Vexed Vombatid
@fermionicmustard.bsky.social
Mustard is already fermionic, idiot.
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Solve the riddle to access my main account.
PFP by @skidarstudios.bsky.social
Banner by @zeiroslion.art
I feel like I’m barely holding it together.
January 14, 2026 at 3:49 AM
I feel like I’m barely holding it together.
I've written off today. It's okay. You can't win 'em all.
January 13, 2026 at 2:40 AM
I've written off today. It's okay. You can't win 'em all.
I got a lot done yesterday—on a weekend. I said explicitly I put in 8 hours of work. Probably more than that.
So I wish I could stop fretting about not getting anything done now. I basically traded today for yesterday.
So I wish I could stop fretting about not getting anything done now. I basically traded today for yesterday.
January 12, 2026 at 7:07 PM
I got a lot done yesterday—on a weekend. I said explicitly I put in 8 hours of work. Probably more than that.
So I wish I could stop fretting about not getting anything done now. I basically traded today for yesterday.
So I wish I could stop fretting about not getting anything done now. I basically traded today for yesterday.
If I block you, it may be simply because I don't know who you are. Go follow my main. You obviously know what it is.
January 12, 2026 at 1:12 PM
If I block you, it may be simply because I don't know who you are. Go follow my main. You obviously know what it is.
It turned into an 8 hour work day, struggling with temperature sensors. I'm tired.
January 12, 2026 at 3:17 AM
It turned into an 8 hour work day, struggling with temperature sensors. I'm tired.
Nobody posts anymore.
January 11, 2026 at 11:41 PM
Nobody posts anymore.
It's turned into a very productive day and I hate it.
January 11, 2026 at 11:18 PM
It's turned into a very productive day and I hate it.
Inigo has proven popular (he's risen to number 8 out of 719 in my FA). Theia has not.
So I just ordered art of both of them. Theia's is moving and Inigo's is merely cute.
So I just ordered art of both of them. Theia's is moving and Inigo's is merely cute.
January 11, 2026 at 9:26 PM
Inigo has proven popular (he's risen to number 8 out of 719 in my FA). Theia has not.
So I just ordered art of both of them. Theia's is moving and Inigo's is merely cute.
So I just ordered art of both of them. Theia's is moving and Inigo's is merely cute.
I'm not sure how I finished the week not only not behind on tasks (both in and out of work) but significantly ahead. Evidently I made efficient use of what little time I was able to focus.
January 10, 2026 at 6:38 PM
I'm not sure how I finished the week not only not behind on tasks (both in and out of work) but significantly ahead. Evidently I made efficient use of what little time I was able to focus.
It turns out that Emmet (i.e. the part of me that Emmet represents) was feeling some things.
At the moment I want to get art of him feeling those things, but it's been a while since I did anything like that if I ever properly did it. (Normally I just write it down.)
At the moment I want to get art of him feeling those things, but it's been a while since I did anything like that if I ever properly did it. (Normally I just write it down.)
I guess I crawled out of the hole I was in this week. I don't know what happened. It feels like I just shut down for a few days.
January 10, 2026 at 5:40 PM
It turns out that Emmet (i.e. the part of me that Emmet represents) was feeling some things.
At the moment I want to get art of him feeling those things, but it's been a while since I did anything like that if I ever properly did it. (Normally I just write it down.)
At the moment I want to get art of him feeling those things, but it's been a while since I did anything like that if I ever properly did it. (Normally I just write it down.)
I guess I crawled out of the hole I was in this week. I don't know what happened. It feels like I just shut down for a few days.
January 10, 2026 at 3:51 AM
I guess I crawled out of the hole I was in this week. I don't know what happened. It feels like I just shut down for a few days.
And we're down to three commissions being worked on (defined as having received a WIP): one painting of Victor, one illustration of Henry & Luke, and a YCH of Bryce & Zeke.
January 9, 2026 at 6:58 PM
And we're down to three commissions being worked on (defined as having received a WIP): one painting of Victor, one illustration of Henry & Luke, and a YCH of Bryce & Zeke.
I've been up for 30 minutes and I've already got more done than I did all of yesterday.
Well, aside from that presentation to management that went really well but telling people shit ain't doing it.
Well, aside from that presentation to management that went really well but telling people shit ain't doing it.
January 8, 2026 at 3:25 PM
I've been up for 30 minutes and I've already got more done than I did all of yesterday.
Well, aside from that presentation to management that went really well but telling people shit ain't doing it.
Well, aside from that presentation to management that went really well but telling people shit ain't doing it.
My head hurts, my back hurts, my eyes hurt, my throat hurts, and I'm cold. I'm taking a medium-sized nap and then checking on the machines.
January 8, 2026 at 1:18 AM
My head hurts, my back hurts, my eyes hurt, my throat hurts, and I'm cold. I'm taking a medium-sized nap and then checking on the machines.
I’m probably fighting off a bug.
January 7, 2026 at 11:24 PM
I’m probably fighting off a bug.
