REFUSAL
@i0refuse.bsky.social
I can KNOT take any more 😂😂
Just kidding! I had a good day. It was hectic but I feel pretty good right now. I had such a meaningful conversation with my English teacher. She's a wonderful person with great humanity. I embarrassed myself infront of her so bad though. She gently told me,
Just kidding! I had a good day. It was hectic but I feel pretty good right now. I had such a meaningful conversation with my English teacher. She's a wonderful person with great humanity. I embarrassed myself infront of her so bad though. She gently told me,
January 17, 2026 at 3:00 AM
I can KNOT take any more 😂😂
Just kidding! I had a good day. It was hectic but I feel pretty good right now. I had such a meaningful conversation with my English teacher. She's a wonderful person with great humanity. I embarrassed myself infront of her so bad though. She gently told me,
Just kidding! I had a good day. It was hectic but I feel pretty good right now. I had such a meaningful conversation with my English teacher. She's a wonderful person with great humanity. I embarrassed myself infront of her so bad though. She gently told me,
Folks, we're back. I'm sober but dissociating and I feel pretty numb to the situation.
January 16, 2026 at 7:38 PM
Folks, we're back. I'm sober but dissociating and I feel pretty numb to the situation.
I swore I'd tell no one but I blurted everything to him under no pressure. love my bro :(
January 16, 2026 at 5:18 PM
I swore I'd tell no one but I blurted everything to him under no pressure. love my bro :(
threatening suicide looks SO good right now but if I do that I'll be just like THEM. for fucks sake.
January 16, 2026 at 8:06 AM
threatening suicide looks SO good right now but if I do that I'll be just like THEM. for fucks sake.
Feels like I'm regressing to the old days. I have to constantly stimulate myself or my perception slips.
January 16, 2026 at 7:56 AM
Feels like I'm regressing to the old days. I have to constantly stimulate myself or my perception slips.
In my fight for independence I only find myself more and more restrained .
January 16, 2026 at 7:51 AM
In my fight for independence I only find myself more and more restrained .
Why did he say so many contradictory things.i thought mydad was a good guy. How can he be so inconsiderate.
I don't want to see another dead bird
please god why am I always trapped in these cycles.
I don't want to see another dead bird
please god why am I always trapped in these cycles.
January 16, 2026 at 7:17 AM
Why did he say so many contradictory things.i thought mydad was a good guy. How can he be so inconsiderate.
I don't want to see another dead bird
please god why am I always trapped in these cycles.
I don't want to see another dead bird
please god why am I always trapped in these cycles.
I was looking at the shadow of tree branches cast by a street light outside my window.
It was pretty.
Then it started looking like insectoids.
And that freaked me out.
Now I have to hide under my sheet which are boiling. It's supposed to feel like -18. The wind won't enter my room. Complete bs.
It was pretty.
Then it started looking like insectoids.
And that freaked me out.
Now I have to hide under my sheet which are boiling. It's supposed to feel like -18. The wind won't enter my room. Complete bs.
January 16, 2026 at 7:15 AM
I was looking at the shadow of tree branches cast by a street light outside my window.
It was pretty.
Then it started looking like insectoids.
And that freaked me out.
Now I have to hide under my sheet which are boiling. It's supposed to feel like -18. The wind won't enter my room. Complete bs.
It was pretty.
Then it started looking like insectoids.
And that freaked me out.
Now I have to hide under my sheet which are boiling. It's supposed to feel like -18. The wind won't enter my room. Complete bs.
PLEASE GOD GIVE ME THE POWER TO TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE
January 16, 2026 at 7:08 AM
PLEASE GOD GIVE ME THE POWER TO TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE
I wish to frolick into oncomming traffic.
But I can't be dead for a set period of time.
But I can't be dead for a set period of time.
January 16, 2026 at 7:07 AM
I wish to frolick into oncomming traffic.
But I can't be dead for a set period of time.
