managed to run a low fever again today, strong GI involvement with often excruciating pain, getting winded all the time even sitting down, both insomniac and very tired, bad headaches, dizziness and nausea. like why do i have to fight to get treatment for thattttt

anyway, i'm 20 days in, i've been testing negative since tuesday, my heart rate is still insane (walked 500m today, 150bpm, stayed 110-120 for 40 minutes after, seated), painful coughing fits where i gasp for air and fail to bring up phlegm, waking up soaked in sweat at 4-5am any given night,

i am very very very lucky to have a specialist who will send me a prescription, but this will take time and idk if i'll be able to full it before christmas

a child pushing a fully dressed adult into a pool as an obvious prank is just testing and overstepping a line while playing. an adult who then loses his shit and throws the kid in the pool needs therapy. children still learn boundaries, adults should know them.

i am not a king fan by any means so i don't care about preserving the original or anything, my point is the show took the only good thing about the source material and said "let's do the opposite"

baby the only positive thing about my life rn is my covid test

(to be clear, i did still really enjoy the movie, gave it 4 stars on letterboxd etc.; it definitely has more good than bad, and i like rian johnson in general, but i also believe in critiquing things that are lazy, harmful or even just sub-par in the media i like. k thanks for reading!)

i think it's weird that rian johnson clearly had a really good grasp of the failures and virtues of catholicism/christianity up to this point, and then ended on such a spectacular dissonance for the sake of a petty visual gag.
maybe leaving out the epilogue would've been an improvement. >

this money should've gone to charitable causes (and to reimburse simone's donations), and the way he was previously characterized, jud would've done everything in his power to make sure it does. i can headcanon that he'll do it once cy lets off, but there's no indication of that in the text. >

i have a hard time believing blanc couldn't have helped him figure that out. that thing is worth a fortune and just having it sit in a church as decoration is the exact type of bullshit that caused protestantism to break off in the first place: the church filled with riches, her parishioners poor. >

2. is also about the ending, specifically what happened to the diamond. i get that it's a reference to the sacred heart, but hiding it is frankly un-christian and against jud's character. maybe he personally can't sell it, but are you telling me there's no other way to turn it into money? >

there's obviously also the whole "why is she played by an able-bodied actor" of it all. so many people have her exact type of condition (myself included, which is why i feel quite bitter about her treatment), and i'm sure several of them are actors. they just never get these types of chances. >

i think that's unfair to the viewers whose real life experiences do line up with simone's. it feels unnecessarily mean-spirited to take from the grief and desperation of actual disabled people to craft a character that's only window dressing. to never give her the grace of an inner life. >