope I can.