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infrequency.bsky.social
the feminine mesquite
@infrequency.bsky.social
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'93 | rpf/s • sometimes ao3 infrequency • long-suffering 정겸쿱ist • sylus main • god's most stupid and tested couprang • myspace gender demon

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9, savannah - jensen mcrae
"Do you want me to help?" "I think you've done enough, Seungcheol," Jeonghan says, clipped, elbowing his way into the apartment. He's still hungover, most likely visibly so. Besides, he'd rather do this on his own, and Seungcheol would be no help at all. Crawling out of Joshua's bed to come here feels like self-harm. Like touching the stove to see if it still feels the same. But the last of the boxes are stacked each row three boxes high, each one filled with Jeonghan's things that the movers didn't take. A lot of things accumulate over the course of three years. Ephemera, sweatshirts purchased in airport gift shops, and keepsakes from weddings and funerals and vacations. It hurts more than anything that they're both like this. Sentimental. "How is-" "He's fine." Seungcheol makes an affronted noise, barely repressing an eye roll. "I'm just trying to make small talk, Jeonghan-ah," he says, that annoyance flaring up before falling behind. The room falls cold. "Since I'm losing both of you in the breakup." Jeonghan grits his teeth and swallows. Doesn't say you never had him the way you had me. Doesn't say it's not like things can change. Presses on the bruise and gives him a tight smile, swallows down the bile. "His mom invited us to visit her." The reaction comes in slow ripples. It's a bitter pill, that Joshua's mother never liked Seungcheol very much, always thought he'd drank too much, that he'd been too touchy with her most precious son. When the fighting started, she'd taken Jeonghan's side. Didn't make her relief unknown when Joshua and Jeonghan had moved out of their shared home. University can't be forever, right? had been met with a knowing glance across the centerpiece and an agreeance that had come with the knowledge that a ghost would haunt them on every street. Down the line. Leaving the apartment behind only cuts the tether. "Well, I hope both of you are happy without me." Seungcheol's voice comes in a thin whisper, his ashen face nearly matching the paint. "You deserve each other." Jeonghan rolls his eyes and loads the crane. The rental truck is barely three stories below but it feels like hundreds. Watching the boxes and the dreams become smaller and smaller. Kids with his laugh, with Joshua's eyes. It feels like a threat now. Something to haunt them. The final boxes descend, and Seungcheol doesn't look at Jeonghan again, even when he reaches for the door handle and slides on his shoes. When he turns back, the room is empty. As if no one had ever been there.
December 3, 2025 at 6:32 AM
infrequency.bsky.social
50, safeword - halsey 🔞
safeword - halsey oh can you take it baby? oh can you handle it? When Jeonghan picks up the phone, Seungcheol barrels in with, "You actually didn't call me." Accusatory. A little incredulous, to be honest. Mingyu had left the Airbnb to go to his favorite LA gym, and the managers had vacated the premises shortly after Seungcheol's birthday lunch had ended. He's bored and alone. Two sets of laughs echo in the tinny speakers, neither of them belonging to the owner of the phone. I got here fine, hyung, thank you for asking! Seungkwan calls, which he ignores for now, pouting at Jeonghan as if sheer will could force him to teleport across the ocean and into Seungcheol's arms. Maybe. If he manifested hard enough. Though it's uncertain if he'd prefer Jeonghan here, with the physical distance being torturous enough. Jeonghan laughs, though his jaw tightens as he runs a hand through his shorn hair. "Ah, you know how Coups is, especially on his birthday," he explains away with a wave, as if that's all there is. Seungcheol, upset at being put out, rather than the truth of it. That low ache inside of him. Birthday well-wishes trail after Jeonghan when he finally raises up from the table on the boat deck to traverse to the other side. "Poor baby, did you feel left out?" Jeonghan's voice doesn't betray concern or amusement, even when Seungcheol winces. He can feel vibrations in his teeth. "I just wanted you to-" His knee nearly gives out, and Jeonghan tsks, all faux pity. "I didn't forget about you," he says, changing the plug speed. If walking around with it in was a distraction, this is an active nuisance. When the vibrations kick up, his teeth go numb. "Jeonghan-ah," Seungcheol whines. "You know this"-and he gestures-"wasn't what I meant when I called." "Are you okay? Still comfortable?" Scoffing, Seungcheol shoots a glare towards his phone screen. "Yes," he says through gritted teeth. "I'm fine." Jeonghan is staring back at him with his pleased Squirtle smile, sun kissing his skin. "Then lighten up, Cheollie."