But I can't be dead for a set period of time.
Its so hot in my room.
January 16, 2026 at 7:06 AM
Its so hot in my room.
that wasn't even **half** his life span. not even half his fucking lifespan. I have blood on my hands.
January 16, 2026 at 7:04 AM
that wasn't even **half** his life span. not even half his fucking lifespan. I have blood on my hands.
Guilt will eat me alive and THEY will never listen to me. Tell me this is a social experiment. I sincerely hope I am in some Truman Show situation. Torture. my values don't matter here. My suffering is because of them.
January 16, 2026 at 7:03 AM
Guilt will eat me alive and THEY will never listen to me. Tell me this is a social experiment. I sincerely hope I am in some Truman Show situation. Torture. my values don't matter here. My suffering is because of them.
I'm getting some dopamine. I'm moving on bit by bit. do I attribute the spike to finding comfort in sadness or the weed.
January 16, 2026 at 1:43 AM
I'm getting some dopamine. I'm moving on bit by bit. do I attribute the spike to finding comfort in sadness or the weed.
I hope I can find a flat rock. :(
January 16, 2026 at 1:29 AM
I hope I can find a flat rock. :(
I don't know why I'm crying right now because I was only moderately shocked a moment ago. One of my birds died and his life expectancy was a little greater than four years. seeing him(up to interpretation) lifeless on the floor of his cage was unsettling. I feel guilty. I didn't give him the best-
January 16, 2026 at 12:55 AM
I don't know why I'm crying right now because I was only moderately shocked a moment ago. One of my birds died and his life expectancy was a little greater than four years. seeing him(up to interpretation) lifeless on the floor of his cage was unsettling. I feel guilty. I didn't give him the best-
My math teacher, Ms Tangent (pseudonym) humbly asks me what half of nine is while confronting me about my test scores. I, hastily, say... "3!" then "I mean, 3.5" as she looks at me with the same gentle pity Persephone feels for a late blooming flower.
January 16, 2026 at 12:11 AM
My math teacher, Ms Tangent (pseudonym) humbly asks me what half of nine is while confronting me about my test scores. I, hastily, say... "3!" then "I mean, 3.5" as she looks at me with the same gentle pity Persephone feels for a late blooming flower.
Today might've been a good day. Trying not to jinx it.
January 13, 2026 at 11:46 PM
Today might've been a good day. Trying not to jinx it.
THEY confronted me and sheepishly asked me to "catch up" on some religion stuff. I feel so awful and sick towards it. I've rented about this before but being a queer person who's born into a religious household is not for the weak. I still have dwindling trust that God doesn't hate me and that-
January 13, 2026 at 11:43 PM
THEY confronted me and sheepishly asked me to "catch up" on some religion stuff. I feel so awful and sick towards it. I've rented about this before but being a queer person who's born into a religious household is not for the weak. I still have dwindling trust that God doesn't hate me and that-
so I may have been granted this intervention by the universe? I lost some of my cure, but that didn't stop me from idiotically getting another fix. I had a close call. I don't think he noticed though.
January 13, 2026 at 11:41 PM
so I may have been granted this intervention by the universe? I lost some of my cure, but that didn't stop me from idiotically getting another fix. I had a close call. I don't think he noticed though.
In my prison of fog
I need intervention
I need intervention
January 13, 2026 at 6:43 AM
In my prison of fog
I need intervention
I need intervention
I've been getting into poetry. I'm awful at it but it's fun.
January 13, 2026 at 6:33 AM
I've been getting into poetry. I'm awful at it but it's fun.
I need a trusted adult to intervene with my plans.
January 13, 2026 at 6:33 AM
I need a trusted adult to intervene with my plans.
An endless, unfulfilling cycle of evaporation, condensation, precipitation, and winter.
January 13, 2026 at 5:24 AM
An endless, unfulfilling cycle of evaporation, condensation, precipitation, and winter.