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@grwnktty.bsky.social
20 _ it/its
venting and nonstop rambling
vent was @6th
venting and nonstop rambling
vent was @6th
that this relationship is going to hurt him. i want to leave him to heal and maybe. i heal too if i can muster the strength then we come back to eachother but. i dont know if id be the same person, if he'd wait for me, if we'll still like eachother the same
December 17, 2025 at 7:06 AM
that this relationship is going to hurt him. i want to leave him to heal and maybe. i heal too if i can muster the strength then we come back to eachother but. i dont know if id be the same person, if he'd wait for me, if we'll still like eachother the same
i feel like something purely transactional is all im after. i dont want to touch on people who deserve the literal world and i dont understand why they cling to me either. im like a bag of bones yet they cherish me somehow and i cant even begin to reciprocate what they give me
December 17, 2025 at 5:56 AM
i feel like something purely transactional is all im after. i dont want to touch on people who deserve the literal world and i dont understand why they cling to me either. im like a bag of bones yet they cherish me somehow and i cant even begin to reciprocate what they give me
like "hey guys a lot of my reactions and words are extremely shallow and barely, if ever, represent what i actually think". as much as i think and say i dont care, i dont want to just. willingly hurt someone's feelings like that. to reveal, i dont want to really be as close as we are
December 17, 2025 at 5:56 AM
like "hey guys a lot of my reactions and words are extremely shallow and barely, if ever, represent what i actually think". as much as i think and say i dont care, i dont want to just. willingly hurt someone's feelings like that. to reveal, i dont want to really be as close as we are
i keep being like "im tired of pretending" then go back to it. but lately my mask has been slipping, especially towards my partner nd idk. what im supposed to do. or what to say to friends.
December 17, 2025 at 5:56 AM
i keep being like "im tired of pretending" then go back to it. but lately my mask has been slipping, especially towards my partner nd idk. what im supposed to do. or what to say to friends.
i really have no idea why but past me didn't really have many places to hide a blade so i chose hide it underneath this figure i have of dazai and i think that shit is fucking hilarious
November 19, 2025 at 5:15 AM
i really have no idea why but past me didn't really have many places to hide a blade so i chose hide it underneath this figure i have of dazai and i think that shit is fucking hilarious
i know its literally just bpd and/or narc traits but any time theres a little, itty bitty problem/squabble or anxious moment, i just feel immediate avoidance and the need to just drop. i "want" to be alone and just left to my devices even tho thats what destroyed me in the first place
November 19, 2025 at 2:00 AM
i know its literally just bpd and/or narc traits but any time theres a little, itty bitty problem/squabble or anxious moment, i just feel immediate avoidance and the need to just drop. i "want" to be alone and just left to my devices even tho thats what destroyed me in the first place
nd bc of how it started, i thought the characters in the dream was cool bc of their design. then when i got to like. the aftermath, i was like "wait why r theh fighting, we were chilling like a minute ago" THEN I FUCKIN REMEMBER ND GOT DISGUSTED. this trauma shitt not a joke bro
November 11, 2025 at 9:14 PM
nd bc of how it started, i thought the characters in the dream was cool bc of their design. then when i got to like. the aftermath, i was like "wait why r theh fighting, we were chilling like a minute ago" THEN I FUCKIN REMEMBER ND GOT DISGUSTED. this trauma shitt not a joke bro