Pearl•caterpillarsky•edbsky
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Adult•EDNOS/OSFED•non edbsky dni• I don’t fb minors or those who post sh
5’8”
Hw: 220
Lw: 115
Cw: 143
Gw: 99
5’8”
Hw: 220
Lw: 115
Cw: 143
Gw: 99
Even when I eat in the low 1000s I wind up so hungry at night so I just keep myself upstairs so there’s no temptation or excuses like “I can eat x more calories and still be okay” the only time I leave my room when I’m this hungry is to use the bathroom or get more 0 calorie drinks.
December 22, 2025 at 12:06 AM
Even when I eat in the low 1000s I wind up so hungry at night so I just keep myself upstairs so there’s no temptation or excuses like “I can eat x more calories and still be okay” the only time I leave my room when I’m this hungry is to use the bathroom or get more 0 calorie drinks.
Anyway 3pm and ending the day at 1185. Once Christmas bullshit is over I’m gonna lock the fuck in and start eating less than 1k again. I can’t deal with this slow af weight loss.
December 21, 2025 at 8:12 PM
Anyway 3pm and ending the day at 1185. Once Christmas bullshit is over I’m gonna lock the fuck in and start eating less than 1k again. I can’t deal with this slow af weight loss.
My mom keeps bragging about her ozempic weight loss but the dr took her off of it and I know she has zero self control without it and always eats shit foods so I’m just waiting for her to gain the weight back while I keep losing. I know I probably sound shitty but she knows about my ed
December 21, 2025 at 8:11 PM
My mom keeps bragging about her ozempic weight loss but the dr took her off of it and I know she has zero self control without it and always eats shit foods so I’m just waiting for her to gain the weight back while I keep losing. I know I probably sound shitty but she knows about my ed
I’m so tired of being this fat. I’ve been scared to step on the scale. And my body is back to doing that thing where I spot the 2 weeks leading up to my period. So annoying and can’t even talk to a Dr because they’ll just want to put me on bc. No thanks, tried it before and it didn’t help and also
December 21, 2025 at 6:48 PM
I’m so tired of being this fat. I’ve been scared to step on the scale. And my body is back to doing that thing where I spot the 2 weeks leading up to my period. So annoying and can’t even talk to a Dr because they’ll just want to put me on bc. No thanks, tried it before and it didn’t help and also
I ate my maintenance cals today so basically I’m going to gain. I don’t even feel like I’ve been restricting lately. Like, I have, but when I am restricting more I feel the side effects like weakness and hunger. I feel too normal lately and wouldn’t be surprised if I’ve gained again.
December 20, 2025 at 1:36 AM
I ate my maintenance cals today so basically I’m going to gain. I don’t even feel like I’ve been restricting lately. Like, I have, but when I am restricting more I feel the side effects like weakness and hunger. I feel too normal lately and wouldn’t be surprised if I’ve gained again.
I think I’ve been having so much fiber lately that it’s having the opposite effect on me 🙃 so today for lunch I had a non fiber rich meal of easy mac lol. This isn’t something I normally keep around, it was leftover from when my cousin had her toddler here and the didn’t bring the rest of
December 19, 2025 at 6:51 PM
I think I’ve been having so much fiber lately that it’s having the opposite effect on me 🙃 so today for lunch I had a non fiber rich meal of easy mac lol. This isn’t something I normally keep around, it was leftover from when my cousin had her toddler here and the didn’t bring the rest of
No matter how much weight I lose I still look so fat. I am the fattest bmi 21’s ever. I doubt that becoming underweight will make that much of a difference but at least once I get there I won’t be this big anymore.
December 19, 2025 at 2:53 AM
No matter how much weight I lose I still look so fat. I am the fattest bmi 21’s ever. I doubt that becoming underweight will make that much of a difference but at least once I get there I won’t be this big anymore.
Ending today at 835. Lowest I’ve gone in a while. I don’t feel well for a non ed reason (chronic pain) and as much as I hate being in pain, these pain flare ups help me restrict and lose weight. How many times can I keep saying pain lol.
December 18, 2025 at 9:39 PM
Ending today at 835. Lowest I’ve gone in a while. I don’t feel well for a non ed reason (chronic pain) and as much as I hate being in pain, these pain flare ups help me restrict and lose weight. How many times can I keep saying pain lol.