December 3, 2025 at 3:20 AM
infrequency.bsky.social
please help me clap two braincells together.
spotify wrapped writing challenge reply with a character or pairing + a number between 1-100 and i will write a drabble based on the corresponding song from my top 100 most played playlist!
December 3, 2025 at 1:10 AM
infrequency.bsky.social
had a normal year. can u tell
December 2, 2025 at 12:17 AM
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also my ex’s empty headed sweet baby jiji who i miss dearly
a tuxedo cat looking mildly distressed (i picked him up in a blanket. he did not like the texture or being ambushed) a tuxedo looking at a hand with treats and not the camera a tuxedo being offered apple a tuxedo baring his fangs
December 1, 2025 at 6:48 PM
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i do not have pets unfortunately but this is my mechanic’s cat beep beep (yes that is his name and he is Perfect and Chonky)
an orange and white cat looking pleased about being given attention a cat basking in pets
December 1, 2025 at 6:46 PM
infrequency.bsky.social
okay. you seem really normal.
scoups kissing deeno. bc of course he is.
December 1, 2025 at 2:29 AM
infrequency.bsky.social
my neck has hurt so bad that doing anything that was not being asleep was too much for me so now i'm just up
November 30, 2025 at 5:37 AM
infrequency.bsky.social
two blond divas!
November 26, 2025 at 7:13 AM
infrequency.bsky.social
a screenshot of dk saying "i'm having a bit of a breakdown" (chuckles)
November 26, 2025 at 3:26 AM
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yeah that’s what i thought you’d say
scoups in an open black uniform top with gold detail and red at the end of the sleeves, jeans and a belt with a large belt buckle. he is blond, looking away from the camera. a screenshot of scoups’ playlist with welcome to the black parade at the top
November 25, 2025 at 1:58 PM
infrequency.bsky.social
the most jikook antics to ever jikook. i'm surprised jimin's not in his hooves
November 24, 2025 at 7:08 AM
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November 24, 2025 at 6:13 AM
infrequency.bsky.social
your last saved meme is your moral philosophy
screenshot of an ig story that says “some of yalls relationships really inspire me. to be single”
November 17, 2025 at 10:27 PM
infrequency.bsky.social
forgot about hayley presale but i have never seen tm say this before lmao
November 14, 2025 at 3:37 PM
infrequency.bsky.social
nvm lmao pros of your best friend being a union organizer
November 6, 2025 at 8:24 PM
infrequency.bsky.social
it’s important to be crazy and unwell #wipwednesday
"Hyung" There's a dangerous hitch to his voice. Jeonghan's own throat feels tight. Something about the timing, Seungcheol had said earlier. Wild hope in his eyes both then and now. Is this the right time? How much of Jeonghan's life has been bad timing? "I'm not imagining this, right?" He's 23. Jeonghan was a mess at 23. Barely a person. A baby. Seungcheol is putty in his hands, this warm malleable thing that melts into him. It couldn't be wrong to want something, someone who feels right. "No," Jeonghan says, drawing him in for another kiss. He's burning up from how badly he wants, how it crawls up his spine and seeps into his bloodstream. "Of course you're not."
November 5, 2025 at 4:08 PM
infrequency.bsky.social
do you Know what this means to me
halsey and lynn gunn from pvris in carts? strollers?
November 4, 2025 at 3:57 AM
infrequency.bsky.social
no comment
November 4, 2025 at 2:26 AM
infrequency.bsky.social
august-october:
a screenshot of the last bloodcarver on storygraph a screenshot of literal, showing four books: toxic by sarah ditum, cinder house by freya marske, girl dinner by olivie blake, and time loops and meet cutes by jackie lau
November 3, 2025 at 7:26 AM
infrequency.bsky.social
got a fest check in email
stock image of child scratching his head with text "damn i kinda don't feel like opening a doc at all"
November 2, 2025 at 10:11 PM
infrequency.bsky.social
i have to be hit over the head with a shovel
scoups with his big huge arms up in the air, mid-dance, wearing a sleeveless white shirt and extremely tight black pants that accentuate his. assets
October 30, 2025 at 1:58 AM
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my stupid ass driving to the venue: yeah i don't care about being close
me once i got in: if i'm not at least 5 bitches back for castle i'm gonna lose it
halsey sitting on a stage, a cyberpunk background backlighting them and the band "badlands forever" 2015-2025 with halsey in the foreground
October 27, 2025 at 3:23 PM
infrequency.bsky.social
i do have this though
a meet & greet pass for halsey at shaky knees in 2015
October 26, 2025 at 6:21 PM
infrequency.bsky.social
we have to keep trying
October 24, 2025 at 12:39 PM