i need to do smth rly productive like actually get a paying job or start writing again bc i feel most myself when im working towards a productive goal

i havent been here in years but its still always gonna hurt i reckon

i probably wont go anyway bc im too fuckn fragile i dont wanna do shit

i suspect my own death will be fucked and awful and painful for no other reason than pure irony

WE LOVE YOU CHIITAN!!!! YOURE AN INSPIRATION!!!!