My friend is being best Ana again. Hasn’t eaten anything yet today and it’s nearly midnight. Okay and I ate 1129 calories for the entire day and because I’m consistent I’ll keep losing weight. The fast to binge cycle was what kept me big.
December 18, 2025 at 4:32 AM
My friend is being best Ana again. Hasn’t eaten anything yet today and it’s nearly midnight. Okay and I ate 1129 calories for the entire day and because I’m consistent I’ll keep losing weight. The fast to binge cycle was what kept me big.
I had 50g of fiber yesterday. Overdid it lol. Today I am eating way less fiber and way less overall. I think that did a good job of what I needed it to do without haunt to take lax though because I hate lax and only use it as a last resort.
December 17, 2025 at 4:08 PM
I had 50g of fiber yesterday. Overdid it lol. Today I am eating way less fiber and way less overall. I think that did a good job of what I needed it to do without haunt to take lax though because I hate lax and only use it as a last resort.
Update: the friend who was trying to be best Ana to me earlier just texted and said she got fast food so I already know she ate more calories in that one meal than I’ve had today despite her whole “I didn’t eat all day” thing she was doing earlier
December 16, 2025 at 5:33 AM
Update: the friend who was trying to be best Ana to me earlier just texted and said she got fast food so I already know she ate more calories in that one meal than I’ve had today despite her whole “I didn’t eat all day” thing she was doing earlier
And like the thing is when it comes to my ED shit with my irls I am very considerate and I don’t constantly feel the need to tell people when I’m restricting or losing because I don’t want to make them feel bad about themselves but then there’s that one person who’s always like
December 16, 2025 at 12:58 AM
And like the thing is when it comes to my ED shit with my irls I am very considerate and I don’t constantly feel the need to tell people when I’m restricting or losing because I don’t want to make them feel bad about themselves but then there’s that one person who’s always like
And obviously I’m not thin either but I’ve lost so much since my hw and I have been underweight and diagnosed with anorexia in the past. I will reclaim my title lol.
December 16, 2025 at 12:55 AM
And obviously I’m not thin either but I’ve lost so much since my hw and I have been underweight and diagnosed with anorexia in the past. I will reclaim my title lol.
I hate when someone I know irl knows about my ED and they constantly try to be best Ana. Like sorry not to be a bitch but you weigh 100lbs more than me and you’re always trying to claim you don’t eat…we both know that’s not true. Even if she does skip some meals, she winds up in a surplus
December 16, 2025 at 12:49 AM
I hate when someone I know irl knows about my ED and they constantly try to be best Ana. Like sorry not to be a bitch but you weigh 100lbs more than me and you’re always trying to claim you don’t eat…we both know that’s not true. Even if she does skip some meals, she winds up in a surplus
Already had 434 calories and I feel like I’ve hardly eaten anything because it was just some fruit and chia seeds -.- haven’t weighed myself since the last time when I saw I was down to 143 after going back up to 148 after Thanksgiving. I need to weigh in tomorrow. Gonna keep it around 1k today.
December 12, 2025 at 5:53 PM
Already had 434 calories and I feel like I’ve hardly eaten anything because it was just some fruit and chia seeds -.- haven’t weighed myself since the last time when I saw I was down to 143 after going back up to 148 after Thanksgiving. I need to weigh in tomorrow. Gonna keep it around 1k today.
I was taking bodycheck pics and even though I’m smaller than I was over the summer and way smaller than than my hw I have such an unfortunate build and still look huge. Fattest bmi 21 to exist. Linebacker shoulders and fat arms and thighs. Like cool I can fit into shorts that didn’t fit me at
December 11, 2025 at 3:02 AM
I was taking bodycheck pics and even though I’m smaller than I was over the summer and way smaller than than my hw I have such an unfortunate build and still look huge. Fattest bmi 21 to exist. Linebacker shoulders and fat arms and thighs. Like cool I can fit into shorts that didn’t fit me at
One thing that sucks about having previously been obese is that losing weight to a weight you’ve been before doesn’t look the same as it would had you never been obese. I’m fortunate that I don’t have any hanging loose skin but I am a lot softer and don’t looks as taut as I did before the
December 9, 2025 at 7:05 PM
One thing that sucks about having previously been obese is that losing weight to a weight you’ve been before doesn’t look the same as it would had you never been obese. I’m fortunate that I don’t have any hanging loose skin but I am a lot softer and don’t looks as taut as I did before the
Finally started losing weight again. Thanksgiving week really stalled me out but my life has no meaning so it’s been easier to not eat as much. My weight went up to 148 post Thanksgiving, now I’m down to 143. Officially bmi 21’s. I was just bmi 24’s in September after that bad binge cycle.
