ael
@grwnktty.bsky.social
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venting and nonstop rambling
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ael
@grwnktty.bsky.social
· Mar 26
i should be given pieces of cake for existing
HOW LONG WAS MY BIO STILL. AGE 19😭😭 broo i forgot to change that shit
January 1, 2026 at 10:08 AM
HOW LONG WAS MY BIO STILL. AGE 19😭😭 broo i forgot to change that shit
happy new years everypony
January 1, 2026 at 10:08 AM
happy new years everypony
i dont want to leave my partner. i dont know if its because true love, a really bad attachment, if i want to "save him" or try to control him. i dont know what it is, i feel like, in my whole body, i do love him but my head says this isn't safe. for him im not safe
December 17, 2025 at 7:06 AM
i dont want to leave my partner. i dont know if its because true love, a really bad attachment, if i want to "save him" or try to control him. i dont know what it is, i feel like, in my whole body, i do love him but my head says this isn't safe. for him im not safe
do i potentially have aspd or is it the lack of social interaction or is it the years of unpacked trauma.. who knows guys
December 17, 2025 at 6:00 AM
do i potentially have aspd or is it the lack of social interaction or is it the years of unpacked trauma.. who knows guys
i gotta get evil nd disappear for a few weeks again sorry guys
December 17, 2025 at 5:56 AM
i gotta get evil nd disappear for a few weeks again sorry guys
cw s/h mention (im ok, this moreso a joke LMAO)
November 19, 2025 at 5:15 AM
cw s/h mention (im ok, this moreso a joke LMAO)
trying to maintain relationships with others is genuinely starting to feel like a chore to me and i dont know what to do. this wouldn't be that big of a problem if i actually had a lot of friends but i only have 2 people i talk to regularly, that being my soulmate /p and my literal. partner
November 19, 2025 at 2:00 AM
trying to maintain relationships with others is genuinely starting to feel like a chore to me and i dont know what to do. this wouldn't be that big of a problem if i actually had a lot of friends but i only have 2 people i talk to regularly, that being my soulmate /p and my literal. partner
i had a dream w one of my triggers in it and as soon as i woke up my brain literally tried. to immediately dissociate and cover it up to the point where i just straight up forgot as i was trying to recount the dream (bc i like to write my dreams).
November 11, 2025 at 9:14 PM
i had a dream w one of my triggers in it and as soon as i woke up my brain literally tried. to immediately dissociate and cover it up to the point where i just straight up forgot as i was trying to recount the dream (bc i like to write my dreams).
im alive if anyone gives a shit
November 3, 2025 at 4:07 AM
im alive if anyone gives a shit
ihgrhjsjsn im going to actually lose it one day
October 14, 2025 at 12:04 AM
ihgrhjsjsn im going to actually lose it one day
am i being unreasonable? is it controlling or weird to want to know where ur partner is? esp if theyre not going to be able to talk to you for multiple hours???
October 6, 2025 at 1:14 AM
am i being unreasonable? is it controlling or weird to want to know where ur partner is? esp if theyre not going to be able to talk to you for multiple hours???
why is it so fucking hard to just say "oh i have to go __ later" "im going out for a bit" like. i feel like im fucking owed that as your psrtner but its seemingly sooo fucking hard to do
October 6, 2025 at 1:12 AM
why is it so fucking hard to just say "oh i have to go __ later" "im going out for a bit" like. i feel like im fucking owed that as your psrtner but its seemingly sooo fucking hard to do
i just won't say anything
October 4, 2025 at 10:26 PM
i just won't say anything
okay we get it your soooo good at it, shut up
September 22, 2025 at 1:43 AM
okay we get it your soooo good at it, shut up
i dont know how much more i can take
September 21, 2025 at 9:48 PM
i dont know how much more i can take
i wish he wasnt my fp. i wish i did block him and cut contact when we broke up the first time so then i couldve forced myself to get over him. i wish i just. wasnt so attached and obsessed, i feel sick to my stomach
September 21, 2025 at 9:48 PM
i wish he wasnt my fp. i wish i did block him and cut contact when we broke up the first time so then i couldve forced myself to get over him. i wish i just. wasnt so attached and obsessed, i feel sick to my stomach
i dont know what to do with myself anymore, i dont want to be around people but at the same time want my old life back. i dont know how to pull myself out of this hole without running myself ragged and making myself worse than i already am, even becoming someone who isnt me
September 21, 2025 at 9:43 PM
i dont know what to do with myself anymore, i dont want to be around people but at the same time want my old life back. i dont know how to pull myself out of this hole without running myself ragged and making myself worse than i already am, even becoming someone who isnt me
i think he fell back asleep ndim hggrjbbf. i want to say im defeated, i really do but im not, im really upset. he oversleeps so much and does nothing to change that. theres no doubt that it already has affected his health and he *should be aware of the issues it causes but no surprise if he's forgot
September 21, 2025 at 9:27 PM
i think he fell back asleep ndim hggrjbbf. i want to say im defeated, i really do but im not, im really upset. he oversleeps so much and does nothing to change that. theres no doubt that it already has affected his health and he *should be aware of the issues it causes but no surprise if he's forgot
just saw the most disgusting fucking comment ever. i feel so fucking. god i dont know but its negative. im violently upset. why would someone. say that. thats not a funny fucking joke
September 21, 2025 at 8:12 PM
just saw the most disgusting fucking comment ever. i feel so fucking. god i dont know but its negative. im violently upset. why would someone. say that. thats not a funny fucking joke
just remembered my dream?? some guy driving poorly nearly killed me n mum so we tried to remain infront of him then he was like "im gonna sue! pull over". pulled over and this guy started threatening violence nd shit like hello?! idk what inspired my brain for that but never again please
September 21, 2025 at 6:50 PM
just remembered my dream?? some guy driving poorly nearly killed me n mum so we tried to remain infront of him then he was like "im gonna sue! pull over". pulled over and this guy started threatening violence nd shit like hello?! idk what inspired my brain for that but never again please
he said something bad about himself and i never felt a mood drop smack me so hard my fucking god. i don't know why comments like those make me so upset. its not a "oh i wish my partner wouldnt say that :(", its so painful every time, it feels almost personal but also not i don't know man
September 21, 2025 at 6:47 PM
he said something bad about himself and i never felt a mood drop smack me so hard my fucking god. i don't know why comments like those make me so upset. its not a "oh i wish my partner wouldnt say that :(", its so painful every time, it feels almost personal but also not i don't know man
we've hardly talked today
September 18, 2025 at 3:14 AM
we've hardly talked today
wow that made me feel extremely avoidant! i feel like i shouldn't be anywhere near him, ill just drag him down. we live completely different lives and different paths, hes too far ahead and he needs someone who can actually keep up with him/is on the same level
September 17, 2025 at 11:34 PM
wow that made me feel extremely avoidant! i feel like i shouldn't be anywhere near him, ill just drag him down. we live completely different lives and different paths, hes too far ahead and he needs someone who can actually keep up with him/is on the same level