I feel completely dead inside. Nothing. No energy, no motivation, no purpose. The only thing that I want to do is sleep.
A lot of people are ill. They all went on vacations and came back with their diseases. Maybe I've come down with something.
A lot of people are ill. They all went on vacations and came back with their diseases. Maybe I've come down with something.
January 7, 2026 at 7:11 PM
I feel completely dead inside. Nothing. No energy, no motivation, no purpose. The only thing that I want to do is sleep.
A lot of people are ill. They all went on vacations and came back with their diseases. Maybe I've come down with something.
A lot of people are ill. They all went on vacations and came back with their diseases. Maybe I've come down with something.
In my dream the other day where Silvio showed up, he had an ID card that gave his name as "Arvind Subramaniam".
He is an Indian pangolin, so that might be his actual name.
He is an Indian pangolin, so that might be his actual name.
January 7, 2026 at 11:05 AM
In my dream the other day where Silvio showed up, he had an ID card that gave his name as "Arvind Subramaniam".
He is an Indian pangolin, so that might be his actual name.
He is an Indian pangolin, so that might be his actual name.
The new med has quieted me down. Loud noises, big crowds, sudden movements no longer make me skittish or aggressive. The one thing that set me off today was *loud chewing* though I don't think it can help with that.
But I don't feel any sense of drive, of urgency. That's a problem if it lasts.
But I don't feel any sense of drive, of urgency. That's a problem if it lasts.
January 7, 2026 at 1:25 AM
The new med has quieted me down. Loud noises, big crowds, sudden movements no longer make me skittish or aggressive. The one thing that set me off today was *loud chewing* though I don't think it can help with that.
But I don't feel any sense of drive, of urgency. That's a problem if it lasts.
But I don't feel any sense of drive, of urgency. That's a problem if it lasts.
"All you need is one great day!"
My best and oldest friend told me that just now.
I needed to hear it, because it's the truth.
My best and oldest friend told me that just now.
I needed to hear it, because it's the truth.
January 6, 2026 at 11:42 PM
"All you need is one great day!"
My best and oldest friend told me that just now.
I needed to hear it, because it's the truth.
My best and oldest friend told me that just now.
I needed to hear it, because it's the truth.
It is a CRIME to eat as loud as some people eat! Like goddamned animals!
January 6, 2026 at 8:41 PM
It is a CRIME to eat as loud as some people eat! Like goddamned animals!
I'm still managing to whittle down the list, getting my fix but buying at sub-replacement levels.
Down to 15 outstanding now, with only 5 being things I've seen.
Down to 15 outstanding now, with only 5 being things I've seen.
16 commissions outstanding
9 not started
7 in progress
1 moribund
Oldest: 412 days ago
Newest: 8 days ago
Breakdown of in-progress:
- 2 ref sheets
- 2 illustrations
- 1 YCH
- 1 half body
- 1 headshot
9 not started
7 in progress
1 moribund
Oldest: 412 days ago
Newest: 8 days ago
Breakdown of in-progress:
- 2 ref sheets
- 2 illustrations
- 1 YCH
- 1 half body
- 1 headshot
January 6, 2026 at 12:21 PM
I'm still managing to whittle down the list, getting my fix but buying at sub-replacement levels.
Down to 15 outstanding now, with only 5 being things I've seen.
Down to 15 outstanding now, with only 5 being things I've seen.
Yeah, uh huh, uh huh, I've already faded into total incoherence.
My body still thinks I missed a full daytime of sleep. Much trickier than it seemed at first glance.
My body still thinks I missed a full daytime of sleep. Much trickier than it seemed at first glance.
I think I did it. I reset my sleep schedule.
It required spending 15 of the past 24 hours asleep but I'm up at 7:30am, wide awake and alert.
It required spending 15 of the past 24 hours asleep but I'm up at 7:30am, wide awake and alert.
January 6, 2026 at 2:23 AM
Yeah, uh huh, uh huh, I've already faded into total incoherence.
My body still thinks I missed a full daytime of sleep. Much trickier than it seemed at first glance.
My body still thinks I missed a full daytime of sleep. Much trickier than it seemed at first glance.
Inauspicious start for the day. I had a telehealth appointment and the doctor... simply did not show up. No email, text, anything. I hope nothing bad happened to him.
January 5, 2026 at 4:41 PM
Inauspicious start for the day. I had a telehealth appointment and the doctor... simply did not show up. No email, text, anything. I hope nothing bad happened to him.
Why is this on my desktop.
January 5, 2026 at 4:28 PM
Why is this on my desktop.
I think I did it. I reset my sleep schedule.
It required spending 15 of the past 24 hours asleep but I'm up at 7:30am, wide awake and alert.
It required spending 15 of the past 24 hours asleep but I'm up at 7:30am, wide awake and alert.
January 5, 2026 at 3:50 PM
I think I did it. I reset my sleep schedule.
It required spending 15 of the past 24 hours asleep but I'm up at 7:30am, wide awake and alert.
It required spending 15 of the past 24 hours asleep but I'm up at 7:30am, wide awake and alert.