December 9, 2025 at 5:30 PM
Finally started losing weight again. Thanksgiving week really stalled me out but my life has no meaning so it’s been easier to not eat as much. My weight went up to 148 post Thanksgiving, now I’m down to 143. Officially bmi 21’s. I was just bmi 24’s in September after that bad binge cycle.
Been eating low 1000’s past couple days. It makes me feel physically better so I can function during the day but obviously slower weight loss and I still get hungry when I’m in bed at night which makes it hard for me to sleep. Then I try to drink a bunch of tea with stevia which makes me have to go
November 25, 2025 at 3:24 AM
Been eating low 1000’s past couple days. It makes me feel physically better so I can function during the day but obviously slower weight loss and I still get hungry when I’m in bed at night which makes it hard for me to sleep. Then I try to drink a bunch of tea with stevia which makes me have to go
It feels so good to remove foods from mfp that you had pre logged because you never ended up eating them 😇
November 22, 2025 at 9:10 PM
It feels so good to remove foods from mfp that you had pre logged because you never ended up eating them 😇
All I need to do is lose ONE MORE pound to reach my goal for the month which is 5 pounds lost. You wouldn’t think it would be so hard to lose one additional pound but this last one refuses to go. I bounce around between 145.2 to 145.8. And I only set a 5lb goal because it feels more achievable
November 22, 2025 at 3:30 PM
All I need to do is lose ONE MORE pound to reach my goal for the month which is 5 pounds lost. You wouldn’t think it would be so hard to lose one additional pound but this last one refuses to go. I bounce around between 145.2 to 145.8. And I only set a 5lb goal because it feels more achievable
This is really disappointing because I thought for sure my weight would be dow considering yesterday I weighed myself after I ate and it was this same weight. I even waited to take my meds and drink anything so my weight would be accurate today so now I’m thirsty for no reason. Fuck.
November 22, 2025 at 3:19 PM
This is really disappointing because I thought for sure my weight would be dow considering yesterday I weighed myself after I ate and it was this same weight. I even waited to take my meds and drink anything so my weight would be accurate today so now I’m thirsty for no reason. Fuck.
My weight was still exactly the same. And I don’t want anyone saying that I’m eating more than I’m tracking because I’m not. Normal non disordered people would lose after only having 1 bowl of soup for an entire day. There’s something that makes me hold onto weight.
November 22, 2025 at 3:17 PM
My weight was still exactly the same. And I don’t want anyone saying that I’m eating more than I’m tracking because I’m not. Normal non disordered people would lose after only having 1 bowl of soup for an entire day. There’s something that makes me hold onto weight.
I forgot I had a bsky 💀 anyway I had 825 today and I think my weight should be down tomorrow. I weighed myself this afternoon after eating before my bath and my weight was the same as my morning weight from a couple days ago so I think it will be down tomorrow!
November 22, 2025 at 1:39 AM
I forgot I had a bsky 💀 anyway I had 825 today and I think my weight should be down tomorrow. I weighed myself this afternoon after eating before my bath and my weight was the same as my morning weight from a couple days ago so I think it will be down tomorrow!
“Just a reminder that recovery is possible” *insert emaciated body pic and current body pic* “just don’t forget that I was emaciated!” “Remember how emaciated I was” “yes I’m aware recovery before and afters help no one and reduce the complexities of an ED down to a weight disorder but how else
November 19, 2025 at 6:55 PM
“Just a reminder that recovery is possible” *insert emaciated body pic and current body pic* “just don’t forget that I was emaciated!” “Remember how emaciated I was” “yes I’m aware recovery before and afters help no one and reduce the complexities of an ED down to a weight disorder but how else